before the morning by mark schultz, listen to it.

sorry i have not been blogging lately but i could not access my blogger account for a long time and now that i can, i will try to blog more.

Do you wonder why you have to feel the things that hurt you
If there’s a God who loves you, where is He now
Maybe there are things you can’t see
And all those things are happening to bring a better ending
Someday somehow you’ll see, you’ll see

Would you dare, would you dare to believe
That you still have a reason to sing
Cause the pain that you’ve been feeling
It can’t compare to the joy that’s coming
So hold on you gotta wait for the light
Press on and just fight the good fight
Cause the pain that you’ve been feeling
It’s just the dark before the morning

My friend, you know how this all ends, you know where you’re going
You just don’t know how you’ll get there, so say a prayer
And hold on cause there’s good for those who love God
But life is not a snapshot, it might take a little time
But you’ll see the bigger picture

Once you feel the weight of glory
All your pain will fade to memory
Once you feel the weight of glory
All your pain will fade to memory

Would you dare, would you dare to believe
That you still got a reason to sing
Cause the pain that you’ve been feeling
It can’t compare to the joy that’s coming
Come on you gotta wait for the light
Press on and just fight the good fight
Cause the pain that you’ve been feeling
It’s just the hurt before the healing
Oh the pain that you’ve been feeling
It’s just the dark before the morning

Mercy - Parachute Band (lyrics)

23The Lord directs the steps of the godly.




He delights in every detail of their lives.



24Though they stumble, they will never fall,



for the Lord holds them by the hand psalm 37:23-24


He is good and direct our path and he is the God of all the details and he is faithful to his promises :)  He is the great provider.

Love Like God


By Max Lucado

“Though he was God, he did not demand and cling to his rights as God.” Philippians 2:6 NLT



Need more patience? Drink from the patience of God (2 Peter 3:9). Is generosity an elusive virtue? Then consider how generous God has been with you (Romans 5:8). Having trouble putting up with ungrateful relatives or cranky neighbors? God puts up with you when you act the same. “He is kind to the ungrateful and the wicked” (Luke 6:35 NIV).



Can’t we love like this?

Merry Christmas Everyone :)  Happy News years.

Revealation12:11

They overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony; they did not love their lives so much as to shrink from death. - They overcome Satan by the blood of the Lamb, they are freed of their sins by the blood of Jesus (1:5), therefore the basis of his accusation has gone because the penalty has been paid by the blood of Jesus, so when he accuses them they point him to the blood. Hence Paul can write 'Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies' (Rom 8:33. They overcome Satan's lies in the world through the words of their testimony to Jesus. They overcome Satan because in the end they are prepared to die for their faith. When Christ died on the cross the saints were technically in Christ and therefore share in his victory, Rom 6:5-14. The results of this victory can be seen in James admonition to resist the devil and he will flee from you (James 4:7). It is seen by the spiritual warfare of Eph 6:11-18, in which the shield of faith is used to extinguish the flaming arrows of the evil one. Col 2:15 tells us that by the cross Christ has disarmed the powers and authorities and triumphed over them.




Just as Jesus overcame Satan by his death on the cross so Christ's followers must follow His example. The basis of his accusations has become null and void because they have been freed from their sins by the blood of the Lamb (Rev 1:5, 7:14, Col 1:22, Rom 8:33, 1 John 1:7), they testify that Jesus is the Christ (resulting in their salvation Rom 10:9-10) and prove the genuineness of their faith by being faithful unto death and thereby gained their life (Rev 2:10, 2:13, 6:9, 11:7, Luke 14:26, 21:16). Even death does not defeat them (Rev 6:9), just as Jesus achieved victory over Satan through death, the saints do likewise. Once more a reference to those who are martyred, a recurrent theme of the book. Later in 13:7 we find the beast waging war against the saints and defeating them but in 15:2 we also find those who are victorious over the beast in heaven singing the song of Moses and of the Lamb.

Ephesian 1: sprit of adoption

Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in Christ with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places, 4 even as he chose us in him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and blameless before him. In love 5 he predestined us[b] for adoption as sons through Jesus Christ, according to the purpose of his will, 6 to the praise of his glorious grace, with which he has blessed us in the Beloved. 7 In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of our trespasses, according to the riches of his grace, 8which he lavished upon us, in all wisdom and insight 9 making known[c] to us the mystery of his will, according to his purpose, which he set forth in Christ 10as a plan for the fullness of time, to unite all things in him, things in heaven and things on earth.


11In him we have obtained an inheritance, having been predestined according to the purpose of him who works all things according to the counsel of his will, 12so that we who were the first to hope in Christ might be to the praise of his glory. 13In him you also, when you heard the word of truth, the gospel of your salvation, and believed in him, were sealed with the promised Holy Spirit, 14who is the guarantee[d] of our inheritance until we acquire possession of it,[e] to the praise of his glory.



This Scripture should be something that we are excited about. There is what i got out of this scripture:
 
Blessed be our god and the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ(in sense recongizing his glory and honour and goodness because the Father has blessed the believer with spirtual blessing.
 
Blessed-Praise with worshipping love.
 
Every Blessing we receive, we receive in christ. God wants bless us with every blessing available to us.
 
We are Chosen in Him, for if we chosen in christ, it is outside ourselves, It is not from sight of our deserving but because our heavenly father has engrafted through the blessing of adoption into the body of christ.
 
predestined-marked out beforehead
 
Believer in the Lord Jesus are not adopted into the family of god, they are born into the family. We are Family because we are covered in the blood of the cross.
 
accepted: highly favored or full of grace
 
observe, it is not redemption through his power, it is not redemption his power, it is not redemption through his love, it through his blood.
 
there is no possible redemption outside of Jesus and his redeeming blood.
 
Through his redemption and his blood we receive the riches of his grace.
 
Reveals to us the mystery of his will
 
gather together-to unite
 
You are sealed with the holy spirit of promise, God works is the sealing work of the holy spirit. His presence in the believer denotes ownership and security.
 
We don't deserve anything but we receive everything through his grace.
 
May we minsteries of his grace and truly believe in the power of his grace and redeeming blood. His Blood is the only one can change us and set us free. Do you believe in the power of the Cross and his redeeming blood? May you experience the power of his grace today some how.

Why We Don't Need "Women's Ministry"

Why We Don't Need "Women's Ministry"

Awesome Day Yesterday

First went to Brunch at Hope Renefew, Pray over and anoint everyone that was there which was awesome because it is one of my spiritual gift and it was awesome to use my gifts to bless others. Went for Coffee with my good friend Miranda and had a great talk Two other friends Brynna and her cousin anglicine(sorry about the spelling) joined us. Went to the Park and Play on a big swing and enjoyed the sun and bringing out the inner child in us and having fun. There was joy and laughter.Went to Cariboo Hill Temple and worship the Lord which was awesome and my good friend Donny brought the word and it was awesome. Deny ourselves and pick up our cross and following Christ. Getting back behind Christ and being his followers. On the way we met this guy that was a christian and we sang our god was an awesome god on the sky train, it was so cool to worship the Lord on the sky train, i never did that before with a stranger

He never leave us

  Send "By Your Side" as a Ringtone to Your Cell  

By Your Side Lyrics

Why are you striving these days
Why are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me lift up your face
Just don't turn away

Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run

And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Look at these hands and my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world's sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life
I want to give you life

(Chorus 2x)

Cause I, I love you
I want you to know
That I, I love you
I'll never let you go

He is faithful, he is the life giver and want to give us an abunant life and he never leave nor forsaken us.

Heaven Scriptures:
Let not your hearts be troubled. Believe in God; believe also in me. In my Father's house are many rooms. If it were not so, would I have told you that I go to prepare a place for you? And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and will take you to myself, that where I am you may be also. John 14:1-3

But our citizenship is in heaven, and from it we await a Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ, who will transform our lowly body to be like his glorious body, by the power that enables him even to subject all things to himself.

—Philippians 3:20-21

Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth, for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and the sea was no more. And I saw the holy city, new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride adorned for her husband. And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, “Behold, the dwelling place of God is with man. He will dwell with them, and they will be his people, and God himself will be with them as their God. He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away.” revelation 21 1-4

But the wicked are like the troubled seas
when it cannot rest
whose waters cast up mire and dirt.
There is no peace, saith my God to the wicked."
~ Isaiah 57: 20-21


And whosoever was not found written in the book of life

was cast into the lake of fire."
~ Revelation 20:15


And shall cast them into a furnace of fire:

there shall be wailing and gnashing of teeth."
~ Matthew 13:21

Heaven or Hell, It is your Choice.
The Grace of God is Mighty to save and he is just waiting for you with arm wide open.

the second part of the best commerical i never saw, first part is on facebook already

What defines you?

