cool song

Hear Us From Heaven - Jared Anderson

Verse:
Lord, hear our cry
Come heal our land
Breath life into these dry and thirsty souls
Lord, hear our prayer Forgive our sin
And as we call on Your name Would You
make this a place For Your glory to dwell
Chorus: Open the blind eyes Unlock the deaf ears
Come to Your people As we draw near Hear us from heaven
Touch our generation
We are Your people Crying out in desperation
Lord hear our song Your children worship As we sing out Your praise
Would You make this a place for Your glory to dwell
Bridge: Hear Us From Heaven, Hear Us From Heaven, Hear Us From Heaven (4x)

cool illustration

In a kindgarten class a teacher brought in a picture of a family and one of the boy in the picture had different colour of hair and skin and one boy said is that boy adopted? this girl said he probably is, i know about adoption because i am adopted. a person in the class asked what is adoption? The girl that was adopted said" I grew in my mommy's heart instead of my mommy's tummy.

Lyrics Don't worry child(no idea who wrote but would like to know :)

Don't worry child

To live is christ to die is gain
You believe this but you can't ignore your pain
It's hard enough to move it through another day
now you need someone to hear you when you pray

Chorus:
Don't worry child, i am right here by your side
I been here all along in me, won't you abide
Is your grief too much to bare, give it to me
I can heal your heart, your soul i can set you free

When you wake up each day my promises are new
Have faith in me and i will get you through
Is your burden heavy here take mine it light
my yolk is easy, come and have this life

Chorus

You've fought until you nothing left to give
Every ounce of every energy you have spent
though your heart it break inside
more than anything in life
I long for you to know

Chorus

I know this pain this has caused
Gave my son upon the cross
But know nothing has been lost
Believe in me (2x)

praise the lord!

The lord is with us where ever we go.
He go before us and prepare the way
He loves us where we are, that he is not finished what we are and hope what we can become.
he calm the storms in our lifes
he is the god of justice
he is the judge and he is the judge the wicked
he is god of grace. praise the lord for grace
he is a god of second chances, if we run from him, he is there with arm wide open waiting for us to run back to him. hallejuah!
more of him and less of me
he must increase, i must decrease

just me

Things are pretty good in my life this days, I am now taking 8 hrs of class to catch up for the lost time i missed in the first month so it is a bit overwhelmed but it will be worth it in the end, i will be finished soon. Practium is coming up soon, i am excited and nervous at the same time, God has been speaking to me about grace and just showing what my priveledge at the moment should be. School now, relationships later. i been reading the word more and i am spend more time with my 614 family and i know that i always have someone to talk to or if i need any prayer people are there for me. it is great. That i am great person and unquire . I am fearfully and wonderfully made and i know that the lord works in me are beautiful The lord is reshowing me who i am in him, a strong women of god that obey the following of the holy spirit.

colossian 3:1-4

Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God. 2Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. 3For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God. 4When Christ, who is your[a] life, appears, then you also will appear with him in glory.

Lord help me to focus on things that are eternal and what is good and pure and noble in my life and not the not so good things that are happening in my life right now. lord lift the veil of my eyes to see the good in my life. Help my eyes to fix my eyes on you jesus. You are right beside me and i know, i thanks for you that you are standing right next me and you are walking through this with me, i am not alone in this. hallejuah! Lord you are the lifter of my head and my glory.

Isaiah 41:9-11
I took you from the ends of the earth, from its farthest corners I called you. I said, 'You are my servant'; I have chosen you and have not rejected you. So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. (Love this verse, the lord has been giving this verse to me and for other people in the last few months.)

Shane & I broke up

The rumours are true, Shane & I broke up. I am doing ok, I still love him and care for him but last night i came to the conclusion that i have a great life, amazing church family and family and school and i need a guy that respect who i am and willing to wait for me no matter what the circumances are and yes i agree i need to think really things through before making a decision but i am not perfect, i am understanding person, i accept him for who he was, why can't he do the same for me. I don't need more drama in my life, have enough of that thr0ugh my childhood. Thanks for all those are praying for me, i appericate it a lot :)

my easter weekend

i went back to gibsons for 5 days thursday to sunday. friday i went to the good friday service which was good. saw some familar faces including my youth pastors which it was great to see them both. saturday i slept in late and walk my dog and just chill out, i got a phone call from a old friend, marria, she was one of my youth leader and it been almost 2 years since we last saw each other so it was so cool to see her and came up. we went for a walk along bonniebrook and then went for gelato ice cream which was great. it was so good to see her and to catch up. sunday had dinner with family and watch shaune of the dead and then i went to xculture to hang out with shane and other cool people that live out there. watch a movie and just relax and then me and shane walk home back downtown. today, i slept in late, had breakfest with shane and went out to starbuck and we went window shopping for computer games. it been a good break.

update

went to the doctor today, There were not migerines or anything serious like tumours or anything like that. It was muscle and joint tenision in the neck and shoulders and the pain just go up into the head, just have to add heat to my shoulder and neck and if that is not worked then i will have to go do massage therphy and i found that one of my cousin does that for a living and my mom is going to try and get me a discount which would be sweetness.

please pray for me

Hmm i been getting a migranine headache as least one a week for the last 3 weeks, I have no idea why. i went to a doctor yesterday and he did some tests regarding a tumour, which i don't have which is good. he also prescriped me with some pills. I am going to get a second opinion on thursday when i go to my family doctor that i know and trust. Please pray for me. I already miss one day of school last week and this week, i can't afford to miss any more school because of this and i don't want to miss school because i enjoyed it a lot.
In other news, i am well.

there is still hope in the DTES

Matt, becky and myself were on street combat tonight, first if you ask him to break your heart, he does and he definality did tonight. We met this women who was in her 50. She just start to talk to us and we stopped, she just open up on how she was down here for a long time and she had a revelation in the mirrior on saturday, that she has so much to live for, she want to change and she want freedom from addiction. She lost her finger from a fresh eating infection and teeth from drugs. She want to go to treatment. She want to be free. She want to love herself first and then help other people to do the same. Hallejuah. We told her about homestead and her face just lit up and we are going to give her the information about homestead in the next few days. We all pray over and just spoke truth in her life. Her name is paula. We all gave her a hug and we left being encouraged and blessed from the women that has so much hope and desire a change and know that jesus can tranformed her life. Hallejuah!

martyr memories

Favorite street combat storie
Me and andy macdonald were out on street combat and we met our friend bill, his eye was pussed up and extremely bruised so me and andy went to the war room, there was craig and joel and i laid hands on him and i pray for healing and everyone else agree with me and bill's eye was healed that night!
Jonathan & I go through the alley and we met lind and we did the sinner prayer with her and then we saw josh and other friends in the alley later that night and josh had a vision of a girl in the alley crying out for god and that was girl that me and jonathan found.
Extreme prophetic Foot washing at cartneige, meeting heather a 22 year crank addict and washing her feet, allow her to sleep in my room, gave her food. i see her sometimes on the street and she remember me. Writing my first song in the war room ever
Sleepover in 202 with rachael, nicole, jaime R, sueann
Roommate with linsday New and jamie smith sleep on our couch. Having all my squad coming to my room to pray for me when i was sick in bed
Storming out of frustration of squad and going into the next room.
Drill with steve and danielle
Going to Recre8 the first night with aurora and sueann when i was here meeting adam, matt and traci
going to celerbration of lights with travis
pray the bible with techno
going to see a date with drew barrymore with esther during fort night
all the wonderful talk and hang out times with Heather :)
Watch disney movies at 107 with linsay, jenn, josh, heather and phil. good times
reading the order of regulations with melinda on her bed, memorizing the 6 of the 11 docurines in one day
Becoming a solider in 614 on graduation day

