Wednesday, April 30, 2008

fullness, soltiude time

Saturday April 26/2008

On solitude

First I walk into the forest where I saw Jessica and walk on a log and through the dry grass. Just giving thanks and asking for direction and I went back to the church where I was reminded of one of my favorite verse Isaiah 41:9-10. The lord led me to this random path up the road from caribou. the so I decide to go down, as I walk I thought the journey with the lord is sometime is uncertain and just need to trust that he will lead you and not let you be lost. He told me to stop at this grass spot so I did and just going through the psalms and listens to the song obsession by delirious which the chorus sings and my heart burns for youand my heart burns
And my heart burns for you and I came across a verse that really was fitting to the song I was listening to. It was psalm 13:5-6 which said: I trust your love,
And I feel like celebrating
Because you rescued me.
6You have been good to me, LORD,
and I will sing about you. He was reminding me of his goodness, that he has given me provision before and he will do it again and he already start to do that and be thankful in that and be humble in that as well. He was reminding me of relationships I have people and how he brings his goodness through them. Kristin how he brought her in my life and how sweet are our relationship is. The whites and the Evans and Jenea and Donny and Stephanie and Kirsten, the lord just want me to pray and thank him for these relationships by name and he also asked me to pray for more faith, I also listened to the song Faith by Jason Upton. Then I went back to the church and sat on the hill and try to sleep but I could not but I pray for my lips, that the words of my mouth and the mediation of my heart would bring honor to his name, my heart would trust and believe in the promises of the lord, my mind would be fill with the peace of the lord in stressful situation and for my ears that I would hear his voice more clearly. it was a great and refreshing time and i need it :)

Saturday, April 19, 2008

new poem

when i need encouragment, you are there
when i need peace, you are there
when i need joy, you are there
when i am lonely, you are there
you are always there, not leaving my side
walking hand and hand
through this journey we called life

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

poetry

i want to give you fullness
i want to give you joy
i want to give you peace
i want to give fruit that will last

all you need to do is to believe and it will come

take it and run with me, run toward me, the author & perfector of your faith
every good gift come from above

this is my desire for you
i have gave you the keys, all you need is to click the key to unlock the door and all of the treasure of heaven will fall on you.

Delight yourself

Delight yourself
Delight yourself
Delight yourself
in the lord

and he will give you the desire of your heart
align your heart to mine and i will give you the desires of your heart

I have good things for you
Every good gift come from you above.
This morning, Doug Burr was talking about healing old memories and one came to mind and since i have done my life has been different which is great and here it again:
So this morning during my quiet time with Jesus, I was reading my bible and praying for people but I couldn't concrente on praying so I ask Jesus why? Because you and me have to deal with something, a negative memory of your childhood, I was like that make sense why I couldn't concentrate on praying. I ask what the memory was, it was the memory of my elemaranty school days when I always walk alone at recress and lunch and alway seeing people having fun with their friends and me playing on the tire swing by myself. i was like we starting to deal with my issue of rejection, jesus was yep we sure are. i ask where we going to do this, are we going to our meeting place. No was the response of jesus, we are going where it is all tooked place,the school ground of my elemany school. so i ask jesus how we were going to do this, he was like you are going to go through the memory but this time asking where i was in this situation and of course i was ok. so it starting me walking around the school yard,ask where jesus was and of course he was right beside me linking with my arm as we are skipping around the school yard. Jesus was a young child. so i went to the swings, i sat on the swings and i ask jesus where he was, he was the one that was pushing me on the swings. he pushed me in the back of me. he gave me a underduck and just walking in front of me and push on my feet as i swang back and forth, i got off the swing and went to the tire swing,ask where he was and he was the one that was pushing me and then he jump on the tire swing with me and we both could feel the wind in our hair and the sunshine bleaming down our faces. Then we went to the playground, we played tag and he was trying to chase me, i was too fast for him, he came back behind me and gave me this huge bear hug and i turned around to embace him, me and him just stood there for a while just embacing each other and just continually to play tag with smiles on our faces and this childlike joy came over both of us. It was sweet. the last thing he said was if you are feeling rejected by man, you are alway accepted by me and i am your friend and i want to spend time with you so come and chill out with me. i was like ok.