Love & Respect Ephesian 5:22-33

Wives, submit to your own husbands, as to the Lord. 23For the husband is the head of the wife even as Christ is the head of the church, his body, and is himself its Savior. 24Now as the church submits to Christ, so also wives should submit in everything to their husbands.


25 Husbands, love your wives, as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her, 26that he might sanctify her, having cleansed her by the washing of water with the word, 27so that he might present the church to himself in splendor, without spot or wrinkle or any such thing, that she might be holy and without blemish.[a] 28In the same way husbands should love their wives as their own bodies. He who loves his wife loves himself. 29For no one ever hated his own flesh, but nourishes and cherishes it, just as Christ does the church, 30because we are members of his body. 31 "Therefore a man shall leave his father and mother and hold fast to his wife, and the two shall become one flesh." 32This mystery is profound, and I am saying that it refers to Christ and the church. 33However, let each one of you love his wife as himself, and let the wife see that she respects her husband.




A wife has one driving need: to feel loved and when this need is met ,she is happy. A husband has one driving need: to be respected, if this need is met, he is happy.

Couple: how to spell love to your wife:
Closeness: she want you to be close
Openness: she want you to open up to her
Understanding: don't try to fix her, just listen
Peacemaking: she want you to say i am sorry
Loyality : she need to know you are commited
Esteem: she want you to honour and cherish her

How to spell Respect to your husband
Conquest: appericate his desire work and acheive
Hierachy: appericate his desire to protect and provide
Authority: appericate his desire to lead and serve
Insight: appericate his desire to analyze and counsel
Relationship: appericate his desire for shoulder to shoulder friendship
Sexuality: appericate his desire for sexual intimacy

http://youtu.be/TiQaRn0k88w
This is Song is awesome, My desire is to love Jesus and serve him and only him in all i do. Check it out

Community

I been thinking a lot of community and how it is so important in the body of christ. Share life together with open and honest hearts not just fake how are you and saying i am fine and people walk away but true friendship that share life together that share in the struggles, the joys, up and down in life. To using your gifts no matter what gender you are like preaching or teaching or encouragement or worship. It is a beautiful thing to share life together. I have experience real community through 614 Vancouver and Xculture and it is wonderful and beautiful thing and it is how christ design the church. Here some Scriptures i found on Commununity,

The Bible speaks to us of community in many ways, including how we treat each other, the need for workers, helping the poor and loving and helping each other.

These scriptures talk about inclusion and identifying and using assets for community building:

Matthew 9:37 - The harvest is plentiful but the workers are few.
Mark 6:30 - Jesus listens to the apostles as they share their stories.
Mark 6:35-44 - Jesus cares for the needs of the community and uses the available assets for the good of the whole.
Mark 10:13-16 - Everyone is worthy. Jesus refuses to let others keep people away from him for any reason. He seeks to include and encourage all who seek Him.
Mark 12:41-44 - Everyone has assets that can be used for God.
Luke 14:7-14, 15-23 - Inclusion – Jesus tells us to go outside our comfort zone, and outside our circle of friends to include others.
Acts 4:35-44 - How the community can pool their assets to help each other.
Galatians 5:13-14 - Serving one another in love.
Ephesians 2:10 - We are God’s workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.
James 2:14-26 - Faith and works.
James 3:13 - Show wisdom by deeds done in humility.
I John 2:9-11 - How to treat each other.
I John 3:10 - We are God’s children by what we do.
I Peter 5:1-7 - How to treat each other in church.

VBS

I did VBS last week at our church, it was so much fun and my group was great. this are the bible points of the week.

GOD MADE YOU
GOD LISTEN TO YOU
GOD WATCHES OVER YOU
GOD LOVES YOU NO MATTER WHAT
GOD GIVES YOU GOOD GIFTS

definality good points to remember and to share because it is true and everyone should know.

how i feel right now

I am Fearfully and wonderful made. I love Who I am and what the image that Christ see me in but regarding one area in my life i wish i can be normal in would be finding employment that i love and being employed in it for a long time. It is so frustrating finding employment and all of the job except for one never work out, i don't understand it and so frustrating :( anyway that how i feel some time specially right now.

Life is Precious and Squeeze all the goodness you can get out of it before it too late.

Love

Love others is the most powerful thing we can do. They will see we are Christians by our love.

Things i been thinking about

How a hockey team can bring a whole nation to cheer and come together as a nation but when it comes to Christ, they turned away and rejected him.

How Life is so precious, something can just happened and it is gone and grateful i am for the life i am have and the great friends and family that love me so much and supported and how sad there is some families are not so lucky. I am grateful that Christ came to save me and he is in my life daily :) This world need Jesus so badly and his grace. Thanks you for your Grace Jesus.

He is the great provider.

I will be blogging a regular now because i have a computer again, before this i only had my phone and it was really hard to blog.

what the lord is speaking to me

We don't deserve anything, but through his grace we receive everything" Grace by Bob Lenz.
We have full access to the father's presence because of what Christ did on the Cross.

Be grateful in the small things is what the lord is teaching me these days which is pretty big. 1 thess 5:16-18.

I am grateful for my husband, my friends and what the Lord has done in me and through me and that he is not finish with me to formed me more into his image. The Cross and the power that is in it and his grace.

martin Luther's king defination of faith

Faith is not what some people think it is. Their human dream
is a delusion. Because they observe that faith is not followed by
good works or a better life, they fall into error, even though they
speak and hear much about faith. ``Faith is not enough,'' they
say, ``You must do good works, you must be pious to be saved.''
They think that, when you hear the gospel, you start working,
creating by your own strength a thankful heart which says, ``I
believe.'' That is what they think true faith is. But, because
this is a human idea, a dream, the heart never learns anything
from it, so it does nothing and reform doesn't come from this
`faith,' either.

Instead, faith is God's work in us, that changes us and gives
new birth from God. (John 1:13). It kills the Old Adam and makes us
completely different people. It changes our hearts, our spirits,
our thoughts and all our powers. It brings the Holy Spirit with
it. Yes, it is a living, creative, active and powerful thing, this
faith. Faith cannot help doing good works constantly. It doesn't
stop to ask if good works ought to be done, but before anyone
asks, it already has done them and continues to do them without
ceasing. Anyone who does not do good works in this manner is an
unbeliever. He stumbles around and looks for faith and good
works, even though he does not know what faith or good works are.
Yet he gossips and chatters about faith and good works with many
words.

Faith is a living, bold trust in God's grace, so certain of
God's favor that it would risk death a thousand times trusting in it.
Such confidence and knowledge of God's grace makes you happy,
joyful and bold in your relationship to God and all creatures. The
Holy Spirit makes this happen through faith. Because of it, you
freely, willingly and joyfully do good to everyone, serve
everyone, suffer all kinds of things, love and praise the God who
has shown you such grace. Thus, it is just as impossible to
separate faith and works as it is to separate heat and light from
fire! Therefore, watch out for your own false ideas and guard
against good-for-nothing gossips, who think they're smart enough
to define faith and works, but really are the greatest of fools.
Ask God to work faith in you, or you will remain forever without
faith, no matter what you wish, say or can do.

colossion 1:9-14

For this reason, since the day we heard about you, we have not stopped praying for you. We continually ask God to fill you with the knowledge of his will through all the wisdom and understanding that the Spirit gives,[e] 10 so that you may live a life worthy of the Lord and please him in every way: bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of God, 11 being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience, 12 and giving joyful thanks to the Father, who has qualified you[f] to share in the inheritance of his holy people in the kingdom of light. 13 For he has rescued us from the dominion of darkness and brought us into the kingdom of the Son he loves, 14 in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins.

Jesus is alive, what is stopping you from believing in him? he can take away all your pain, hurt and set you free. He want to get you an abundant life so let him.

Highlights of 2010

Highlights of last year: getting my job at the hospital, celebrate our 1 year of marriage, how canada won the gold medel in hockey both in men and women and the tent city in the eastside of vancouver, camping trip with donny and jenea,Jamie's B salvation and bapistim, fawn and lila bapistim.

grace

we don't deserve anything but we receive everything through his grace.

G-GOD'S
R-RICHES
A-AT
C-CHRIST'S
E-EXPENSE

the love of jesus in you does not fail

qoute

Don’t let yesterday take up too much of today.”
Will Rogers

been really busy with work these past few weeks so have not been be able to blog but this has been in my head for the last few days.