Isaiah 58 Raw

Raw has started, last night was started with a dance routine by jonathan evan, donny and ian, good job guys, let just said it was freaking hilerious and entertaining :) Worship was great and Aaron preached and then we pray over each other that our heart would align with the father's heart, our heart would feel what the father would feel. The theme chapter for this year is Isaiah 58. Challenging chapter and i think i am going to try and memorize it. Shout it aloud, do not hold back. Raise your voice like a trumpet. Declare to my people their rebellion and to the house of Jacob their sins.
2 For day after day they seek me out; they seem eager to know my ways, as if they were a nation that does what is right and has not forsaken the commands of its God. They ask me for just decisions and seem eager for God to come near them.
3 'Why have we fasted,' they say, 'and you have not seen it? Why have we humbled ourselves, and you have not noticed?' "Yet on the day of your fasting, you do as you please and exploit all your workers.
4 Your fasting ends in quarreling and strife, and in striking each other with wicked fists. You cannot fast as you do today and expect your voice to be heard on high.
5 Is this the kind of fast I have chosen, only a day for a man to humble himself? Is it only for bowing one's head like a reed and for lying on sackcloth and ashes? Is that what you call a fast, a day acceptable to the LORD ?
6 "Is not this the kind of fasting I have chosen: to loose the chains of injustice and untie the cords of the yoke, to set the oppressed free and break every yoke?
7 Is it not to share your food with the hungry and to provide the poor wanderer with shelter— when you see the naked, to clothe him, and not to turn away from your own flesh and blood?
8 Then your light will break forth like the dawn, and your healing will quickly appear; then your righteousness [a] will go before you, and the glory of the LORD will be your rear guard.
9 Then you will call, and the LORD will answer; you will cry for help, and he will say: Here am I. "If you do away with the yoke of oppression, with the pointing finger and malicious talk,
10 and if you spend yourselves in behalf of the hungry and satisfy the needs of the oppressed, then your light will rise in the darkness, and your night will become like the noonday.
11 The LORD will guide you always; he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land and will strengthen your frame. You will be like a well-watered garden, like a spring whose waters never fail.
12 Your people will rebuild the ancient ruins and will raise up the age-old foundations; you will be called Repairer of Broken Walls, Restorer of Streets with Dwellings.
13 "If you keep your feet from breaking the Sabbath and from doing as you please on my holy day, if you call the Sabbath a delight and the LORD's holy day honorable, and if you honor it by not going your own way and not doing as you please or speaking idle words,
14 then you will find your joy in the LORD, and I will cause you to ride on the heights of the land and to feast on the inheritance of your father Jacob." The mouth of the LORD has spoken. The first night went well I believe. I am not as much involved as past years but i love Raw it is a freaking awesome event. teenager come down here on their spring break, doing urban mission. the lord dig that for sure. later dudes

Yesterday Me & shane celerbrated our 3 month anniversary of being together. It be a road of good and bad time but it been worth it all and things are great between me and him. Me & him went to the dugout and got some coffee and then we walk through the chinese garden, so gorgeous on a sunny day, went to his favorite chinese store and just look at cool looking oriontal furnite, we went to red robin and then me & him went to recre8. it was the perfect afternoon and a good way to celebrated our 3 months

what a mighty god we serve

From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea Creation's revealing Your majesty From the colors of fall to the fragrance of spring Every creature unique in the song that it sings All exclaiming Indescribable, uncontainable,You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.You are amazing God All powerful, untameable, Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaimYou are amazing God Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snowWho imagined the sun and gives source to its light Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of nightNone can fathomIndescribable, uncontainable,You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by nameYou are amazing GodAll powerful, untameable,Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaimYou are amazing GodYou are amazing God Indescribable, uncontainable,You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.You are amazing God All powerful, untameable,Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaimYou are amazing God Indescribable, uncontainable,You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.You are amazing God Incomparable, unchangeable You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same You are amazing God You are amazing God

from my devotions tonight from 2 corthinathin 1:3-7

Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, 4who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God. 5For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows. 6If we are distressed, it is for your comfort and salvation; if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which produces in you patient endurance of the same sufferings we suffer. 7And our hope for you is firm, because we know that just as you share in our sufferings, so also you share in our comfort.

Hallejuah God loves us so much that he comfort us and give us the strength to carry on. how great is our god, what mighty god we serve.

a little peice of my heart.

Why does loving someone so much have hurt so freaking much. i want an open and honesty relationship, it really messy, that was my experience tonight. totally not what i thought it was or was really ready for. i really want to love like 1 cortinathin 13 love.
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails

what i learn from listening prayer when i was away for the weekend
Jesus is up on the mountain top and i was at the botton and i look up and i saw him. He saw me and call down, come up here Rebekah. i want to show you something. I hike up top of the mountain it was gruly and hard, i got all sweaty and grossy, i got to the top of the mountain. tired i collapsed at jesus feet with my eyes shutted, Here i am, Jesus. Jesus came over to me and knelt beside and put his arm around me and said roman 8:28 which said And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him who have been called according to his purpose and he told me to open my eyes so i did, what a breathtaking view and i could see everything and jesus turn to me and said see it was worth it all, all the you do is according my purpose and i will show you my glory. your effect pay off, your faith pay off, your trust to walk the mountain and you were blessed in return. i turn to him and i said thanks u and we sat down and talk.

It is a mountain i need to climb, hurt and grossy and messy is neccarsay, lord just give me the strength to do it so i can see the fruit of this the work i am putting in.

from my devotions this evening

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.

distractions

there is so many distractions in this world, guys, tv, computers and getting too busy with school and just life in general. Some time in life we get too busy to bask in the lord's presence. He know the distractions of this world. I have a cool picture today as i was walking through a park with my dog. Jesus is at the a romatic set table in a resturant with a nice suit on, he waiting for us with a flower in hand, to talk to him and spend time with, he want us to rest in his presence. personally i have been so distracted lately with life and that i have been too busy for the most important relationship in my life, Jesus. I been selifish with my time, God is a jealous god and he want to spend time with me more and more. I need discpline, so i found a celerbation of discpline and pick it up and start to read it last night and will continued to read it. i need jesus more in my life. I need him every hour of every day. i need a balanced life. jesus plus all the other stuff in my life because they are important to me as well.

verse of the day

Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth.”- 1 John 3:18

my rations this morning John 21:15-25

15When they had finished eating, Jesus said to Simon Peter, "Simon son of John, do you truly love me more than these?" "Yes, Lord," he said, "you know that I love you." Jesus said, "Feed my lambs."
16Again Jesus said, "Simon son of John, do you truly love me?" He answered, "Yes, Lord, you know that I love you." Jesus said, "Take care of my sheep."
17The third time he said to him, "Simon son of John, do you love me?" Peter was hurt because Jesus asked him the third time, "Do you love me?" He said, "Lord, you know all things; you know that I love you."
18Jesus said, "Feed my sheep. I tell you the truth, when you were younger you dressed yourself and went where you wanted; but when you are old you will stretch out your hands, and someone else will dress you and lead you where you do not want to go." 19Jesus said this to indicate the kind of death by which Peter would glorify God. Then he said to him, "Follow me!"
20Peter turned and saw that the disciple whom Jesus loved was following them. (This was the one who had leaned back against Jesus at the supper and had said, "Lord, who is going to betray you?") 21When Peter saw him, he asked, "Lord, what about him?"
22Jesus answered, "If I want him to remain alive until I return, what is that to you? You must follow me." 23Because of this, the rumor spread among the brothers that this disciple would not die. But Jesus did not say that he would not die; he only said, "If I want him to remain alive until I return, what is that to you?"
24This is the disciple who testifies to these things and who wrote them down. We know that his testimony is true.
25Jesus did many other things as well. If every one of them were written down, I suppose that even the whole world would not have room for the books that would be written.


