revealation

I go to league of mercy and Street combat on tuesday & sundays but lately it been hard to be faithful. I feel my relationship with jesus is not as connected as i use to be but i still hear him clearly and i felt that i have nothing to offered to the people on the streets and the people that i meet in the hotels but this thursday during knee drill(our worship/prayer meeting, the lord spoke me and this what he said:
Rebekah, You do have things to offered, Ears to hear their story, a shoulder to cry on, a mouth to speak truth about the love of christ, you can give them a sense of hope and that they know that someone is praying for them and finding comfort in that. Be faithful in the little things is hard but in this times you find the most fruit. I need to spend time with jesus to get filled out so i go out in the strength of the lord and give people of the downtown eastside a friend that cares and love them uncontinually and want their hope and dreams to come a reality.

new poem

You are God, I am not in control of this life
You are the only one that can make this life satisfy
You are full of Life & peace
you are all together lovely and worthy of all our praise

update

volunteering with UBC childcare until i had completed my 500 hours and then i will go on their substitute teacher list in about a month or two. praise the lord for an answering prayer.

update

Jobless once again :( It happened last thursday. If i could turn back time i would go back and change how the reaction in stressful situation but i can't. I know i am good ece teacher and i made a mistake I loved the job so much and i am sad that i never got say goodbye to the kids i look after. I hope i learned from this experience and change the things i need to change to be a more patience and need a better tone. i know i am not perfect at this job, that is part is my weakness but i willing to make my weakness into a strength. I really don't this process finding another place of employment to be a long one and draw out. i want it to quick. i want peace so i can sleep better. The lord give and take away but my heart would choose to bless his name.

If you are weary, find rest
If you are worned out, do nothing for a day
If you are stressed due to christmas, this will be passed soon, Just remind yourself what christmas really is meant to be for. Find joy & peace in that.
if you are joyful, stay joyful
if you lonely, find a friend
if you are sad, look for something that brings you joy and do that
Peace out everyone.
Hope everyone has a merry christmas and a happy new year :)

tonight

I went to burnaby to my friends Jeni & Regan house for a christmas party/carolling. it was fun to spread christmas cheer around if though some people did not really like it but overall people seem to enjoy our singing, it was the first time i have been carolling, of course i sang through kettles but never door to doors. Then we came back and drank some apple cider and played phase 10, good times good times.

update

My life is good. I enjoying it quite a bit. Work is fun, we just finish making a paper mache volcano and erupting with vingear and baking soda. Next we are making a paper mache snowman, that should be fun. In other parts of my life, things are pretty good, i went to the doctor because i had this cough for over 6 weeks and they gave me an puffer but i was healed of that 2 years ago and it has not helped. my dad thinks it might be bronchilus so i will have to go to the doctor and get my chest examined which i hate doing but this cough is annoying. Right now i have a cold as well. hmm god is good and my family is doing well and my parent are well as well. i am looking forward to spending time with them this christmas holiday with the rest of my family. I still living in the apartments, we try to live as a family which some time hard to do and some time i want to run but living in community is hard but it is good and fun at the same time. i just frustrated when there is a guy at the courthouse at 3 am yelling about things like the olympics and the taser incident that happened at the airport about a month. On february 9 i will be the Canucks game with my dad for his 60 birthday, super excited about that. we are in section 120 and section 121 because there was no double seating but hopefully we will be able to sit together somehow. anyway, that is all. Grace & Peace out

Martyrs reunite, well the ones that still live in vancouver

yesterday The martyrs session reunite, the ones that still live in vancouver, there is 8 of us. It was awesome to fellowship with my fellow sessionmate, call old friends and our fellow leaders and just have fun and chill out with every other. It was a rich time with friends. There is a bond that cannot be broken among the sessions of the war college. The War college is not about the acadamic, It is about making friends with people around the world and making an impact in the downtown eastside that you may not see the lasting affect but you were a part of planting a seed. It was awesome :)

i love my family :)