The Hand That Holds The World"
No greater joy
Is there than this
To know for what
We're meant to live

To hold Your hand
To touch Your face
To find ourselves
In loves embrace

I want to stand before the King
Join in the song that heaven sings
I want to hold the hand that holds the world

I want to know the mystery
Reach out and touch the majesty
I want to hold the hand tht holds the world

No greater love
Could be bestowed
That You would name us as your own

Your daughters sing
Your sons rejoice
They gather here before Your throne

You are, You are
The author of creation
We are, the chrildren of your heart

You are, You are,
The light of all the heaven
We rise, to worship all You are

The heavens praise your wonders, LORD,
your faithfulness too, in the assembly of the holy ones.
6 For who in the skies above can compare with the LORD?
Who is like the LORD among the heavenly beings?
7 In the council of the holy ones God is greatly feared;
he is more awesome than all who surround him.
8 Who is like you, LORD God Almighty?
You, LORD, are mighty, and your faithfulness surrounds you

isaiah 43 , things that stood out to me

1)But now thus says the LORD, he who created you, O Jacob,
he who formed you, O Israel:
"Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have called you by name, you are mine.
2 When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you;
when you walk through fire you shall not be burned,
and the flame shall not consume you.

4A Because you are precious in my eyes,
and honored, and I love you
10 You are my witnesses," declares the LORD,
"an my servant whom I have chosen,
that you may know and believe me
and understand that I am he.

10

Tim Hughes - See His Love

I Love this song, so powerful :)

isaiah 40:28-31

28 Do you not know?
Have you not heard?
The LORD is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and his understanding no one can fathom.
29 He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.
30 Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
31 but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

We are not alone in this walking with the Lord, he is right there holding your hand and leading you through it, only if you let him, so go ahead, let him. He never leave you nor forshaken you.

Something cool that i read in my quiet time

Isaiah 33:2 O Lord be gracious to us , we wait for you. Be our arm every morning , our salvation in times of trouble God’s people aren’t trusting in themselves anymore. They are waiting on the Lord, and looking to His arm every morning. That where our help come from is from the Lord and his arm is mighty and strong.

Isaiah 33:6
And he will be the stability of your times, abundent of salvation, wisdom, knowledge. The fear of the Lord is Zion's treasure.
The fear of the Lord is His treasure: Honor, respect, and reverence towards the Lord is His treasure. It is a gift God gives us, not so we will cower in fear, but so we will rightly honor Him.

By Your Side - Tenth Avenue North

the meaning of surrender

we sing songs like i surrender all but do we really understand the meaning of the word Surrender. i found an article on the meaning of surrender and here it is:
Surrender means losing the right to handle yourself
To surrender means to give everything up to the Lord. Lay it all down. Lose the right over yourself, both the "bad" self and the "good" self. Surrender means you lose your right to handle yourself on your own. In the middle of everything, lose and forfeit your rights to the Lord. Do not move. Freeze right where you are. Do not do anything. Surrender yourself just the way you are. By all means, do not fix yourself. Do not try in yourself to get it together. If you get it together, that means you are the savior. Do not try to work what is dead back up into life, like trying to massage a heart that has stopped beating. You cannot squeeze life out of the region of death inside of you. Life must come from the outside. In resurrection, Christ as the last Adam became a life-giving Spirit. Life originates from Him. So we must let Christ inject life into our dead condition. We must receive the life. We must allow resurrection life to give life to our mortal bodies (Rom. 8:11).

Surrendering is not merely a once-and-for-all experience. It is continuous, day by day. When our soul-life is struggling to live and preserve itself, that is a call to a deeper fellowship with the Lord. It means more opening to Him, more interacting with Him in the Spirit. Surrendering is not an ascetic practice of the self denying the self.

Update

wow a lot of things have happened since i last blogged. i have not blogged for a long time and i am sorry for that. My husband and I celebrate our 1 year anniversary as a marriage couple which was nice. we went for dinner with my parents to Pebble resturants for some steaks and it was a lovely evening. work is going well. i got new glasses.

things are good, enjoying my new job at the hospital. my coworker are friendly and my boss are good too :) 2 days until peter and I one year wedding anniversary. my relationship with christ is strong too.

the lord is faithful

The lord is so good, he has his hands on us this year and by the grace of god, we have survive finacially. I got a job, not any job but a job at the hospital in housekeeping. i am so excited to start

verse of the day

Daily Bible Verse

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Update

It been almost a year since i got married, still no job yet but i am working one on one with an employment coach that is helping me find employment. i have some temporary work as a babysitter and working briefly at camp sunrise which was good. I got my L so i been practising my driving skills. My Husband gives me flowers for no reason at all which make me feel so special. I am blessed. The Lord is faithful and good through this year

Hold on to the promises of God, They give you strength and hope in the trials and hard times. Remember that the lord loves you so much and he is faithful and he will bring you through any hard times you may be facing.

Psalm 86 verse 11

Teach me your way, O LORD,
that I may walk in your truth;
unite my heart to fear your name

How do we fear the name of the Lord?

more of you
less of me
increase our faith
helps us to fearless in our faith
to share your hope in this world

1 cor 13 : 4-8

Love is patient, are we patient with each other in the body of christ? love is kind, do we show kindness toward each other? It does not envy, are we jealous?, it does not boast. do we boast about things about not matter instead of boasting in christ?, it is not proud. are we proud? 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails.


Lord i pray you would teach the body of christ really love each other like this passsage and i pray in our marriage it would be the same.

how the lord see you

Precious
knitted perfectly in your mother's womb
rejoice over you with singing
Engraved in his hands
Loved
child of him
Choosed not rejected
Never leave your side
Come to him.

isaiah 41:9-10

this verse has been a help to me over and over again in my faith and i hope it does the same to you.

You whom i took from the ends of the earth, and called from it farthest corners
saying to you,"You are my servent, i have chosen you and not cast you off"
fear not, for i am with you
be not dismayed, for i am your God
I will strengthen you, i will help you
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand

What a great promise

the vision

this is the vision for 24/7 prayer international and i love it.

THE VISION
So this guy comes up to me and says "what's the vision? What's the big idea?" I open my mouth and words come out like this… The vision?
The vision is JESUS – obsessively, dangerously, undeniably Jesus.
The vision is an army of young people.
You see bones? I see an army. And they are FREE from materialism.
They laugh at 9-5 little prisons.They could eat caviar on Monday and crusts on Tuesday.They wouldn't even notice.They know the meaning of the Matrix, the way the west was won.They are mobile like the wind, they belong to the nations. They need no passport.. People write their addresses in pencil and wonder at their strange existence.They are free yet they are slaves of the hurting and dirty and dying.What is the vision ?The vision is holiness that hurts the eyes. It makes children laugh and adults angry. It gave up the game of minimum integrity long ago to reach for the stars. It scorns the good and strains for the best. It is dangerously pure.
Light flickers from every secret motive, every private conversation.It loves people away from their suicide leaps, their Satan games. This is an army that will lay down its life for the cause.A million times a day its soldiers
choose to loosethat they might one day winthe great 'Well done' of faithful sons and daughters.
Such heroes are as radical on Monday morning as Sunday night. They don't need fame from names. Instead they grin quietly upwards and hear the crowds chanting again and again: "COME ON!"
And this is the sound of the undergroundThe whisper of history in the makingFoundations shakingRevolutionaries dreaming once againMystery is scheming in whispersConspiracy is breathing…This is the sound of the underground
And the army is discipl(in)ed.
Young people who beat their bodies into submission.
Every soldier would take a bullet for his comrade at arms. The tattoo on their back boasts "for me to live is Christ and to die is gain".
Sacrifice fuels the fire of victory in their upward eyes. Winners. Martyrs. Who can stop them ? Can hormones hold them back?Can failure succeed? Can fear scare them or death kill them ?
And the generation prays
like a dying manwith groans beyond talking,with warrior cries, sulphuric tears andwith great barrow loads of laughter!Waiting. Watching: 24 – 7 – 365.
Whatever it takes they will give: Breaking the rules. Shaking mediocrity from its cosy little hide. Laying down their rights and their precious little wrongs, laughing at labels, fasting essentials. The advertisers cannot mould them. Hollywood cannot hold them. Peer-pressure is powerless to shake their resolve at late night parties before the cockerel cries.
They are incredibly cool, dangerously attractive
inside.
On the outside? They hardly care. They wear clothes like costumes to communicate and celebrate but never to hide. Would they surrender their image or their popularity? They would lay down their very lives - swap seats with the man on death row - guilty as hell. A throne for an electric chair.
With blood and sweat and many tears, with sleepless nights and fruitless days,
they pray as if it all depends on God and live as if it all depends on them.
Their DNA chooses JESUS. (He breathes out, they breathe in.)Their subconscious sings. They had a blood transfusion with Jesus. Their words make demons scream in shopping centres.Don't you hear them coming? Herald the weirdo's! Summon the losers and the freaks. Here come the frightened and forgotten with fire in their eyes. They walk tall and trees applaud, skyscrapers bow, mountains are dwarfed by these children of another dimension. Their prayers summon the hounds of heaven and invoke the ancient dream of Eden.
And this vision will be. It will come to pass; it will come easily; it will come soon.How do I know? Because this is the longing of creation itself, the groaning of the Spirit, the very dream of God. My tomorrow is his today. My distant hope is his 3D. And my feeble, whispered, faithless prayer invokes a thunderous, resounding, bone-shaking great 'Amen!' from countless angels, from hero's of the faith, from Christ himself. And he is the original dreamer, the ultimate winner.
Guaranteed