We were doing listening prayer at knee drill on thursday and jesus ask us if we love him, this question has been in my head for the last few days now. do i honourly love him, does my words match up with the actions i am doing. is my life living up to what i already attained in christ, a part of me thinks no. Jesus Forgive me, help me to match my words with my action, i want to love you as much as you loves us. You love us first and thanks for your love and grace. lord help me to seek and find you in the secret place.

verse of the day

There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.”- 1 John 4:18

Heather, travis and rob will be in town soon, so excited to see all of them :) and to meet leo and jesse

random verse

But it is God who judges: He brings one down, he exalts another.

SASB # 724

Have we not known it, have we not heard it? Power unto god belongs. Yet do we daily find in his mercy, themes for the sweetest songs; Healing the wounded, raising the fallen, Making the blind to see, saying all who seek his face, these precious of redeeming grace:

No more! No more
He remember sins no more
They are pardoned for ever
and he will never,
bring up against me any more.
I'll hear no more of the evil days of yore;
I am pardoned offender, and God will remember them no more.

Joy burst of singing gaily are springing with every day that starts
if we were silent then would the stones cry, shame on our fainting hearts
O banish sadness, sing now for gladness, Glory in christ, the Lord
Who is a god like unto thee
one can pardon iniquity?

Safe in the dark day, safe in the bright day; safe til my latest breath;
There is endurance in this assurance, stronger than fear of death, When the accuser of judgement. seeking my soul to claim, i have a token in the blood, I have the word of a pardoning God.

Hallejuah!

Feb update

February has been a pretty good month for me. I realized that my trigger of my insomnia is stressing over my schooling because i really want to do well in this course and i am too hard on myself when i am not. Me and Shane step back for a brief time when we realized that we were both miserable and we both could not hear the voice of the lord so we got back together and the blessing and the favour of the lord returned for the both of us. Shane met my dad, my two brothers and it went well, then he met my sister and my mom so now he has met all my family. he proposed to me and i agree but after a brief time we both felt the timing was off and went back to courtship and it been great. It is a blessing for me to have him in my life. We also both realized that we both spend too much time together so we stepped back and this past week we almost did not see each other at all so we have to make a happy medium and where the idea of date nights came in. Monday and Friday night we are going to hang out intentionally one on one. we had our first one and it was really good, it was a lot of fun. I finished my phase 2 and decided not to continued on with phase 3 because i just want to finished phase 2 because i started it and this year was set aside for ECE. School is going well, stressful at times but i enjoy it and my classmates and my teachers. if any of you have tips for stress relievers let me know please. i got the chance to spend some time with Doug when he was in town and it was rich and blessing time as always when he comes. i got a new cell phone and if you want to have the number, email me. hmm that is all i can think about writing right now. Blessing and grace

psalm 103:8-13

You might of heard the expression, once gay alway gay, personally i think it is a load of bull. i believe that gay is a sin and if someone turn straight after having an encounter with jesus christ then he is straight now, praise the lord! He died for all sins.
I love this verse:
The LORD is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in love.
He will not always accuse, nor will he harbor his anger forever;
he does not treat us as our sins deserve or repay us according to our iniquities.
For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his love for those who fear him; 12 as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us.

Why does people have to judge the past, the past is the past, the past is the past for a reason. I wish people would see a person the way they are now and what they are becoming.

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To have a heart like his to look into the faces of the saved and rejoice, there just one grave away from being like Jesus, to have a heart like him, to look into the face of the lost and pray. for unless they turn, there one grave away from torment.

It is a serious thing to live in a society of possible god and godless, to remember that the dullest and most uninteresting person you talk to many one day be a creature which, if you saw it now, you would be strongly tempted to worship, or else a horror and a corruption such as you meet only in a nightmare, all day long we are, in some degree, helping each other to one or the other of these destination. C.S Lewis

And so my challenge to you is simple, ask god to help you have his eternal view of the world.

Every time i heard this song, i think of shane

"Ever The Same"We were drawn from the weedsWe were brave like soldiersFalling down under the pale moonlightYou were holding to meLike a someone brokenAnd I couldn't tell you but I'm telling you nowJust let me hold you while you're falling apartJust let me hold you and we'll both fall downFall on meTell me everything you want me to beForever with you forever in meEver the sameWe would stand in the windWe were free like waterFlowing downUnder the warmth of the sunNow it's cold and we're scaredAnd we've both been shakenHey, look at usMan, this doesn't need to be the endJust let me hold you while you're falling apartJust let me hold you and we'll both fall downFall on me tell me everything you want me to beForever with youForever in meEver the sameCall on meI'll be there for you and you'll be there for meForever it's youForever in meEver the sameYou may need me thereTo carry all your weightBut you're no burden I assureYou tide me overWith a warmth I'll not forgetBut I can only give you loveFall on me tell me everything you want me to beForever with youForever in meEver the sameCall on meI'll be there for you and you'll be there for meForever it's youForever in meEver the sameForever with youForever in meEver the same(Ever the same)

John 15:15

Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends.

He called us friends, he want to be friends with us, we were sinner and now he see us clean, Hallejuah!

What is your best all time conversation or revelation that jesus reveal to you in your quiet time?

Mine: Going through a child memory when i was rejected in school and how he was right beside me the whole time and how much freedom attained for dealing with a little part of the problem.

He goes with you with every where you, He is strong and courtagious and he is your strength when you are weak.

Me and shane :)

Recre8 wedensday

I lead the coolest night, Wedensday, some people will think that thursday night is, those people will remain nameless. anyway we were praying, stephanie had a word that jesus want to recre8 be fill with his praise and it was. Stephanie play her guitar and close to the end, we were playing cards and we singing our favorite worship songs. We pray over people and it was just a picture of what recre8 is supposed to look like. It was an awesome night. One of the best i have experienced in a while. Praise the lord!

Rations

I tell you, open your eyes and look at the fields! They are ripe for harvest. 36Even now the reaper draws his wages, even now he harvests the crop for eternal life, so that the sower and the reaper may be glad together. 37Thus the saying 'One sows and another reaps' is true. 38I sent you to reap what you have not worked for. Others have done the hard work, and you have reaped the benefits of their labor." From John 4: 35-38

i find this verse fitted into war college, the death and glory plowed and prepared the feilds and we reap the benefits of their labour and the martyrs did with the holy session and what the revolution session reaped for this yer. Hallejuah more lord more :)

Today

sum up version:Good but long, but here we go with the details
Woke up, have a shower and got on my uniform and met Shane at his house, we went up to metro town citadel for church. Major Elizabeth grad point that Shane has brought a special someone with him today so he stood up and introduced me as the girl i am courting and i am pretty embarrassed, not sure why but i was little. It was a good time of worship, mixture of 614 style of worship and old salvo style. it was cool. i did not know many songs but it is all good. The sermon was about heaven and the text was john 13:36 to John 14 :5. it was good message. I lean over and said not very nice but truthfully comment to Shane, we do not need to repeat it after church, it was their annual fellowship coffee and there were this skor bars that a lady made, they were amazing. we dealt with a lot of things regarding the wedding today. If we are not engaged yet, we both detailed orated so we both agree we should start thinking what our wedding want to look like so we don't need to stressed when we are in engaged. Next stop, Xculture: Superbowl with lots of guys and junk food equal lot of fun and a sore stomach specially when you had nothing but that all day. Bears Lost:( crying insert here) Apparently prince is a good performer and someone want three of his cd, not going to say any names. We went off to my sister place. I have to talk to my parents, that is always fun. we were going to watch a movie, but we decide to talk about Barnum family stories and just chatting and eating Chinese food. So concludes the day of Rebekah's Sunday.