I went to Parkville for Remembrance Day weekend to see my uncles, aunts and my grandparents, it been like 5 years since the last time i saw it. It was lovely, I saw all my uncles which is rarely because most of time they are either busy or not in town. My grandad wasn't able to go to the remembrance day service because the weather was bad and he get quite emotional because his brother is on the honour roll on the momunemt where the service tooked placed. He was in the WW2 and my uncle that i saw the grave when i was in italy was also there, so remembrance day is not just another day for me and my family, it is personal. me, my uncles and my brother and dad got into a car and went down to paid tribute to the barnum that dies for our country. I got to see my cousin burke play 2 of his hockey tournment games and was honoured to see his first goal of the season and today saw him for the first time, he is 14 now, the last time i saw him was when he was really young. It was a lovely time to reconnect with family that i have not seen for a long time.

My new Job

I been working for an lady named carolanne at her preschool for 6 weeks before i went to the new daycare which opened just this week. It is only a few children right now but in janurary there will be 8 and there will be someone else to come and help me which is good. I enjoy it a lot. Carolanne is very friendly and i like her alot. Her daughter are great as well. It is just good all around.

update

Life is good, My Job is great :)
jesus is teaching me things, i am growing in the lord and i am happy i am alive and i am blessed by so many people in my life :)

personality Test

Answers are for who you are now...... not who you were in the past. Have pen or pencil and paper ready. This is a real test given by the Human Relations Dept. at many of the major corporations today . It helps them get better insight concerning their employees and prospective employees. It's only 10 Simple questions, so...grab a pencil and paper, keeping track of your letter answers to each question. Make sure to change the subject of the e-mail to read YOUR total. When you are finished, forward this to friends/family, and also send it to the person who sent this to you. Make sure to put YOUR score in the subject box. Ready?? Begin... 1. When do you feel your best? a) in the morning b) during the afternoon &and early evening c) late at night 2.
You usually walk. .. a) fairly fast, with long steps b) fairly fast, with little steps c) less fast head up, looking the world in the face d) less fast, head down e) very slowly
3. When talking to people you.. a) stand with your arms folded b) have your hands clasped c) have one or both your hands on your hips d) touch or push the person to whom you are talking e) play with your ear, ! touch your chin, or smooth your hair
4. When relaxing, you sit with.. a) your knees bent with your legs neatly side by side b) your legs crossed c) your legs stretched out or straight d) one leg curled under you
5. When something really amuses you, you react with... a) big appreciated laugh b) a laugh, but not a loud one c) a quiet chuckle d) a sheepish smile
6. When you go to a party or social gathering you.. a) make a loud entrance so everyone notices you b) make a quiet entrance, looking around for someone you know c) make the quietest entrance, trying to stay unnoticed
7. You're working very hard, concentrating hard, and you're interrupted...a) welcome the break b) feel extremely irritated c) vary between these two extremes
8 Which of the following colors do you like most? a) Red or orange b) black c) yellow or light blue d) green e) dark blue or purple f) white g) brown or gray
9. When you are in bed at night, in those last few moments before going to sleep you are.. a) stretched out on your back b) stretched out face down on your stomach c) on your side, slightly curled d) with your head on one arm e) with your head under the covers
10. You often dream that you are... a) falling b) fighting or struggling c) searching for something or somebody d) flying or floating e) you usually have dreamless sleep f) your dreams are always pleasant

POINTS: 1. (a) 2 (b) 4 (c) 6 2. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 7 (d) 2 (e) 13. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 5 (d) 7 (e) 6 4. (a) 4 (b) 6 (c) 2 (d) 1 5. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 2 6. (a) 6 (b) 4 ( c) 2 7. (a) 6 (b) 2 (c) 4 8. (a) 6 (b) 7 (c) 5 (d) 4 (e) 3 (f) 2 (g) 1 9. (a) 7 (b) 6 (c) 4 (d) 2 (e) 1 10. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 6 (f) 1 Now add up the total number of points.