Grace

Do you want freedom?
Do you want joy?
Do you want a purpose in life?
Come just as you are to the cross
where your sins will be forgiven
jesus is waiting for you
he wants to give you a hug
he wants to say he loves you with an everlasting love
tell you are beautiful
you are forgiven
to take away your pain
to say that i choose you to
make a difference in this world
Come to me all who are weary
and heavy-burdened
i will give you rest
Come and experience rest

4 ways to huld your spirtual growth

complaining about everything- instead of complaining be thankful for everything

comfort zone- staying where you are and just giving up. Joy is buy product of serving the Lord

compromise: harbour a sin, you don't want to change or say you can't change. No templation has overtaken you that is not common to man, God is faithful and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability but with the templation he will also provide a way of escape, that you may be able to endure it. you are cruficed with christ, find strength in the promise of christ

Concepts: False teaching of God, Our problems are small and God is big.Nothing is impossible with God


I Went to a Women Retreat last week with some ladies from my church. it was at camp stillwood, past cultis lake. it was awesome and the Lord show me some stuff and i dealt with it which was awesome. it was very refreshing time and it was a good time of fellowship with the ladies from my church as well and spending time with old friends and meeting new people

Pure Bride off the new leeland

He's coming for a pure bride He's coming for a pure bride See Him riding in the skies! See the fire inside His eyes! Through the darkness His light will shineIn His glory He's lifted high! He's coming for a pure bride[CHORUS]He's coming for a pure brideHe's coming for a pure brideSee Him riding in the skies! See the fire inside His eyes! Through the darkness His light will shineIn His glory He's lifted high! He's coming for a pure brideThe Lord is coming for His brideMake way for the LordHe's clothing all His children in white! Make way for the Lord! The Lord is coming for His brideMake way for the LordHe's clothing all His children in white! Make way for the Lord! Make way for the Lord! What are you doing when no one is watching?What are you doing?Children get your hearts right. God's coming for a pure bride! Children get your hearts right!

Are we ready for his return? we can't take our spouse, money or anything earthly thing. What i am doing to bring souls into the kingdom? i recently starting through this course called act 29 through my church and it is all about the book of acts doesn't end with act 28, it conuite with us, share our faith with others and in this course you learned how to receive some tools to share your faith by your personality which really excited me.

"Let us not give up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but let us encourage one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching." Fellowship of the believers is an important part of a believer life. We need each other to spur each other on. we need each other gifts to make the body of christ to work to their full potential. Church is different to each person. Some might have to hide because they are in a country where they can't worship freely. Some might go to small group and other things. Some people might go to a church. whatever your communtity looks like,it is important to have fellowship with other believers.

update

well a lot has happened in the last year: i was working at safeway as a deli clerk and then i was not getting enough hours so i took a cashier training and become a cashier until i got carpal tunnel sydrome and WCB denied my claim so that sore stink. Then i Met Peter on Oct 27 when i came over the sunshine coast to visit my mom and my mom had to go to work as a crossing guard so i went to robbie pancake house and when she came and got me at the resturant, she said come sit down so i get something to eat and then she said she saw this guy and he might come and he might not and he did come, his name was peter. we went out for coffee and walk around for 2 hours that day and the next day we went to the blackfish pub to watch hockey and had dinner. he gave me flowers and then for the first 5 months me and him went back and forth from vancouver to the sunshine coast. he came to vancouver in a bizzard to come be with me for christmas and at the end of march i move back to the sunshine coast because peter's dad made a deal with us with his house, peter could live in his house if he would take care of the bills and when we got married he would sign it over to us. In April we got enaged, he proposed to me at langdale falls, the top of the mountain bike park. I was working at daycare in sechelt on the indian reserve for awhile until i was let go because i went to my boss's boss because i was coming home every day in tears or pretty close to it. I am the girl leader for Christ the King Community Church youth group which i got accepted in right away when most of time i would of had to wait 6 months. On Aug 29/2009 me and peter got married and now we live in the house with a view and a big yard and me and peter are the main leader of our youth group now which is great, we start with 3 youth at the beginning of the summer and now we are at 14 so we are growing rapidly which is awesome. Now i am looking for work on the sunshine coast and excited about my future with peter and life in general

In christ alone

In Christ alone my hope is found,He is my light, my strength, my song;this Cornerstone, this solid Ground,firm through the fiercest drought and storm.What heights of love, what depths of peace,when fears are stilled, when strivings cease!My Comforter, my All in All,here in the love of Christ I stand.In Christ alone! who took on fleshFulness of God in helpless babe!This gift of love and righteousnessScorned by the ones he came to save:Till on that cross as Jesus died,The wrath of God was satisfied -For every sin on Him was laid;Here in the death of Christ I live.There in the ground His body lay Light of the world by darkness slain:Then bursting forth in glorious Day Up from the grave he rose again!And as He stands in victorySin's curse has lost its grip on me,For I am His and He is mine -Bought with the precious blood of Christ.No guilt in life, no fear in death,This is the power of Christ in me;From life's first cry to final breath.Jesus commands my destiny.No power of hell, no scheme of man,Can ever pluck me from His hand;Till He returns or calls me home,Here in the power of Christ I'll stand.

I love this hymm, there is so much power in these lyrics and every time i sing it, the more i love it. Specially the part that no power of hell, no scheme of man,can ever pluck me from his hands, till he return or calls me home, Here in the power of christ i stand. Nothing can seperate me from the arms of christ, i been brought at a price.

The Lord is good and is faithful to his promises :)

chris tomlin god of this city

Verse1You’re the God of this CityYou’re the King of these people
You’re the Lord of this nationYou are
Verse2You’re the Light in this darknessYou’re the Hope to the hopeless
You’re the Peace to the restlessYou areThere is no one like our GodThere is no one like our GodChorusFor greater things have yet to comeAnd greater things are still to be done in this CityGreater thing have yet to comeAnd greater things are still to be done in this CityVerse1Verse2There is no one like our GodThere is no one like our GodChorusFor greater things have yet to comeAnd greater things are still to be done in this CityGreater things have yet to comeAnd greater things are still to be done hereThere is no one like our godThere is no one like our God
ChorusGreater things have yet to come
And greater things are still to be done in this City Greater things have yet to come And greater things are still to be done here

highlights from passsion tour vancouver

Lou shared this story with us: her name is ashley and now she is heaven but here it is, so good
I am a Senior at University of Florida. I got a new roommate this semester and she is a Christian and I have never really been into the whole Christian thing because every pastor or speaker that I have ever listened to didn’t speak in a language I could understand. I have believed in God and Jesus, but never really understood it because the preachers at the church that I have always been forced to go to every Sunday of my life. They speak all high and mighty and I never really felt connected, and I felt like God was only for the perfect people. Well my roommate went to this Passion Conference over winter break. And she came back and moved into my apt and she was real and genuine about all her Christian stuff, like I have never seen before in a person. She said that God changed her at this conference, so i was like what are you talking about. And she told me. She told me about how God was cool, and how God really wanted a deeper relationship with her, and she wanted to really love God the way he loved her, so of course I was like well huh? She then said you need to listen to Louie talk about God, so I asked who Louie was, and she put on the Indescribable talk, and then we watched tha Passport talk. And in the Passport talk you said that christians do not have to hope for the best at the end, that they do not have to do enough good stuff. You explained how to get to heaven in a simple way, in a way that I have never heard before. I actually got it, I got it that it is not about being so good, cause I am not a good person. I have screwed up a lot. But then you said grace, and talked about how is was different than other religions. Because God is a loving and a kind God who wants to forgive me. My roommate then explained that he wants to forgive me.Now for one of the reasons I am thanking you. One, I am now a Christian. And two, my roommate said that she had never really cared about telling others about how much God loved her before she went to this conference. So though I am not sure who will ever read this. Please tell Louie thanks from me, for talking about Christ in a way that a college kid can understand. I know that Jesus has changed my life and as I get ready to graduate college in May, I am gonna be a different person.