LALALALALALALA

Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him psalm 37:17b

The lord has been speaking to me about be silence before him and just being in his presence.


Tired of telling you, you have me
When I know you really don't
Tired of telling you I'll followWhen I know I reallly won't
Cause I'd rather stand here speechless
With no great words to say
If my silence is more truthful
And my ears can hear how to walk in your way In the silence You are speaking In the quiet I can feel the fire And it's burning, burning deeply Burning all that it is that you desire to be silent, in me Oh Jesus can you hear me?My soul is screaming outAnd my broken will cries teach meWhat your Kingdom's all about Unite my heart to fear you,To fear your holy name And create a life of worship In the spirit and truth of your loving ways

your thoughts?

sh0uld man be the head of the household and make all the major spirtual and other big decisons after discussing with his wife or should the wife and man be equal in making the decisions?
Your thoughts?

Me and shane are the same page on this but curious what other people thoughts?

My love language

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Physical Touch
with a secondary love language being
Quality Time.

Complete set of results

Physical Touch:		10
Quality Time:		9
Words of Affirmation:		5
Acts of Service:		3
Receiving Gifts:		2

Take the quiz

i am enaged

Jesus is freakin cool

How great is our god, that is all you need to know :) He is good and his love endure forevers. He answers when you call out to him and him alone.
Yesterday i got to sit in a prayer minstry with stephanie, it was freaking awesome. i was praying that i would see doug some time this week and i did it was sweet, we went out for coffee to talk and catch up, it was great to see him.
Hmm school is good, i am going to my old centre tommorrow to do an observation, not too excited about the assignment but am excited about seeing the kids from before.
Cristina edmond is awesome, I love her a lot.
Shane is awesome, i enjoy him a lot, he is a good guy :)

Rations

Who is wise and understanding among you? Let him show it by his good life, by deeds done in the humility that comes from wisdom. 14But if you harbor bitter envy and selfish ambition in your hearts, do not boast about it or deny the truth. 15Such "wisdom" does not come down from heaven but is earthly, unspiritual, of the devil. 16For where you have envy and selfish ambition, there you find disorder and every evil practice. 17But the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure; then peace-loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere. 18Peacemakers who sow in peace raise a harvest of righteousness.

Jame 3:13-18

Lord i want wisdom from heaven, to be full with mercy and a branch off the tree of the life that bears fruit


In other news I am quite well.
How the lord bless me this week
Tuesday night street combat.
hang out with my recre8 team on wedenesday & family guy monopoly with andy/shane/bec sisters.
Thursday: Receive a check from minstry of early child hood education, able to take out
sshane to eat :)
Knee drill was amazing, a good time of worshipping the lord and imparting gifts to each other, it was awesome. Intimacy with the lord, grace, faith, joy, revelation and wisdom.
Friday: School was pretty good, went to hope renefrew, it was lovely to hang out with stephy,stephanie, holly and jenea. it was a good way to spend an evening
Saturday: rations this morning,cleansing streams cell and then hanging out with family, saw my brother play handball and my dad took me and shane out to lunch and now we are doing a lord of the ring marathon. we are on a break. Lord of the ring movies has good preaching moments in it, maybe i will blog some of them. will see what happens.
doug burr is in town, woohoo :)

street combat last night

street combat was last night, i had a new excitement for it last night, i really felt joy and the lord was going to do something on the street of the downtown, that people would have an holy encounter with the one true god.
It was a good night. Me, matt and becky went out and hit the alleys and we were in blood alley and there was a guy that was mourning and sound like he was in pain. so i call out said if he was ok, we went over and ask him if he was ok and need anything or prayer. he disagree with prayer but i believe as we just be there bought peace to him because he became more peaceful after we got there. it was cool. What i heard from donny and jermeny that the spirt of god was moving in a powerful way through them as well. Praise the lord
Jesus i want to see your fire on the streets, the spirt of prophecy to be release over the street of the eastside, healing and holy encounter with your holy spirit. hallejuah

burning in the sky

was listening to this morning on my mp3 player.
Youve been too long upon this mountainIts time you journey to the sea
Sometimes to trust in your false comfort
Is easier than trusting me
Some men only believe in what their eyes can seeSome men only believe in what their minds conceive
But believings like conceiving
This child that were receiving
A gift beyond our reason Its more of what we need, and less of what we know It calls not to our mind, but cries out to our soulThat mountains burning in the sky To the heart of heaven Without the fire well never fly To the heart of heaven Can you hear Gods holy cry From the heart of heaven Lay it all down Lay it all down Lay it all down For the heart of heaven

Jesus i want more of your heart of heaven in my life

my week in a nutshell

Hard.....
This whole thing about waiting on the lord about me and shane getting together again after he receive that growth the lord want to do in him. Every day, i had want to cry and most days i did cry. i never felt about a guy like this before. Every thing inside of me wants to be with him right now but i know it is not the right timing and i have to wait on the lord. I had some good war room shifts and through music and scripture the lord has encouraged me. i been having trouble sleeping this past week. Well In him i trust. Pray for me, for strength and i will live up to what i already attained and i will receive what the lord want to teach through this all. Today was a good day for me, maybe because i went to bed early and it took me an hour to get to sleep when i did i slept through the night and i had a good day at school today.

Lean not on my own understanding, lean on him and he will direct my path.
proverb 3:5-6

GRACE TO YOUR FACE ALL!
REBEKAH

the lord spoke to me through this song today, fix you by coldplay.

When you try your best but you don't succeedWhen you get what you want but not what you needWhen you feel so tired but you can't sleep Stuck in reverse.And the tears come streaming down your face When you loose something you can't replace When you love someone but it goes to waste Could it be worse?Lights will guide you home And ignite your bonesAnd I will try to fix youAnd high up above or down below When you're too in love to let it go But if you never try you'll never know Just what you're worthLights will guide you home And ignite your bonesAnd I will try to fix you Tears stream, down your face When you lose something you cannot replace Tears stream down your face And I..Tears stream, down your face I promise you I will learn from the mistakes Tears stream down your face And I..Lights will guide you home And ignite your bonesAnd I will try to fix you.

summitting to authority is some time hard but important to do it

Lord, You are strong when i am weak, You are the one that heal the brokehearted. Lord i don't know what you are doing but my eyes are on you. Lord open my eyes to the things i can't not see. Lord You are my helper. I will choose bless your name when my life is good and when my life sore of stinks. i just feeling sad about all this right now but i know it would be good and worth it all in the end. i just don't see it in its fullness yet.

I got a word on new year eve for shane that this year will be a year of growth and well apparently it was confirmated by our wonderful leadership so after me and shane pray and talk about it, we decide it would be the best if we hold off our relationship until fullness of growth happens in shane's life. We are still friends and wait on the lord on when to return to each other to pick up where we left in our relationship.