Friday, March 21, 2008

The cross archive

Lately the pictures that the lord is showing me is all about the cross. The fuel of our being is from the power of the cross. I am the person i am today because of the cross. so much grace, forgiveness,mercy, passion and the greatest of this is true love. No greater love is this is that would lay down his life for a friend. what a mighty friend we have in Jesus. I just being thinking why is that we just remember about the cross just at easter, should we being remember it always. he died for us so we could live, hallejuah! He is called us to die to our flesh and pick up our crosses and follow him with the life he is the only one that give us life so we could give it back to him for his purpose and his glory. He has started a good work in all of us, He wants fullness for his people. i remember in my high school yearbook one of my goal in life is to live life to the fullest and quoting mattrew champ, life is too short to be miserable. He did not just died for you and me, he died for the pimp, johns, the doctors that do abortions, gays and prostitutes. Hallejuah.
Lord i am sorry for complaining about my life this days, You have provide me with learning opportunies, if though it been hard sometimes, the perservence and endurance is building character and nothing to compare to the perservence and endurance you need to endure on the journey of the cross for me and the rest of the human race, thanks you for the cross and how
much power is the sacrifice you did for us.

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

How great is our god, i love this song.
HOW GREAT THOU ART O Lord my God, When I in awesome wonder,Consider all the worlds Thy Hands have made;I see the stars, I hear the rolling thunder,Thy power throughout the universe displayed.Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,How great Thou art, How great Thou art.Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,How great Thou art, How great Thou art!When through the woods, and forest glades I wander,And hear the birds sing sweetly in the trees.When I look down, from lofty mountain grandeurAnd see the brook, and feel the gentle breeze.Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,How great Thou art, How great Thou art.Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,How great Thou art, How great Thou art!And when I think, that God, His Son not sparing;Sent Him to die, I scarce can take it in;That on the Cross, my burden gladly bearing,He bled and died to take away my sin.Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,How great Thou art, How great Thou art.Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,How great Thou art, How great Thou art!When Christ shall come, with shout of acclamation,And take me home, what joy shall fill my heart.Then I shall bow, in humble adoration,And then proclaim: "My God, how great Thou art!"Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,How great Thou art, How great Thou art.Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,How great Thou art, How great Thou art!
Wednesday, February 22, 2006

story
Sapphire was walking through this setting, this setting was not new to her, it reminded her of this friend of her, He walked the same path 2000 year ago. Step by step Sapphire could feel and heard the voices on the edges of the path that was mocking and cursing this man. This man was filled with compassionate, love and mercy. As Sapphire walk along this path the same feelings came over her. She walk up this huge hill, there stood three crosses standing tall and there she had a flashback of what happened to this man 200o year ago and now she is walking the same path as he did. He was beaten, tornoted,nail to the cross. Tear streamed down her face and bow in amazement of this man sacrifice, he died for me. He died to be my freedom, He died to be my daddy, he died for joy, he died for my future, he died for my hope, He died for my family, he died for the redempation of all mankind. As Sapphire bowed in amazement of this man's love and grace, she thinks to herself, i am not worthy of all this love, i have done not good thing, that man walked behind her and bow right next to her and whisper in her ear, i have made you worthy of this grace and love through the power of my name, you are my daughter and you are accepted and adopted into my huge family. Who is this man? His name is Jesus Christ.
Posted by Rebekah Barnum
Friday, August 05, 2005