update

I go to this small service up on commerical and 1st on saturday night, it is good times and last week we pray that i get a job this week and guess what i did, i am working at safeway on cambie and 12 in the deli, i am still in training but so far so good :) How awesome is that?

how i am feeling these days

I feel adequate where I am in life right now. I should be a licensed ECE teacher by now but I am not and I am not sure why. I feel like this what i was meant to do. I know the lord has give me the tools to do this type of work and when I was working I feel happy and I was walking in my gifts, I am good with kids and I am good what I do but I inherited a problem from my dad when I get frustrated my voice get higher and some people think it is yelling and I am willing to work on that and I am trying to get help in this area. I don’t like how other people think they know what is best for me, should I know what is best for me. Some people think I should be do ministry work, a part of me agreed but I felt when I was working in this environment I was and I really want my confident and my joy back, I don’t understand everything has been so hard for me, I had to work my butt off to become the person I am today, I know life is not easy but is it meant to be this difficult. I had a dream that I would be work with kids in an orphanage in brazil, that why I went into this field in the first place and I want to make an impact on children’s life. I am afraid to open up to people because I feel that they would turned away from me and I will be hurt, no one like being hurt. I need direction, I know the lord is faithful and he will do what he said he would be. I felt like I been patience and not giving up and I will trust in his promises. I been through a lot in the last few couple of weeks and really I just want to happy again and doing something usefully with my time and working somewhere, anywhere because when I am working or volunteer I feel needed and keep me stay positive or I am not doing anything I spend too much time in my head and think too much. i am proud of my acheivements and where i been, i have blessed with many great things and experiences in life but feeling really disencouraged right now and i just need to write out my thoughts.

love letter from our heavenly father

You may not know me, but I know everything about you…I know when you sit down and when you rise up… I am familiar with all your ways … Even the very hairs on your head are numbered…For you were made in my image… In me you live and move and have your being… For youare my offspring… I knew you even before you were conceived... I chose you when I planned creation…You were not a mistake… For all your days are written in my book… I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live… You are fearfully and wonderfully made…I knit you together in your mother's womb… And brought you forth on the day you were born … I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me… I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love… And it is my desire to lavish my love on you...Simply because you are my child and I am your Father…I offer you more than your earthly father ever could…For I am the perfect Father… Every good gift that youreceive comes from my hand... For I am your provider and I meet all your needs… My plan for your future has always been filled with hope… Because I love you with an everlastinglove… My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore… And I rejoice over you with singing… I will never stop doing good to you… For you are my treasured possession… I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul… And I want to show you great and marvelous things…If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me… Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart … For it is I who gave you those desires… I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine… For I am your greatest encourager.…I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles… When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you… As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart… One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes… And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth… I am your Father and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus… For in Jesus my love for you is revealed … He is the exact representation of my being… And He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you.… And to tell you that I am not counting your sins… Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled… His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you… I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love…If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me… And nothing will ever separate you from my love again…Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen… I have always been Father and will always be Father… My question is...Will you be my child?… I am waiting for you

my canada day

On Canada day i went to GM Place for a christian event called Voice Together, where 3000 christians in one place praising the lord through dance, worship, testimony of recovered drug addicts and a korean choir and choir that is full of recovered drug addicts, preaching and native dancing and prayer. it was really cool and it fulfill a dream i had about 3 years ago when i saw GM Place full of christian lifting the lord's name up high. Then we on the streets and lit sparklers and worship was playing and we were dancing and singing the streets. it was a lovely canada day.

update

I am living in the apartments still, it is good most of the time. i am working at a daycare in port coquitlam five days a week, only 5 hours a day which is sore of crappy because when my boss hired me she said i would be working from 9-4 and now i work 9-2. hopefully my hours will increase soon. it is going good, not minding the communte. i am going through the gospel of john and i try and do my devotions on the bus and it is been good. i am going to tulsa okc in a few weeks for linsey wedding. i am excited :) it is going to be great. that is pretty much it.

fullness, soltiude time

Saturday April 26/2008

On solitude

First I walk into the forest where I saw Jessica and walk on a log and through the dry grass. Just giving thanks and asking for direction and I went back to the church where I was reminded of one of my favorite verse Isaiah 41:9-10. The lord led me to this random path up the road from caribou. the so I decide to go down, as I walk I thought the journey with the lord is sometime is uncertain and just need to trust that he will lead you and not let you be lost. He told me to stop at this grass spot so I did and just going through the psalms and listens to the song obsession by delirious which the chorus sings and my heart burns for youand my heart burns
And my heart burns for you and I came across a verse that really was fitting to the song I was listening to. It was psalm 13:5-6 which said: I trust your love,
And I feel like celebrating
Because you rescued me.
6You have been good to me, LORD,
and I will sing about you. He was reminding me of his goodness, that he has given me provision before and he will do it again and he already start to do that and be thankful in that and be humble in that as well. He was reminding me of relationships I have people and how he brings his goodness through them. Kristin how he brought her in my life and how sweet are our relationship is. The whites and the Evans and Jenea and Donny and Stephanie and Kirsten, the lord just want me to pray and thank him for these relationships by name and he also asked me to pray for more faith, I also listened to the song Faith by Jason Upton. Then I went back to the church and sat on the hill and try to sleep but I could not but I pray for my lips, that the words of my mouth and the mediation of my heart would bring honor to his name, my heart would trust and believe in the promises of the lord, my mind would be fill with the peace of the lord in stressful situation and for my ears that I would hear his voice more clearly. it was a great and refreshing time and i need it :)

new poem

when i need encouragment, you are there
when i need peace, you are there
when i need joy, you are there
when i am lonely, you are there
you are always there, not leaving my side
walking hand and hand
through this journey we called life

poetry

i want to give you fullness
i want to give you joy
i want to give you peace
i want to give fruit that will last

all you need to do is to believe and it will come

take it and run with me, run toward me, the author & perfector of your faith
every good gift come from above

this is my desire for you
i have gave you the keys, all you need is to click the key to unlock the door and all of the treasure of heaven will fall on you.

Delight yourself

Delight yourself
Delight yourself
Delight yourself
in the lord

and he will give you the desire of your heart
align your heart to mine and i will give you the desires of your heart

I have good things for you
Every good gift come from you above.

This morning, Doug Burr was talking about healing old memories and one came to mind and since i have done my life has been different which is great and here it again:
So this morning during my quiet time with Jesus, I was reading my bible and praying for people but I couldn't concrente on praying so I ask Jesus why? Because you and me have to deal with something, a negative memory of your childhood, I was like that make sense why I couldn't concentrate on praying. I ask what the memory was, it was the memory of my elemaranty school days when I always walk alone at recress and lunch and alway seeing people having fun with their friends and me playing on the tire swing by myself. i was like we starting to deal with my issue of rejection, jesus was yep we sure are. i ask where we going to do this, are we going to our meeting place. No was the response of jesus, we are going where it is all tooked place,the school ground of my elemany school. so i ask jesus how we were going to do this, he was like you are going to go through the memory but this time asking where i was in this situation and of course i was ok. so it starting me walking around the school yard,ask where jesus was and of course he was right beside me linking with my arm as we are skipping around the school yard. Jesus was a young child. so i went to the swings, i sat on the swings and i ask jesus where he was, he was the one that was pushing me on the swings. he pushed me in the back of me. he gave me a underduck and just walking in front of me and push on my feet as i swang back and forth, i got off the swing and went to the tire swing,ask where he was and he was the one that was pushing me and then he jump on the tire swing with me and we both could feel the wind in our hair and the sunshine bleaming down our faces. Then we went to the playground, we played tag and he was trying to chase me, i was too fast for him, he came back behind me and gave me this huge bear hug and i turned around to embace him, me and him just stood there for a while just embacing each other and just continually to play tag with smiles on our faces and this childlike joy came over both of us. It was sweet. the last thing he said was if you are feeling rejected by man, you are alway accepted by me and i am your friend and i want to spend time with you so come and chill out with me. i was like ok.