Lord I trust in you! I believe in what you are doing in me and in shane's life. I believe that you want to teach me something through all this and i accept your teachings.

Blessing to you all
Rebekah :)

verse of the day

He has showed you, O man, what is good. And what does the LORD require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God.”- Micah 6:8

Lord make me humble, you are the humble king, that your mercy and compassionate heart flow through me and your justice flow like a river among on the street of the vancouver. amen

this my heart desire

Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God—this is your spiritual act of worship. Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

Lord I want to be completely surrender to you and your will, i wants be a living sacrifice for you! I want everything i do will honour you and it would be a sweet sound in your ear.

Revelation in the war room.
Name of the the lord: God who gave birth to you. He love me before i was born, he made me perfect in my mother's womb. if i fall, he still there to pick me up and carry me. he is still proud of me and what i am doing for him and his glory. he is carrying me along. Praise the lord! From psalm 139:13-18

My cell came to me when i was in the war room so i did not miss cell, it was a blessing :D

recap of 2006

Well 2006 has definitely be a year of up and down but a year that i will remember.
Highlights of 2006
Jeni & Regan engagement/enrollment so happy for them
Europe in the summer of 2006
Heather's visit & rob surprise visit
more freedom and healing in the lord
more intimacy with Jesus
seeing Esther
deeper revelation of 614 is really my family
deeper revelation of Vancouver is my home
meeting the holy session, man i love you guys and miss you
Met the revolution session, they are great!
Starting an amazing career working with kids in ECE(early childhood education)
More closer relationship with my family
Of course i can't forget at the end of 2006, meeting the best guy in the world beside Jesus, Shane and starting a relationship with him.

Hopes for 2007
More of Jesus and less of me
More freedom for Shane, believe in faith that the lord will restore 100 fold on what the enemy has took ed from him
Justice against child trafficking and in general on the streets of Vancouver.
that 2007 would be the year of a revival, the year of the lord.
Captives will be release, prisoners will be set free and the chain of the wicked will be loosed
Passion for the lost
Faith to believe jesus's hand is mighty to save
Salvation for my family

last night

Well i am home! Home is where the heart is and my heart is in vancouver. My break at my parent's house was pretty good overall. I got the 2:30 ferry back and it left on time which was nice. i met up with shane at sears. i gave him the biggest hug, i think i might of broke a rib or so but i think he will live. then we went and met up with my wonderful roommate jenea and my good friend donny. we went out for dinner, it was good, donny play with his camera on his phone. went home and then went over to the court-strickland place and watch accepted, quite funny and went home and watch shane win at poker for a little bit and went to bed. it was fun filled evening.

my beautiful dog

 
My dog
She is a cross breed

spikey

 
We had him for the longest

our beautiful tree

 
oh christmas tree oh christmas tree how lovely are your branches

which one do you like more?

 
what it look like now

before & after shot of my second hair

 
what it use to look like

my christmas includes this........

sleeping in quite late
my dad making us egg/potato/bacon all in one it was freaking amazing
watch tv
broad games
fight club
puzzling
dinner
chatting with shane dayvd and lisa in the wee hours of the morning.

Mary did you know?

Mary did you know, that your baby boy
Would one day walk on water?
Mary did you know, that your baby boy
Would save our sons and daughters?
Did you know, that your baby boy
Has come to make you new?
This Child that you delivered,
Will soon deliver you!

Mary did you know, that your baby boy
Will give sight to the blind man?
Mary did you know, that your baby boy
Would calm a storm with His hand?

Did you know, that your baby boy
Has walked where angels trod
And when you kiss your little baby,
You've kissed the face of God?
Oh, Mary did you know?
Mary did you know?

The blind will see, the deaf will hear,
The dead will live again,
The lame will leap, the dumb will speak
Praises of the Lamb?

Mary did you know, that your baby boy
Is Lord of all creation?
Mary did you know, that your baby boy
Will one day rule the nations?

Did you know, that your baby boy
Was Heaven's perfect Lamb?
And this sleeping Child you're holding
Is the Great I AM

Holy Incarnation day

OK SANTA LET'S SEE YOU RISE FROM THE GRAVE


Holy Incarnation! Praise God our Hope is in Jesus and beyond the sting of death!