psalm 67:2-4
2 that your ways may be known on earth, your salvation among all nations. 3 May the peoples praise you, O God; may all the peoples praise you. 4 May the nations be glad and sing for joy, for you rule the peoples justly and guide the nations of the earth.Jesus already resigns in the world because he finished that when he died on the cross and rose from the death but he doesn't rule over of the world. We are the ones that has the authority and power that he has give us to rule over all the nations so why are we not tapping into his authority and power. i also hope this all making some sense
Posted by Rebekah Barnum
Friday, January 07, 2005

there is so much power in the blood of jesus
we as christians usually forget how much power in the blood of jesus. there is so much power in the cross and what jesus did on the cross for us. He took ALL of our sorrows and pain so we wouldn't have to. hallejauh! let us not forget how powerful the name of jesus and what he did for us. he is can tranformed anyone just like that cause of the cross. Worthy is the Lamb, who was slain, to receive power and wealth and wisdom and strength and honor and glory and praise!” revelation 5:12. we are worthy cause he made us worthy. how awesome is that?


Jesus thanks you for the cross and the life that come from it. thanks you for die for me when i was still in sin.

Saturday, March 01, 2008

The Good Samarian

On wedensday, i went down to the crosswalk to do my laundry and i walked all the way down there where i found i left my keys at home, then a guy that look really out of place, he ask me what is this place and i told him that it was shelter and we run a coffee place in the back 4 nights a week. We introducing ours self and his name is jame king, he walk with me to the haven and he received some information from the shelter worker at the haven, then we walk to my house and got my keys and walk back to the crosswalk to put my laundry in, where we met Aaron white on the street and he suggested belkin so i walk with him because he would of totally got lost and at first belkin only could put him on the waitlist and i said i know stephen bell and belkin said to Jame to come back at 9 because i known steve bell, that was pretty cool. he wants to take me out for coffee to thanks me for being there and helping out and making sure an effort to get him a place.

Sunday, February 24, 2008

revealation

I go to league of mercy and Street combat on tuesday & sundays but lately it been hard to be faithful. I feel my relationship with jesus is not as connected as i use to be but i still hear him clearly and i felt that i have nothing to offered to the people on the streets and the people that i meet in the hotels but this thursday during knee drill(our worship/prayer meeting, the lord spoke me and this what he said:
Rebekah, You do have things to offered, Ears to hear their story, a shoulder to cry on, a mouth to speak truth about the love of christ, you can give them a sense of hope and that they know that someone is praying for them and finding comfort in that. Be faithful in the little things is hard but in this times you find the most fruit. I need to spend time with jesus to get filled out so i go out in the strength of the lord and give people of the downtown eastside a friend that cares and love them uncontinually and want their hope and dreams to come a reality.

Friday, February 08, 2008

new poem

You are God, I am not in control of this life
You are the only one that can make this life satisfy
You are full of Life & peace
you are all together lovely and worthy of all our praise

Thursday, January 17, 2008

update

volunteering with UBC childcare until i had completed my 500 hours and then i will go on their substitute teacher list in about a month or two. praise the lord for an answering prayer.

Tuesday, January 08, 2008

update

Jobless once again :( It happened last thursday. If i could turn back time i would go back and change how the reaction in stressful situation but i can't. I know i am good ece teacher and i made a mistake I loved the job so much and i am sad that i never got say goodbye to the kids i look after. I hope i learned from this experience and change the things i need to change to be a more patience and need a better tone. i know i am not perfect at this job, that is part is my weakness but i willing to make my weakness into a strength. I really don't this process finding another place of employment to be a long one and draw out. i want it to quick. i want peace so i can sleep better. The lord give and take away but my heart would choose to bless his name.

Thursday, December 20, 2007

If you are weary, find rest
If you are worned out, do nothing for a day
If you are stressed due to christmas, this will be passed soon, Just remind yourself what christmas really is meant to be for. Find joy & peace in that.
if you are joyful, stay joyful
if you lonely, find a friend
if you are sad, look for something that brings you joy and do that
Peace out everyone.
Hope everyone has a merry christmas and a happy new year :)

Sunday, December 09, 2007

tonight

I went to burnaby to my friends Jeni & Regan house for a christmas party/carolling. it was fun to spread christmas cheer around if though some people did not really like it but overall people seem to enjoy our singing, it was the first time i have been carolling, of course i sang through kettles but never door to doors. Then we came back and drank some apple cider and played phase 10, good times good times.