The cross archive

Lately the pictures that the lord is showing me is all about the cross. The fuel of our being is from the power of the cross. I am the person i am today because of the cross. so much grace, forgiveness,mercy, passion and the greatest of this is true love. No greater love is this is that would lay down his life for a friend. what a mighty friend we have in Jesus. I just being thinking why is that we just remember about the cross just at easter, should we being remember it always. he died for us so we could live, hallejuah! He is called us to die to our flesh and pick up our crosses and follow him with the life he is the only one that give us life so we could give it back to him for his purpose and his glory. He has started a good work in all of us, He wants fullness for his people. i remember in my high school yearbook one of my goal in life is to live life to the fullest and quoting mattrew champ, life is too short to be miserable. He did not just died for you and me, he died for the pimp, johns, the doctors that do abortions, gays and prostitutes. Hallejuah.
Lord i am sorry for complaining about my life this days, You have provide me with learning opportunies, if though it been hard sometimes, the perservence and endurance is building character and nothing to compare to the perservence and endurance you need to endure on the journey of the cross for me and the rest of the human race, thanks you for the cross and how
much power is the sacrifice you did for us.

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

How great is our god, i love this song.
HOW GREAT THOU ART O Lord my God, When I in awesome wonder,Consider all the worlds Thy Hands have made;I see the stars, I hear the rolling thunder,Thy power throughout the universe displayed.Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,How great Thou art, How great Thou art.Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,How great Thou art, How great Thou art!When through the woods, and forest glades I wander,And hear the birds sing sweetly in the trees.When I look down, from lofty mountain grandeurAnd see the brook, and feel the gentle breeze.Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,How great Thou art, How great Thou art.Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,How great Thou art, How great Thou art!And when I think, that God, His Son not sparing;Sent Him to die, I scarce can take it in;That on the Cross, my burden gladly bearing,He bled and died to take away my sin.Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,How great Thou art, How great Thou art.Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,How great Thou art, How great Thou art!When Christ shall come, with shout of acclamation,And take me home, what joy shall fill my heart.Then I shall bow, in humble adoration,And then proclaim: "My God, how great Thou art!"Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,How great Thou art, How great Thou art.Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,How great Thou art, How great Thou art!
Wednesday, February 22, 2006

story
Sapphire was walking through this setting, this setting was not new to her, it reminded her of this friend of her, He walked the same path 2000 year ago. Step by step Sapphire could feel and heard the voices on the edges of the path that was mocking and cursing this man. This man was filled with compassionate, love and mercy. As Sapphire walk along this path the same feelings came over her. She walk up this huge hill, there stood three crosses standing tall and there she had a flashback of what happened to this man 200o year ago and now she is walking the same path as he did. He was beaten, tornoted,nail to the cross. Tear streamed down her face and bow in amazement of this man sacrifice, he died for me. He died to be my freedom, He died to be my daddy, he died for joy, he died for my future, he died for my hope, He died for my family, he died for the redempation of all mankind. As Sapphire bowed in amazement of this man's love and grace, she thinks to herself, i am not worthy of all this love, i have done not good thing, that man walked behind her and bow right next to her and whisper in her ear, i have made you worthy of this grace and love through the power of my name, you are my daughter and you are accepted and adopted into my huge family. Who is this man? His name is Jesus Christ.
Posted by Rebekah Barnum
Friday, August 05, 2005

psalm 67:2-4
2 that your ways may be known on earth, your salvation among all nations. 3 May the peoples praise you, O God; may all the peoples praise you. 4 May the nations be glad and sing for joy, for you rule the peoples justly and guide the nations of the earth.Jesus already resigns in the world because he finished that when he died on the cross and rose from the death but he doesn't rule over of the world. We are the ones that has the authority and power that he has give us to rule over all the nations so why are we not tapping into his authority and power. i also hope this all making some sense
Posted by Rebekah Barnum
Friday, January 07, 2005

there is so much power in the blood of jesus
we as christians usually forget how much power in the blood of jesus. there is so much power in the cross and what jesus did on the cross for us. He took ALL of our sorrows and pain so we wouldn't have to. hallejauh! let us not forget how powerful the name of jesus and what he did for us. he is can tranformed anyone just like that cause of the cross. Worthy is the Lamb, who was slain, to receive power and wealth and wisdom and strength and honor and glory and praise!” revelation 5:12. we are worthy cause he made us worthy. how awesome is that?


Jesus thanks you for the cross and the life that come from it. thanks you for die for me when i was still in sin.

The Good Samarian

On wedensday, i went down to the crosswalk to do my laundry and i walked all the way down there where i found i left my keys at home, then a guy that look really out of place, he ask me what is this place and i told him that it was shelter and we run a coffee place in the back 4 nights a week. We introducing ours self and his name is jame king, he walk with me to the haven and he received some information from the shelter worker at the haven, then we walk to my house and got my keys and walk back to the crosswalk to put my laundry in, where we met Aaron white on the street and he suggested belkin so i walk with him because he would of totally got lost and at first belkin only could put him on the waitlist and i said i know stephen bell and belkin said to Jame to come back at 9 because i known steve bell, that was pretty cool. he wants to take me out for coffee to thanks me for being there and helping out and making sure an effort to get him a place.

revealation

I go to league of mercy and Street combat on tuesday & sundays but lately it been hard to be faithful. I feel my relationship with jesus is not as connected as i use to be but i still hear him clearly and i felt that i have nothing to offered to the people on the streets and the people that i meet in the hotels but this thursday during knee drill(our worship/prayer meeting, the lord spoke me and this what he said:
Rebekah, You do have things to offered, Ears to hear their story, a shoulder to cry on, a mouth to speak truth about the love of christ, you can give them a sense of hope and that they know that someone is praying for them and finding comfort in that. Be faithful in the little things is hard but in this times you find the most fruit. I need to spend time with jesus to get filled out so i go out in the strength of the lord and give people of the downtown eastside a friend that cares and love them uncontinually and want their hope and dreams to come a reality.

new poem

You are God, I am not in control of this life
You are the only one that can make this life satisfy
You are full of Life & peace
you are all together lovely and worthy of all our praise

update

volunteering with UBC childcare until i had completed my 500 hours and then i will go on their substitute teacher list in about a month or two. praise the lord for an answering prayer.

update

Jobless once again :( It happened last thursday. If i could turn back time i would go back and change how the reaction in stressful situation but i can't. I know i am good ece teacher and i made a mistake I loved the job so much and i am sad that i never got say goodbye to the kids i look after. I hope i learned from this experience and change the things i need to change to be a more patience and need a better tone. i know i am not perfect at this job, that is part is my weakness but i willing to make my weakness into a strength. I really don't this process finding another place of employment to be a long one and draw out. i want it to quick. i want peace so i can sleep better. The lord give and take away but my heart would choose to bless his name.

If you are weary, find rest
If you are worned out, do nothing for a day
If you are stressed due to christmas, this will be passed soon, Just remind yourself what christmas really is meant to be for. Find joy & peace in that.
if you are joyful, stay joyful
if you lonely, find a friend
if you are sad, look for something that brings you joy and do that
Peace out everyone.
Hope everyone has a merry christmas and a happy new year :)

tonight

I went to burnaby to my friends Jeni & Regan house for a christmas party/carolling. it was fun to spread christmas cheer around if though some people did not really like it but overall people seem to enjoy our singing, it was the first time i have been carolling, of course i sang through kettles but never door to doors. Then we came back and drank some apple cider and played phase 10, good times good times.

update

My life is good. I enjoying it quite a bit. Work is fun, we just finish making a paper mache volcano and erupting with vingear and baking soda. Next we are making a paper mache snowman, that should be fun. In other parts of my life, things are pretty good, i went to the doctor because i had this cough for over 6 weeks and they gave me an puffer but i was healed of that 2 years ago and it has not helped. my dad thinks it might be bronchilus so i will have to go to the doctor and get my chest examined which i hate doing but this cough is annoying. Right now i have a cold as well. hmm god is good and my family is doing well and my parent are well as well. i am looking forward to spending time with them this christmas holiday with the rest of my family. I still living in the apartments, we try to live as a family which some time hard to do and some time i want to run but living in community is hard but it is good and fun at the same time. i just frustrated when there is a guy at the courthouse at 3 am yelling about things like the olympics and the taser incident that happened at the airport about a month. On february 9 i will be the Canucks game with my dad for his 60 birthday, super excited about that. we are in section 120 and section 121 because there was no double seating but hopefully we will be able to sit together somehow. anyway, that is all. Grace & Peace out