OVER 60 POINTS : Others see you as someone they should "handle with care." You're seen as vain, self-centered, and who is extremely dominant.. Others may admire you, wishing they could be more like you, but don't always trust you, hesitating to become too deeply involved with you. 51 TO 60 POINTS: Others see you as an exciting, highly volatile, rather impulsive personality; a natural leader, who's quick to make decisions, though not always the right ones. They see you as bold and adventuresome, someone who will try anything once; someone who takes chances and enjoys an adventure. They enjoy being in your company because of the excitement! you r r a diate.
41 TO 50 POINTS: Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.
31 TO 40 POINTS: Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful & practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest. Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust In your friends, but equally that it takes you u a long time to get over if that trust is ever broken.
21 TO 30 PO IN TS: Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It would! really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment, expecting you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then, usually decide against it. They think this reaction is caused partly by your careful nature.
UNDER 21 POINTS: People think you are shy, nervous, and indecisive, someone who needs looking after, who always wants someone else to make the decisions & who doesn't want to get involved with anyone or anything! They see you as a worrier who always sees problems that don't exist. So me people think you're boring. Only those who know you well know that you aren't.Now forward this to others, and put your score in the subject box of your e-mail, like this: "Dr.Phil's Test, I'm a 45"<>

Joy!

The Joy of the lord is Our strength. There is Joy in the presence of the lord and in community. I want to embrace the presence of the lord and community more than i alright do. Joy is a weapon to fight against the despair. There is joy in the salvation army, where is it in the army? Where is the joy of our salvation? Jesus is the truth and the truth will set us free and of course trials will come but in jame it said, Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. Jesus i want more joy.

The greatest thing that bring me joy is hearing from the lord and revelations.

Grace & blessings

Is Our vision clear, Are we seeing the world through Jesus's Eyes or do we have scales over us, Is Our Hearts aligned with the father's heart and is our ears clear of crap so we can hear him clearly? the song that is in my head for the last few days has been Joshua Ivany number 14 on the sound of the revolution, I want to love like you love, feel like you feel. Those two lines stood out to me, I want love and feel what Jesus feel, that my heart is close to the father's heart, to see the world through his eyes and see the jesus in people around me and to hear the voice of the lord which he speaks, the question are we listening?

I did some listening prayer for 614 a few months but not sure if i was suppose to share and i think i suppose to do that now so here you go:

What are some 614 Strengths:We are seeking after the father's heart, Mission Focused, a place of belonging, community focused, fight against injustices and intercession

What we need to work on: More faith, More compassion, Love for the street, More holy spirit led, walking in his power and authority. searching after the lost and that our hearts would break for the lost, allow to god to move through us, belief instead of unbelief, Humility.
What we can do to see the greater things of his kingdom:
To know the bible and believe we can do what it said. to allow the holy spirit to move through us all, ask for fire, walk in faith, not by sightlefting the veil over our eyes to see where he is working and joining him in it.

Update

Last few days has been great, totally god moments. First the all night of prayer for human trafficing, the lord is really giving me the heart for this injustice lately and it been awesome. Jenea put up some testimony of women that has been rescued from this, in my head, i was wow that sucks and just praying the testimony of this women would reach other women that are still trapped in this injustice and i have a weird vision but a cool vision,It was a picture of me in this situation, be tricked into the sex trade and being a house where i am forced to have sex with other guys, i lost and start to weep harshly and went into a deep intercession for this women and the testimonys of women that has been rescued would reach other and that the same thing would happen for them, the chain would be broken and the captive would be released from the darkness and that they would be moved in a safe place and the lord would bring beauty for ashes and he would restore what the enemy took away from them.