Sunday, December 02, 2007

update

My life is good. I enjoying it quite a bit. Work is fun, we just finish making a paper mache volcano and erupting with vingear and baking soda. Next we are making a paper mache snowman, that should be fun. In other parts of my life, things are pretty good, i went to the doctor because i had this cough for over 6 weeks and they gave me an puffer but i was healed of that 2 years ago and it has not helped. my dad thinks it might be bronchilus so i will have to go to the doctor and get my chest examined which i hate doing but this cough is annoying. Right now i have a cold as well. hmm god is good and my family is doing well and my parent are well as well. i am looking forward to spending time with them this christmas holiday with the rest of my family. I still living in the apartments, we try to live as a family which some time hard to do and some time i want to run but living in community is hard but it is good and fun at the same time. i just frustrated when there is a guy at the courthouse at 3 am yelling about things like the olympics and the taser incident that happened at the airport about a month. On february 9 i will be the Canucks game with my dad for his 60 birthday, super excited about that. we are in section 120 and section 121 because there was no double seating but hopefully we will be able to sit together somehow. anyway, that is all. Grace & Peace out

Sunday, November 18, 2007

Martyrs reunite, well the ones that still live in vancouver

yesterday The martyrs session reunite, the ones that still live in vancouver, there is 8 of us. It was awesome to fellowship with my fellow sessionmate, call old friends and our fellow leaders and just have fun and chill out with every other. It was a rich time with friends. There is a bond that cannot be broken among the sessions of the war college. The War college is not about the acadamic, It is about making friends with people around the world and making an impact in the downtown eastside that you may not see the lasting affect but you were a part of planting a seed. It was awesome :)

Monday, November 12, 2007

i love my family :)

I went to Parkville for Remembrance Day weekend to see my uncles, aunts and my grandparents, it been like 5 years since the last time i saw it. It was lovely, I saw all my uncles which is rarely because most of time they are either busy or not in town. My grandad wasn't able to go to the remembrance day service because the weather was bad and he get quite emotional because his brother is on the honour roll on the momunemt where the service tooked placed. He was in the WW2 and my uncle that i saw the grave when i was in italy was also there, so remembrance day is not just another day for me and my family, it is personal. me, my uncles and my brother and dad got into a car and went down to paid tribute to the barnum that dies for our country. I got to see my cousin burke play 2 of his hockey tournment games and was honoured to see his first goal of the season and today saw him for the first time, he is 14 now, the last time i saw him was when he was really young. It was a lovely time to reconnect with family that i have not seen for a long time.

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

My new Job

I been working for an lady named carolanne at her preschool for 6 weeks before i went to the new daycare which opened just this week. It is only a few children right now but in janurary there will be 8 and there will be someone else to come and help me which is good. I enjoy it a lot. Carolanne is very friendly and i like her alot. Her daughter are great as well. It is just good all around.

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

update

Life is good, My Job is great :)
jesus is teaching me things, i am growing in the lord and i am happy i am alive and i am blessed by so many people in my life :)