classial christmas story of the Barnum household

I count down to the days until Sam and Dan come home. It seems like only yesterday I was counting down the years until they were out of the house and my torment would end. Maybe it was only yesterday… Time is a curious thing . They arrive and the family leaves to pick out a tree. Sure it’s last minute, it being the eve of Christmas but a little on the late side is just how our family does things. Beside it just wouldn’t feel right if we didn’t all do together. Of course, by this time all the good trees are gone. We bicker about how we should of gone looking earlier but well, the bickering is all part of Christmas too. We argue about which tree of the few left is the least ugly and should have the honor of coming home with us. If mom get her way, and we know mom always get her way, we’ll end up taking home the ugliest tree in the lot. We pay for it, put it on the roof and are on our way. The males lug our little tree up the stairs and we begin to set it up. Well that is what we would do if we could find a tree stand. Where did we put that tree stand? After much rifling about we find it, but of course the bolts that hold the tree in place is missing. You would think after all the years we would get some new ones but we never do seem to learn. Everyone tries to recall how we had overcome this problem last year . Pennies maybe, did pennies work? Or was it bottle caps? I think bottle cap was it. Dan take one for the team and guzzles some beers so we can use the caps. It works. I hold the tree while the try to get it perfectly straight. I hardly see the point. It ‘s not as if the cat isn’t going to knock it over anyways. When impatience and frustration finally take over and the stupid tree is as straight as it’s going to get we start to decorate. First I fill it with water. Nobody else seem to care about the welfare of our poor Christmas tree. Sam, that brave brave boy , is in charge of the lights . It never seems to matter how neatly we put them away the previous year they still seem to find a way to tangle themselves again. He work diligently until they are untangled then begins the daunting task of making them work. He, like Dan, is our hero for making this sacrifice. Although our hero is heard screaming some less than saintly term at the top of his lungs at the lights, who don’t seem to take his treats very seriously because it’s another hour before they decide to light up. He has been to electrocute himself once or twice in his attempts before he manages to get them all working. Although, truth be told, I think he kind of enjoys that. So with the lights finally up we start to throw the ornaments on the tree. Yes, throw not put. Placing them doesn’t seem as much fun. Is it just me or do we seem to have fewer ornaments than last year? We have to actually put some heavy ones on the branches above the gaps to make an attempt at camouflaging them. It doesn’t really work. Its not all disorderly. We have our themes. Last year was gold, the year before that was umm well gold too. I can’t remember what the year before that was but I’m guess it was something truly spectacular and original. Mom has not been in the room all this time. I think the chaos is a little too much for her. She always returns at the end though to tell us what a beautiful job we’ve done (such a convincing liar my mother is). She also has the oh so important job of hanging the angel on top. We all stand around to marvel at the wondrous thing that is our tree, even though the skinny thing looks like it might fall over from the weight of all the heavy ornaments. It’s our tree though so we stand in awe of its beauty for a moment. Not long though. Its only a second before we can’t stand to hear the musical Christmas tree lights play its irritating tunes any longer and we all wander off to do our own thing.
Nothing eventful happens until the next evening when mom and dad take it upon themselves to drag us to church. They use every line in the book to guilt us into submission. Eventually we concede begrudgingly. We arrive and they give us all candles to light later. We’re a step ahead of them though because Dan has a lighter. We, being such rebels, light ours up and agree to blow them out on the count of three. 1... We look around to realize all our candles are already out. We try again. 2...3... They are all out again. We laugh at our inability, give up, and sit down. The time comes to light the candles. Rebekah tips the lighted one getting wax on the floor (shhh). We all stand and sing Christmas carols. Sam shouts out the lyrics to the songs as loudly and inaccurately as possible; noAL noAL. I nearly die of embarrassment. I’ll have to remember next time to make sure I don’t sit by him. After what seems like hours it’s over and we return home. I get home and relax. This doesn’t last long before I hear yelling and rush to the kitchen to find out the cause. I see Rebekah lying on the floor pounding her fists on the ground and hear her screaming “I want a drum! That’s all I wanted and you couldn’t even get it for me!” I see Sam and Dan laughing. I think they are insensitive until I realize that mom did in fact get Rebekah drums and join in the laughter. After a good half hour of Rebekah’s screaming we agree to let her open one present; the drums. She opens them and is ecstatic… until she remembers her screaming and becomes a little on the embarrassed side, silly Rebekah. After these antic the males (and Bek too) turn on yulin with the page. I try to enjoy it but well sports aren’t my cup of tea so I wander off to bed and eagerly await the presents to be unwrapped the next day. As I pass the kitchen I have to avert my eyes. Mother is frantically wrapping the presents. Well the ones that she actually remembered where she had hidden them. The rest will be left until next June when she finds them then puts them back in the cupboard in hopes that she will find them again next Christmas. When will that lady learn?
The next morning we awake to open our presents. Everyone is pleased with what they get. Well ok is less than pleased with the leather jacket but who can blame the guy? Sam and Dan got us silly string. Oh the havoc that ensues. Sam with his cleverness saves the last bit till no one had any left and ambushes us all. He’s a crafty one that Sam. We spend the rest of the day just relaxing and enjoying a Christmas video or special; The grinch that stole Christmas “BUT WHAT WILL I WEAR?!?” or maybe a Christmas story. “Ra ra ra ra ra’ If I have my way we play a game of monopoly but well I never get my way. Its probably best though since we’ve yet to play a game that didn’t end in a screaming match. I can say, without any bias, that its ALWAYS all Sam’s fault because h is a big cheater head! Finally the time comes when mom has completed dinner. Usually about 8 o’clock but hey like I said a little on the late side is just how we do things. Mom’s annual temper tantrum is all part of the holidays too. I would have thought she would calm down eventually, after all things always work out in the end and food is always good. Dad says a prayer and by the time he is finished we are all starving. We all dig into the spread of turkey, mashed potatoes, and stuffing (you can’t have Christmas without a whole lot of stuffing). We all prefer the brown meat (except one outcast who will remain nameless) so you got to be fast if you want some. If your not you can always steal Dan’s. He’s easily duped. Another classical the table is the egg nog. Each member must receive their fair share or a riot WILL break out. There are even disputes even when it is measured to the ml. In the end someone always ends up with more. We all know who that someone is. Don’t we?? Its all worth it though. Eggnog just wouldn’t taste as good if you didn’t have to fight for it.
When everything is over we all go off to bed and are glad that we had this time together. Who knows what our lives hold for us and how many more Christmas’s we will have together. Heck Dan will probably be off on some crazy adventure in who knows where by the next one. But when we are old and gray (in mom and dad’s case older and grayer ahahaha) we can always look back at those classic Barnum Christmas’s and laugh. I hope you guys liked my little story and had yet another very Merry Christmas!!! I love you all!!

love

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

This reminds me of a song that my good friend and session mate Josh ivony wrote when he was here in vancouver.

I want to love like you love, i want to feel like you feel, i don't want to sing empty words, i pray they are real in my heart, in my heart and i pray you would be rooted and established in love. to grasp how wide, how deep is the love of christ.

Jesus increase my inmost being to love you more and to love your friends that are hurting and broke and looking for you. stir up a passion for the lost in me. Stir faith in my life oh lord.

I desire this love in my life. to be a example of this passage to my brothers and sisters and my friends.

PS... Me and an wonderful guy name Davyd are a couple now.

today consisted of.........

Cleansing stream cell at the crosswalk. good times. i enjoy this cell, it is fun. it was not complete due to missing cell member, aka sean and davyd. the cleansing stream is full of good stuff.

Then did kettle until 4:20pm when lynn wagner came and release me. i did well. i was alone but the band came by to play a few songs and aaron and the teen cell were following them around, becky came by with blessing with me a hot chocalate and there was lot of people that walk by and gave me money. i did not really know many christmas songs so i only sang a little and rang the bell occasionally through out the time, i pray alot though so praise the lord!


7 tonight kettle pizza party at the command centre, it is going to be an awesome time :D looking forward to it.

a little bit of my heart regarding street combat

I am discouraged with my team and my night of street combat, The first night i got this awesome word that god want to do sign and wonders on the streets of the down town eastside.
Mark 16:Whoever believes and is baptized will be saved, but whoever does not believe will be condemned. 17And these signs will accompany those who believe: In my name they will drive out demons; they will speak in new tongues; 18they will pick up snakes with their hands; and when they drink deadly poison, it will not hurt them at all; they will place their hands on sick people, and they will get well."

That night i saw fruit and it was awesome and there was a lot of joy in it and well after that there was nothing. There is lack of faith, passion and compassion and not sure what to do about it. I believe that god want to do this, there is walls there and not sure how to tear them down.
Any suggestions and thoughts would be awesome and ps jeni and regan are in enaged! praise the lord!

only in the downtown eastside

going to cell tonight and this guy came up to me and said i need money, i am pregant. Hmm thinking to myself i am pretty sure you are not. It was funny though. Things that you only would hear in the downtown eastside, well apparently in toronto as well.

My hair is very short

hmm went to Hope Renefrew to sleep over last night and it was
spontaneous thing to do and jenea cut my hair, it is really short, she did a good job. maybe i will try and get a picture of it up here but we will see.

Faith

I want faith
I need faith
my desire to have faith

to see your power
to see your sign and wonders
to see your love across this earth
to see the chain be loose
to see prisoner be free
to see captive to be released
to see your kingdom on this earth

you said if i have faith like a mustard seed
i could move mountains

Faith, i need more faith
to see the greater thing of your kingdom

testimony

What has been a difficulty the Lord has helped you overcome? How did
He help you? not able to communicate my thoughts in large groups. He
has encouraged me that leadership seminar and classes are a safe place
to speak out my thoughts.
In what areas have you grown? What difference has coming to The War
College meant to you? I am more outgoing, able to hear the voice of
the lord more clearly and distinguishing the voice of the lord and the
lies of the enemy. I am more free from the crap that was in my past
and walking out the freedom i already attained. more confident in
myself and my gifts.
What is the Lord encouraging you with recently?
He has encouraged me by giving me an amazing opportunity to go to
christian daycare and allow the teachers there to show me how i can be
a better teacher in a loving and supportive way and through his word and
speak words of truth.

my beautiful family

verse of the day

Then Jesus declared, "I am the bread of life. He who comes to me will never go hungry, and he who believes in me will never be thirsty.”- John 6:35

Feast on the bread of life today

word that i keep hearing: Thankgiving

Psalm 100 especially verse 4
1 Shout for joy to the LORD, all the earth.