Second Last night, jenea and Stephanie had a deliverance session for me all to do with things that my heart has been hardened and become a heart of stone and i desire to have a heart of flesh and it had to do with things that i did not deal with shane yet. It was powerful and it was fast because i am listen to the lord and i hear him clearly which i loved a lot. we did doug burr style. It was a waterfall surround with trees and bushes surround the pond at the end of the waterfall, there is a huge rock in the middle and jesus was there waiting and there was stepping stone path to the rock so i have to jump on the stepping stone to get to the big rock, Jesus held out his arm and help me up on the rock, he gave me a side hug. I ask what i need to get rid of and he show me a lot of stuff, to take away bitterness, anger, soul ties and freedom and my indentify is in christ, he is proud of me. The guilt i has been carrying for the last few months was not from him and the guilt came from the words by shane. the bitterness came from false promises and lies of the enemy. I ask him how he saw that every thing happened and jesus said that it hurt me, how it all happened how rushed it was, how both of you were be selifish and having your desires not mine. I ask jesus what his desires were? Respected, loved, love for jesus and me, accept me for me, heart for brazil and missions, same passions, family and community and jesus has a guy for me just like that :) then went into repentance of allowing the enemy get a foot hold in bitterness, anger and selifishness. There was big forest fire to throw all the bitterness, selfishness, and anger I ask if he had affication for me, just be me, you are awesome, you don't have to change for anyone. There will be fullness for shane and you don't need to carry this burden of shane anymore, give it to me and i will do the rest. stephanie got song of songs 8:6-7 which is one of my favorite song of song verses :)
He want me to do a prophetically act to throw a heavy rock into the water at crabtree park, Which i did today after my war room which my war room shift was great. after my shift, i went down to crab tree park and I search for a heavy rock and i found the perfect one and i just said out loud the burden and everything that went with the burden like alway thinking about him and unholy soul ties and i state the verse Your yoke is easy and your burden is light over and over again and while i was throwing the rock into the water and it was really cool and just climb on a rock just start to pray and sing and i climb down the rock and went home but singing how great is our god.

Praying for a revival in canada

On Friday Night, A young guy named Corey oragized a prayer gathering in a local park, I was invited to come by my youth group pastor and i am glad i went. It was really good. There was about 20 people praying for the Coast. There is a lot of dis unity among the church, Violence in the school, drug use has increased. We spent 2 hours in pray for this community in this area but also in other areas. He is sovereign over Gibsons, Over the Down town East side, All over the world.

Obedience

Trust in him that he know what he is doing and obey what he said and the lord has giving us all gifts to use and we need to be obey in the gifting he has provide for us to use.

listening prayer

Last Night, i did some listening prayer and this what i heard and saw. I ask Jesus where he was, i could not see him but he say look up, Jesus was in the eagle, one side of it's wing, The eagle pick me up and put me inside his other wing and we just soar with the eagle. The Eagle landed on a big rock and that where me and jesus got off. He asked me what that was all about and i remember the psalm 91( i was reading it when he ask me) verse 4 He will cover you with his feathers,and under his wings you will find refuge. I am hided in his wings and there is safety and rest in his wings.

The lord is sovereign.

The Lord is Sovereign Strong over all the world even it is so messy up.
Psalm 140
Rescue them, O LORD, from evil men; protect them from men of violence, 2 who devise evil plans in their hearts and stir up war every day. 3 They make their tongues as sharp as a serpent's; the poison of vipers is on their lips. Selah 4 Keep them, O LORD, from the hands of the wicked; protect me from men of violence who plan to trip their feet. 5 Proud men have hidden a snare for them; they have spread out the cords of their net and have set traps for me along my path. Selah 6 O LORD, I say to you, "You are my God." Hear, O LORD, my cry for mercy. 7 O Sovereign LORD,their strong deliverer, who shields their head in the day of battle- 8 do not grant the wicked their desires, O LORD; do not let their plans succeed, or they will become proud. Selah 9 Let the heads of those who surround thembe covered with the trouble their lips have caused. 10 Let burning coals fall upon them; may they be thrown into the fire, into miry pits, never to rise. 11 Let slanderers not be established in the land; may disaster hunt down men of violence. 12 I know that the LORD secures justice for the poor and upholds the cause of the needy. 13 Surely the righteous will praise your name and the upright will live before you.Them include the children and women being chained in modern slavery, human trafficking, homelessness, child abuse, orphans, widows, the lonely and all that are chained in addication, Break the chains Lord and Release the captives from the darkness

it is my 24th birthday today :)

I am blessed :) I am happy that i have great friends and family and i am glad that i was created and loved by god.