Sunday, October 21, 2007

personality Test

Answers are for who you are now...... not who you were in the past. Have pen or pencil and paper ready. This is a real test given by the Human Relations Dept. at many of the major corporations today . It helps them get better insight concerning their employees and prospective employees. It's only 10 Simple questions, so...grab a pencil and paper, keeping track of your letter answers to each question. Make sure to change the subject of the e-mail to read YOUR total. When you are finished, forward this to friends/family, and also send it to the person who sent this to you. Make sure to put YOUR score in the subject box. Ready?? Begin... 1. When do you feel your best? a) in the morning b) during the afternoon &and early evening c) late at night 2.
You usually walk. .. a) fairly fast, with long steps b) fairly fast, with little steps c) less fast head up, looking the world in the face d) less fast, head down e) very slowly
3. When talking to people you.. a) stand with your arms folded b) have your hands clasped c) have one or both your hands on your hips d) touch or push the person to whom you are talking e) play with your ear, ! touch your chin, or smooth your hair
4. When relaxing, you sit with.. a) your knees bent with your legs neatly side by side b) your legs crossed c) your legs stretched out or straight d) one leg curled under you
5. When something really amuses you, you react with... a) big appreciated laugh b) a laugh, but not a loud one c) a quiet chuckle d) a sheepish smile
6. When you go to a party or social gathering you.. a) make a loud entrance so everyone notices you b) make a quiet entrance, looking around for someone you know c) make the quietest entrance, trying to stay unnoticed
7. You're working very hard, concentrating hard, and you're interrupted...a) welcome the break b) feel extremely irritated c) vary between these two extremes
8 Which of the following colors do you like most? a) Red or orange b) black c) yellow or light blue d) green e) dark blue or purple f) white g) brown or gray
9. When you are in bed at night, in those last few moments before going to sleep you are.. a) stretched out on your back b) stretched out face down on your stomach c) on your side, slightly curled d) with your head on one arm e) with your head under the covers
10. You often dream that you are... a) falling b) fighting or struggling c) searching for something or somebody d) flying or floating e) you usually have dreamless sleep f) your dreams are always pleasant

POINTS: 1. (a) 2 (b) 4 (c) 6 2. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 7 (d) 2 (e) 13. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 5 (d) 7 (e) 6 4. (a) 4 (b) 6 (c) 2 (d) 1 5. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 2 6. (a) 6 (b) 4 ( c) 2 7. (a) 6 (b) 2 (c) 4 8. (a) 6 (b) 7 (c) 5 (d) 4 (e) 3 (f) 2 (g) 1 9. (a) 7 (b) 6 (c) 4 (d) 2 (e) 1 10. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 6 (f) 1 Now add up the total number of points.

OVER 60 POINTS : Others see you as someone they should "handle with care." You're seen as vain, self-centered, and who is extremely dominant.. Others may admire you, wishing they could be more like you, but don't always trust you, hesitating to become too deeply involved with you. 51 TO 60 POINTS: Others see you as an exciting, highly volatile, rather impulsive personality; a natural leader, who's quick to make decisions, though not always the right ones. They see you as bold and adventuresome, someone who will try anything once; someone who takes chances and enjoys an adventure. They enjoy being in your company because of the excitement! you r r a diate.
41 TO 50 POINTS: Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.
31 TO 40 POINTS: Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful & practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest. Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust In your friends, but equally that it takes you u a long time to get over if that trust is ever broken.
21 TO 30 PO IN TS: Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It would! really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment, expecting you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then, usually decide against it. They think this reaction is caused partly by your careful nature.
UNDER 21 POINTS: People think you are shy, nervous, and indecisive, someone who needs looking after, who always wants someone else to make the decisions & who doesn't want to get involved with anyone or anything! They see you as a worrier who always sees problems that don't exist. So me people think you're boring. Only those who know you well know that you aren't.Now forward this to others, and put your score in the subject box of your e-mail, like this: "Dr.Phil's Test, I'm a 45"<>

Friday, October 12, 2007

Joy!

The Joy of the lord is Our strength. There is Joy in the presence of the lord and in community. I want to embrace the presence of the lord and community more than i alright do. Joy is a weapon to fight against the despair. There is joy in the salvation army, where is it in the army? Where is the joy of our salvation? Jesus is the truth and the truth will set us free and of course trials will come but in jame it said, Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. Jesus i want more joy.

The greatest thing that bring me joy is hearing from the lord and revelations.

Grace & blessings