2 Worship the LORD with gladness;
come before him with joyful songs.

3 Know that the LORD is God.
It is he who made us, and we are his [a] ;
we are his people, the sheep of his pasture.

4 Enter his gates with thanksgiving
and his courts with praise;
give thanks to him and praise his name.

5 For the LORD is good and his love endures forever;
his faithfulness continues through all generations.


Be Thankful for the small things is some times it is hard but there is blessing in thanksgiving. So Last wedensday night i pray for a way that god would clear the water because the water was bad in vancouver so we could not serve coffee, well he did, he gave us snow that was the biggest reason that the ban was lifted and plus snow is fun. It is really cold out side but i have a warm house to come and sleep. Praise the lord

Jimmy and his dad adventure

Jimmy walked into the kitchen with his glove and his dad's glove in his hands, He walk up to his dad and tug on his shirt and ask him if me and you could go and play catch. No response so jimmy asked again. His dad finally response not if looking up from his work that was doing, No i can't today, maybe tommorrow. Jimmy thought to his himself, that what he said yesterday. He walk out of the room into his bedroom and flopped on his bed. Jimmy started to pondered how him and his dad could spend time together. He only wants to have attention from his dad. The next day, he heard about this great movie from his best friend,charle and his dad went and saw together and suggest it for jimmy and his dad to go and see it too. Jimmy came home from school and went into the living room where his dad was, turn off the tv and ask him if we could see this movie and there was no reponse so he asked again. His dad finally responsed and said no not tonight, have other plans, maybe tommorrow. Days passed and jimmy kept trying to ask his dad if he want to spend time with him and he got rejected everytime and he got really frustrated and ran away from home, not leaving a note. A couple day later, he decide to go back home because he missed his parent. As he walk into the house, there was both of his parents standing with their arms wide open and embrace him with a hug. Jimmy heard the best news ever because his dad and him were going on a camping trip that weekend. The weekend came and jimmy and his dad left for the camping trip. They arrived at the camp site and set up the tent and build a fire and the camping stove. when they were finished, jimmy and his dad grabbed their fishing poles and went down to the river and fished and there was laughing and had a good conversation and went back to the camp site and took the fish and cook it up on the fire. They went to bed. In the morning they went to a nearby lake and spend the whole day swimming and canoeing and ski-dooing. It was time to pack up and go hom. Jimmy and his dad got home and told everything to mom. Jimmy went to bed with a huge smile on his face. The last thought he had before he drifted off to sleep, i think this is a beginning of a beautiful relationship but there is so more work to be done.
Hope you guys like this.

Increase my faith oh lord

Let faith arise, oh Lord, let faith arise
In the deepest parts of my being, oh Lord
In the most broken parts of me, oh Lord
Friends have failed me Lord, let my faith arise
Loved ones have failed me Lord, let my faith arise
Heroes have failed me Lord, let my faith arise
Let my faith arise
Let my faith arise
Let my faith arise
Let my faith arise
I say NO to the discouragement that keeps me down
I say NO to the things that keep me back from You
And this broken heart inside of me
Broken in so many pieces
By so many circumstances
I say NO to just letting it stay that way
Because I’m learning to trust that it’s not You that hurt me
I’m learning to believe that it’s not You that deserted me
I’m believing that You still love me
Brokenness and all
I’m believing that You’ve got a plan for me
I’m believing that You will restore me
I believe that You will awaken my soul
And let, let faith arise again, I believe
I believe like a little child again
I’m gonna dance in my trust in You, oh Lord
I’m gonna dance in my love for You, oh Lord
I’m gonna laugh again
I’m gonna cry again
I’m gonna have joy, joy on the inside
Circumstances around me try to pull me down
I’m going to believe in that faith again
‘Cause You’re my Creator
You’re my Comfort
You’re the One that will never desert me
So Daddy, I raise my hands up to You Lord
I raise my hands up to You, oh Lord
And I dance with my feet, I dance with my feet
And I say, come and, come and hold me Lord
‘Cause I’m learning to trust You with the faith of a child
Trust You with the faith of a child
I can have joy again like a child
I’m not going to let it come down
I’m not going to let those bullets come down
Come down and hurt me no more
‘Cause I’m raising up the Shield of Faith
And the Sword of the Lord
I’m believing on your Word Lord
I’m trusting in the Word that You said
And I’m waiting on You
Waiting on You
And I’m rejoicing in the fact that the Bible says
That You are my Victorious Warrior
You’re the one that fights for me
I don’t have to fight anymore
You’re the one that fights for me, oh Lord
My faith is rising, my faith is rising, my faith is rising
I can see You again Lord.
I can see You on the horizon of my life, oh Lord
I can see Your Son, it’s rising up, it’s rising up, it’s rising up
And I don’t have to be discouraged anymore
And I don’t have to fight this loneliness anymore
‘Cause You’re in my life, You’re in my life more than anyone can ever be
Father we’re building a relationship again, just me and You
We’re building a relationship again, just me and You
It’s not about the job I have
It’s not about the friends I have
Its’ not about the house I have or the social status I have
It’s about me and You
We’re building a relationship again, just me and You
You’re building my faith up again

All night of Prayer

In less than a hour, 614 will doing an all night of prayer, It is going to be lovely and then i have a war room shift from 2-5am. It is going to be fun. I am leading a hour at all night of prayer. I wrote a story recently, i will post it soon.
Blessings and grace to you all :D

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Word of the day: Release

Arrived at home and i receive a package from Heather, I open it and it was a picture of hands and flowers flowing in the area with a word release. Not sure yet what it is means but totally going to pray into it. Heather, Thanks you! I love you a lot! It made me feel really special, that you painted a picture for me. I also Got an email from my old corp officer and how she came across my blog after awhile and how she was encouraged by what i was doing for the lord and that they were proud of me and they were thinking about me and praying for me! That was awesome.
Earlier this week, a girl in my class, I believe you are smarter than the other people in our class which was exciting because i was praying the lord would help me this and he has! The random encouragements are the best i think :D

Trust in god in the small things

Well my student loan is not as large i would of hope it would of been but it is all good. I need to find a part time job plus school/614 stuff. It should be good. I am not worrying about the little things. trust in the lord that he will provide but also going to do my part on putting resume out and stuff like that and believe the doors will be opened to me.

Practium

Finished My Practium at the broadway day care, it run out of the broadway church. It was a lot of fun and i learned a lot from the teacher there to become a better teacher when that come. It was a little sad leaving today but it is all good because i believe i am going back there before christmas, something to look forward to. I am going to do a 2-5am shift in the war room in a hour and i am looking forward to that. It been awhile and the lord show me something new and exciting every time i do this shifts, well he does in other shifts as well. I am working through the bible during my rations times and i am almost finished ezekial and i am also reading this book called the secret place, It about this guy journey how the lord open his eyes to the secret place and how he meet with jesus to intercede for the church and Having intimacy with the father. It is awesome and the lord is teaching me through it. Life is good! My good friend crystal myers told me on wedensday, she has seen a glow in me which was cool.

God bless you

May God release a fresh river of his power, love and grace over your life today. amen

stuff

This week has been good, We were preparing ourself for our practium in the next week. The college could not find a practium for me but the morning i prayed that god would open doors, there was a door opened. That was exciting.
I got to hang out with cherie's kids on monday night and ciara has been talking about me in a good way, she want to start spending time with me again. It is exciting. Anyway, god is good all the time.