Martyrs reunite, well the ones that still live in vancouver

yesterday The martyrs session reunite, the ones that still live in vancouver, there is 8 of us. It was awesome to fellowship with my fellow sessionmate, call old friends and our fellow leaders and just have fun and chill out with every other. It was a rich time with friends. There is a bond that cannot be broken among the sessions of the war college. The War college is not about the acadamic, It is about making friends with people around the world and making an impact in the downtown eastside that you may not see the lasting affect but you were a part of planting a seed. It was awesome :)

i love my family :)

I went to Parkville for Remembrance Day weekend to see my uncles, aunts and my grandparents, it been like 5 years since the last time i saw it. It was lovely, I saw all my uncles which is rarely because most of time they are either busy or not in town. My grandad wasn't able to go to the remembrance day service because the weather was bad and he get quite emotional because his brother is on the honour roll on the momunemt where the service tooked placed. He was in the WW2 and my uncle that i saw the grave when i was in italy was also there, so remembrance day is not just another day for me and my family, it is personal. me, my uncles and my brother and dad got into a car and went down to paid tribute to the barnum that dies for our country. I got to see my cousin burke play 2 of his hockey tournment games and was honoured to see his first goal of the season and today saw him for the first time, he is 14 now, the last time i saw him was when he was really young. It was a lovely time to reconnect with family that i have not seen for a long time.

My new Job

I been working for an lady named carolanne at her preschool for 6 weeks before i went to the new daycare which opened just this week. It is only a few children right now but in janurary there will be 8 and there will be someone else to come and help me which is good. I enjoy it a lot. Carolanne is very friendly and i like her alot. Her daughter are great as well. It is just good all around.

update

Life is good, My Job is great :)
jesus is teaching me things, i am growing in the lord and i am happy i am alive and i am blessed by so many people in my life :)

personality Test

Answers are for who you are now...... not who you were in the past. Have pen or pencil and paper ready. This is a real test given by the Human Relations Dept. at many of the major corporations today . It helps them get better insight concerning their employees and prospective employees. It's only 10 Simple questions, so...grab a pencil and paper, keeping track of your letter answers to each question. Make sure to change the subject of the e-mail to read YOUR total. When you are finished, forward this to friends/family, and also send it to the person who sent this to you. Make sure to put YOUR score in the subject box. Ready?? Begin... 1. When do you feel your best? a) in the morning b) during the afternoon &and early evening c) late at night 2.
You usually walk. .. a) fairly fast, with long steps b) fairly fast, with little steps c) less fast head up, looking the world in the face d) less fast, head down e) very slowly
3. When talking to people you.. a) stand with your arms folded b) have your hands clasped c) have one or both your hands on your hips d) touch or push the person to whom you are talking e) play with your ear, ! touch your chin, or smooth your hair
4. When relaxing, you sit with.. a) your knees bent with your legs neatly side by side b) your legs crossed c) your legs stretched out or straight d) one leg curled under you
5. When something really amuses you, you react with... a) big appreciated laugh b) a laugh, but not a loud one c) a quiet chuckle d) a sheepish smile
6. When you go to a party or social gathering you.. a) make a loud entrance so everyone notices you b) make a quiet entrance, looking around for someone you know c) make the quietest entrance, trying to stay unnoticed
7. You're working very hard, concentrating hard, and you're interrupted...a) welcome the break b) feel extremely irritated c) vary between these two extremes
8 Which of the following colors do you like most? a) Red or orange b) black c) yellow or light blue d) green e) dark blue or purple f) white g) brown or gray
9. When you are in bed at night, in those last few moments before going to sleep you are.. a) stretched out on your back b) stretched out face down on your stomach c) on your side, slightly curled d) with your head on one arm e) with your head under the covers
10. You often dream that you are... a) falling b) fighting or struggling c) searching for something or somebody d) flying or floating e) you usually have dreamless sleep f) your dreams are always pleasant

POINTS: 1. (a) 2 (b) 4 (c) 6 2. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 7 (d) 2 (e) 13. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 5 (d) 7 (e) 6 4. (a) 4 (b) 6 (c) 2 (d) 1 5. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 2 6. (a) 6 (b) 4 ( c) 2 7. (a) 6 (b) 2 (c) 4 8. (a) 6 (b) 7 (c) 5 (d) 4 (e) 3 (f) 2 (g) 1 9. (a) 7 (b) 6 (c) 4 (d) 2 (e) 1 10. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 6 (f) 1 Now add up the total number of points.

OVER 60 POINTS : Others see you as someone they should "handle with care." You're seen as vain, self-centered, and who is extremely dominant.. Others may admire you, wishing they could be more like you, but don't always trust you, hesitating to become too deeply involved with you. 51 TO 60 POINTS: Others see you as an exciting, highly volatile, rather impulsive personality; a natural leader, who's quick to make decisions, though not always the right ones. They see you as bold and adventuresome, someone who will try anything once; someone who takes chances and enjoys an adventure. They enjoy being in your company because of the excitement! you r r a diate.
41 TO 50 POINTS: Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.
31 TO 40 POINTS: Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful & practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest. Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust In your friends, but equally that it takes you u a long time to get over if that trust is ever broken.
21 TO 30 PO IN TS: Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It would! really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment, expecting you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then, usually decide against it. They think this reaction is caused partly by your careful nature.
UNDER 21 POINTS: People think you are shy, nervous, and indecisive, someone who needs looking after, who always wants someone else to make the decisions & who doesn't want to get involved with anyone or anything! They see you as a worrier who always sees problems that don't exist. So me people think you're boring. Only those who know you well know that you aren't.Now forward this to others, and put your score in the subject box of your e-mail, like this: "Dr.Phil's Test, I'm a 45"<>

Joy!

The Joy of the lord is Our strength. There is Joy in the presence of the lord and in community. I want to embrace the presence of the lord and community more than i alright do. Joy is a weapon to fight against the despair. There is joy in the salvation army, where is it in the army? Where is the joy of our salvation? Jesus is the truth and the truth will set us free and of course trials will come but in jame it said, Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. Jesus i want more joy.

The greatest thing that bring me joy is hearing from the lord and revelations.

Grace & blessings

Is Our vision clear, Are we seeing the world through Jesus's Eyes or do we have scales over us, Is Our Hearts aligned with the father's heart and is our ears clear of crap so we can hear him clearly? the song that is in my head for the last few days has been Joshua Ivany number 14 on the sound of the revolution, I want to love like you love, feel like you feel. Those two lines stood out to me, I want love and feel what Jesus feel, that my heart is close to the father's heart, to see the world through his eyes and see the jesus in people around me and to hear the voice of the lord which he speaks, the question are we listening?

I did some listening prayer for 614 a few months but not sure if i was suppose to share and i think i suppose to do that now so here you go:

What are some 614 Strengths:We are seeking after the father's heart, Mission Focused, a place of belonging, community focused, fight against injustices and intercession

What we need to work on: More faith, More compassion, Love for the street, More holy spirit led, walking in his power and authority. searching after the lost and that our hearts would break for the lost, allow to god to move through us, belief instead of unbelief, Humility.
What we can do to see the greater things of his kingdom:
To know the bible and believe we can do what it said. to allow the holy spirit to move through us all, ask for fire, walk in faith, not by sightlefting the veil over our eyes to see where he is working and joining him in it.

Update

Last few days has been great, totally god moments. First the all night of prayer for human trafficing, the lord is really giving me the heart for this injustice lately and it been awesome. Jenea put up some testimony of women that has been rescued from this, in my head, i was wow that sucks and just praying the testimony of this women would reach other women that are still trapped in this injustice and i have a weird vision but a cool vision,It was a picture of me in this situation, be tricked into the sex trade and being a house where i am forced to have sex with other guys, i lost and start to weep harshly and went into a deep intercession for this women and the testimonys of women that has been rescued would reach other and that the same thing would happen for them, the chain would be broken and the captive would be released from the darkness and that they would be moved in a safe place and the lord would bring beauty for ashes and he would restore what the enemy took away from them.

Second Last night, jenea and Stephanie had a deliverance session for me all to do with things that my heart has been hardened and become a heart of stone and i desire to have a heart of flesh and it had to do with things that i did not deal with shane yet. It was powerful and it was fast because i am listen to the lord and i hear him clearly which i loved a lot. we did doug burr style. It was a waterfall surround with trees and bushes surround the pond at the end of the waterfall, there is a huge rock in the middle and jesus was there waiting and there was stepping stone path to the rock so i have to jump on the stepping stone to get to the big rock, Jesus held out his arm and help me up on the rock, he gave me a side hug. I ask what i need to get rid of and he show me a lot of stuff, to take away bitterness, anger, soul ties and freedom and my indentify is in christ, he is proud of me. The guilt i has been carrying for the last few months was not from him and the guilt came from the words by shane. the bitterness came from false promises and lies of the enemy. I ask him how he saw that every thing happened and jesus said that it hurt me, how it all happened how rushed it was, how both of you were be selifish and having your desires not mine. I ask jesus what his desires were? Respected, loved, love for jesus and me, accept me for me, heart for brazil and missions, same passions, family and community and jesus has a guy for me just like that :) then went into repentance of allowing the enemy get a foot hold in bitterness, anger and selifishness. There was big forest fire to throw all the bitterness, selfishness, and anger I ask if he had affication for me, just be me, you are awesome, you don't have to change for anyone. There will be fullness for shane and you don't need to carry this burden of shane anymore, give it to me and i will do the rest. stephanie got song of songs 8:6-7 which is one of my favorite song of song verses :)
He want me to do a prophetically act to throw a heavy rock into the water at crabtree park, Which i did today after my war room which my war room shift was great. after my shift, i went down to crab tree park and I search for a heavy rock and i found the perfect one and i just said out loud the burden and everything that went with the burden like alway thinking about him and unholy soul ties and i state the verse Your yoke is easy and your burden is light over and over again and while i was throwing the rock into the water and it was really cool and just climb on a rock just start to pray and sing and i climb down the rock and went home but singing how great is our god.

Praying for a revival in canada

On Friday Night, A young guy named Corey oragized a prayer gathering in a local park, I was invited to come by my youth group pastor and i am glad i went. It was really good. There was about 20 people praying for the Coast. There is a lot of dis unity among the church, Violence in the school, drug use has increased. We spent 2 hours in pray for this community in this area but also in other areas. He is sovereign over Gibsons, Over the Down town East side, All over the world.

Obedience

Trust in him that he know what he is doing and obey what he said and the lord has giving us all gifts to use and we need to be obey in the gifting he has provide for us to use.

listening prayer

Last Night, i did some listening prayer and this what i heard and saw. I ask Jesus where he was, i could not see him but he say look up, Jesus was in the eagle, one side of it's wing, The eagle pick me up and put me inside his other wing and we just soar with the eagle. The Eagle landed on a big rock and that where me and jesus got off. He asked me what that was all about and i remember the psalm 91( i was reading it when he ask me) verse 4 He will cover you with his feathers,and under his wings you will find refuge. I am hided in his wings and there is safety and rest in his wings.

The lord is sovereign.

The Lord is Sovereign Strong over all the world even it is so messy up.
Psalm 140
Rescue them, O LORD, from evil men; protect them from men of violence, 2 who devise evil plans in their hearts and stir up war every day. 3 They make their tongues as sharp as a serpent's; the poison of vipers is on their lips. Selah 4 Keep them, O LORD, from the hands of the wicked; protect me from men of violence who plan to trip their feet. 5 Proud men have hidden a snare for them; they have spread out the cords of their net and have set traps for me along my path. Selah 6 O LORD, I say to you, "You are my God." Hear, O LORD, my cry for mercy. 7 O Sovereign LORD,their strong deliverer, who shields their head in the day of battle- 8 do not grant the wicked their desires, O LORD; do not let their plans succeed, or they will become proud. Selah 9 Let the heads of those who surround thembe covered with the trouble their lips have caused. 10 Let burning coals fall upon them; may they be thrown into the fire, into miry pits, never to rise. 11 Let slanderers not be established in the land; may disaster hunt down men of violence. 12 I know that the LORD secures justice for the poor and upholds the cause of the needy. 13 Surely the righteous will praise your name and the upright will live before you.Them include the children and women being chained in modern slavery, human trafficking, homelessness, child abuse, orphans, widows, the lonely and all that are chained in addication, Break the chains Lord and Release the captives from the darkness

it is my 24th birthday today :)

I am blessed :) I am happy that i have great friends and family and i am glad that i was created and loved by god.

nothing

Hmm Jesus is great, He revealed to me through some of my friends, that i have a fear of being alone in two area of my life, going into relationship when he told me not to save me from heartache for in the sake of being in a relationship. It is ok for me to single, he will provide someone for me when the time is right. and alone time for me and jesus. I need to be around people all the time, two weeks through praying with a friend, He revealed it is ok for me to be alone, he want to spend time with me, just me and him. He is always there so the last two weeks i been spending more time with just me but not isolationing myself from community but not always be around people, it been great. PTL :)

Delight yourself in the lord, he will give the desire of your heart.

Hallejuah Jesus is awesome :)

Well i did my 5 weeks practium at montessional school, it was ok, i really did not want to stay for my 500 hours but i had no other opinions so i agree to stay. so right now they are getting 8 hours of work out of me for 10 dollars a hours but only paying me 4 hours. The envirnment is not the best to be working in specially for what i am making but anyway i been talking with another lady for the last two months and i haven't heard anything from her for a while but curious if the position was filled or not, it has not. she emailed me back and said it is still open, are you still interested and i say so we been talking for the last two weeks and i had interview today and i got the position. I am so excited, it is a brandnew centre, it is closer to my house and the person value the same things i do and i will be pay more hours and my hours will increase after i am licensed ECE Teacher. Praise the lord! He is a great dad and the amazing provider.

what the lord has taught during this year

Patience

Trusting him with my relationships, it is ok to be alone at the moment and the lord will provide when it is his timing. ( the bigger thing he been teaching me this year.

I am good enough

it is ok to have a time for me.

perservence

endurance

Charactor

trust him more with my life

grace

love for the poor, deeper love for my 614 family & family

restoring my family, we are a tightier an deepered unit now then before

deeper desire for the word

the cross

Lately the pictures that the lord is showing me is all about the cross. The fuel of our being is from the power of the cross. I am the person i am today because of the cross. so much grace, forgiveness,mercy, passion and the greatest of this is true love. No greater love is this is that would lay down his life for a friend. what a mighty friend we have in Jesus. I just being thinking why is that we just remember about the cross just at easter, should we being remember it always. he died for us so we could live, hallejuah! He is called us to die to our flesh and pick up our crosses and follow him with the life he is the only one that give us life so we could give it back to him for his purpose and his glory. He has started a good work in all of us, He wants fullness for his people. i remember in my high school yearbook one of my goal in life is to live life to the fullest and quoting mattrew champ, life is too short to be miserable. He did not just died for you and me, he died for the pimp, johns, the doctors that do abortions, gays and prostitutes. Hallejuah.

Lord i am sorry for complaining about my life this days, You have provide me with learning opportunies, if though it been hard sometimes, the perservence and endurance is building character and nothing to compare to the perservence and endurance you need to endure on the journey of the cross for me and the rest of the human race, thanks you for the cross and how

much power is the sacrifice you did for us.

question of the day

Name one thing that you learned today?

Martyr session memories

Street combat with rob

street combat with Heather & Esther

Shopping carts open airs

Squad with salvation 101, 201,301.

taking esther over to gibsons to meet my parents and my sister and youth group

freedom day

watching movies over at 107 with heather, jen, linsey, josh, phil.

coffee time with heather after kneedrill

getting drunk in the spirit for the first time at fresh fire conference, receiving tongues

Seeing Jason Upton.

Holy spirit filled knee drill, regan second blessing, Jonathan receiving tongues, the prayer warrior rising up inside of me when i was praying with nicole and mia.

street combat with esther, jaime , nicole

Recre8 with aurora, sueann, louis the first night i was in vancouver

roommate with linsey new and jamie smith sleeping over.

KFC with linsey, josh

wow i have not blogged for a long time, sorry

He will always guide you, His hand will always lead you to where you supposed to be, He is trustworthy. I had this picture of jesus with his arm wide open and he just waiting for me and for you to fall into his arms. Have you ever done a trust fall with people, while that what jesus wants to do with us.

Life is good,
Classes are done! Woo hoo! I am on my 5 weeks practium, my sponsor teacher ask me if i want a part time job after the third day and i may take it, we will see happens after 5 weeks. I applied for another job that is closer to my house and the lady just got my resume on thursday night so still waiting for her to responsed to me. I am growing in the lord which is always exciting. I am the new powerpoint girl at knee drill which has been great. I am resting his promise, Delight yourself in the lord and he will give you the desire of your heart.