A little of my life for you

This week i was special helper in school and that includes me just helping out the teacher with writing things on the board and bringing a good morning song and bring in a story in to read to the class. The point of it is to get you comfortable to do this thing called circle time in the daycare. It was a lot of fun and no one want to do next week so i am a special helper twice in a row, it is exciting.
Wrote my quiz today and I got 96% on it. Woohoo. It was a mixture of salmon before the test(brain need to be feed to allow it to run properly and salmon has things in it to do that, that something i learned from this class, is that cool?,prayer and studying.
Not so good thing is my glasses disappeared and it looks like i will have to get a new pair which really stink.

good vs bad news

good news: Today at school we had three kids in class with us through class and as a class we set different activites regarding their cognite development(skills like grasping,cutting, kicking, walking, social-turn taking and if one person is imitive the other people who are playing with them, fine motor skills: tripod grasp(how they use their pencils and picking up paintbrush. It was cool and fun!

Bad news: not too healthy, not getting better, get worse. i have got pray over for healing as well and i am getting worse. it really not really fun but i praise the lord anyways.

Extreme Prophetic last night

From going out on the streets for fixteen minutes, 3 Salvations, One Inner Healing and One treat and one cussed out by an muslim. God is freaking awesome! First time going out and this happened, can not wait for what he has in store for us in the weeks to come!

Life is good! Started my new course in Early Childhood Program. I am loving every minute of it. I just did my first test and i did not do that badly but not really satified what my mark was. there is more to come so i will get better as time go by. I got 72%. It was out of 55 and i got 40. I am learning to get up early like 6 and my body is adjusting quickly which is really cool. I am blessed! Years ago i was dreaming about my dream to go to brazil to work with kids and now i am doing things to work toward this goal. It is freaking exciting! praise the lord!
Dream big, live out your dreams, dreams come true.

How am I doing

School is going really well. I enjoying it a lot. A lot of reading and retaining information but it is good. It is a little hard for me to getting up and take the bus but the lord is teaching me displicine so praise the lord.
Spirtually things are good except i have not be able to do my rations since i started to do schooling which i know it is not good. pray for a good time for me to do them because i know i need to do them.
My family is good, my sister is enjoying her new job and one of my brother is in a happy relationship and finishing off his school. My parents are good.
The revolution session is good. The sign and wonders in their midst has been amazing to see and asking and believing in more.
I am the new leader of Wedensday night Recre8 which i am excited about!

I really like the version of the message, it is really cool. Me,kirsten, matt and ian were reading colossion out loud together in the war room earlier and it was beautiful!

hey

Hmm i started my classes tommorrow. There was not enough people for the downtown campus so i have to go all the way up to coquitam to take classes up there. it is a morning class. I am still excited.

Thanksgiving

Happy Thanksgiving

I got the priveledge to go back to Gibsons for the weekend, It was good, It was relaxing and a time of rest. A family that are friends of our family invited us over for thanksgiving dinner on sunday and it was lovely. Good food and good fellowship. We played Cranium, the best board game i think and it was girls vs guys and the girls won. woohoo.

Psalm147:1-11 is good stuff :D

Well I am thankful for my 614 family and my parents and my siblings and his creation.

What about you?

 
The taigor Fountain, Most beautiful fountain, i ever saw. I sat for 10 mins in awe. good times good times 

  

 
Da vinci Muesum in Florence, not recommanded but it was ok 

 
Train going to the game. Crazy hey? 

 
tank coming back from the miltary base 

 
More sweet cave photos 

more europe photos

More sweet caves photos for you 

New poem

ABBA

As I look into your eyes
I see the love of the Father
The pure and innocent love
You are Abba, my Father
I am your beloved child
I was created to be with you, daddy
I am secured in you and nothing else
You clothes me in righteousness
You draw me close and embrace me
Help me to draw close to you
I love you Dad
Help me to show you the love i have for you
As you pour out the love of the father over and over again
May I be an example of the love of the father in this dying world

all night of prayer

Last night we had an all night of prayer from 10 to 6am, This one was focusing on human trafficing. It was definality more challenging for me to press in for this one than the last one. It was good though. On the streets, 2 pair of people stop a john to appoach the prostinued person and one of group ask a girl how her night was going and she said quite slow so the praise the lord, the prayer of the saints really does something. Praise the lord!

good stuff

Jesus is the Way, the Truth and the Life. If He is not our Life, then we do not really know the Way or the Truth either. It is the religious spirit that tries to keep Christianity in the realms of the Way and the Truth, while keeping us from the essential union by which Jesus becomes our Life. True Christianity involves not just what we believe, but Who we believe." Rick Joyner.

Jesus I pray that you would make me a living sacrifice and that you would mold me, change into the person you want me to be which is to be more like you. amen

Song in my head this days

See His love nailed onto a cross
Perfect and blameless life given as sacrifice

See Him there all in the name of love

Broken yet glorious, all for the sake of us


This is Jesus in His glory

King of Heaven dying for me

It is finished, He has done it
Death is beaten, Heaven beckons me


Greater love no one could ever show
Mercy so undeserved, freedom I should not know
All my sin, all of my hidden shame
Died with Him on the cross, eternity won for us


Such love, such love

Such love is this for me

May the lord increase your faith and may we be able to tune into his power more to go out and doing more sign and wonders in this world.

True Christianity is the true Word of God, verified by the true power of God. Jesus went about to 'do and teach' (Acts 1:1). He usually performed miracles before He taught. He knew that people who have an undeniable encounter with God are going to be far more open to what He had to say to them. The power Jesus and His apostles demonstrated was used to confirm and illuminate their teachings. The same is still true. The demonstration of God's power transforms intellectual concepts into a true faith in the teachings off the Lord. It takes both the Word and the power of God to change the inner person. Without both, we may change our outward behavior but our hearts remain untouched. It is the spiritual void in the heart that must be filled by a true fellowship with God if we are going to be free from the spiritual influence and power of the enemy.

HMM....................

Well Things are better, praise the lord! My good friend donny and myself were talking and come to the conclusion that what was really going on was an attack from satan to bring the my old sinful nature back but praise the lord donny have to the eyes to see it for me. So He commanded angry and voilence to be gone in Jesus's name , this was after cell on tuesday and since then i am filled with joy and love for everyone here in the apartments and in my community. PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So I overcame the schemes of the enemy, Woohoo!

Me

Hey Peoples that read my blog, Welcome :D
Well this last past week has been weird for me. Just out of the blue i start to be more angry and more voilence and outburst of my tongue. It been weird and freaking me out because i know it is not me and i do not want it to be me. Anyway I been praying about it and everyone here is praying for me as well. The root of it believing in the lie that if i work again, i going to get laid or fired because that seems to be the routine in my life, being hired and get laid off or be fired and it sucks a lot. Now i do not receive it because things happens for a reason because god has a great job for me and the other reason is not spending as much as possible in the bible. well that is all for now.

Grace and blessings
RB

update

I am unemployed again:(
i got laid off last tuesday which sucks a lot! but god is our provider praise the lord!
praise the lord anyway
i lead street combat last tuesday, it was good.
i got a mixture of feeling inside me right now like sad,happy,excited,missing people a lot from the holy session and fear of going back to my parents to ask them to support me finanically which i will hate to do.
That it for now.

birthday

today is my 23 birthday. it been a good day so far, my work made me a cake which i have to ride home on my bike with it, it was quite funny to see. it was good. my coworker wished me a happy birthday,i got to go home early, that is always fun
go to denny later, going to hang out with jenea,donny and ian and jermany shortly, that should be fun.