Just me

Well On Thursday My Instructor And I sat and talk about how was doing? In the last month and half she has seen me gone downhill, showing signs of depression and not being myself, believe everything is ok when it is not. She concened. To be completely honest, i would have to agree with her. I haven't been myself. I been trying to not think about what happened and move forward but it is still in back of my mind and my focus is not on the children while i am on practise, it elsewhere and it looks like i am not fully there. But i will said this, Jesus is giving me strength and without him this whole thing would of be a lot worse. My time this days has been focus on school and i don't want to say i don;t have time for jesus but honesty i have not done my rations for a least 3 weeks or done a full war room shift for almost 4 weeks. so that where i am. She is worried that i am going to fail and I don't want to do that because i work my butt off in last 8 months

8 weeks and i will be done school :) it been a good time in school but i am at the point when i just want to be finished and start working in the feild.
1 more week of afternoon classes.
physicially & spirtually i am doing good but emotionally i have good days and days are bad. Missing shane a lot this days in my life but just waiting on the lord on that. Just want to say Shane You are great guy and i am hoping and praying for the lord's best for you.
got to hang out with crystal myers and andy and Rebecca at xculture last night, it was good times.

cool song

Hear Us From Heaven - Jared Anderson

Verse:
Lord, hear our cry
Come heal our land
Breath life into these dry and thirsty souls
Lord, hear our prayer Forgive our sin
And as we call on Your name Would You
make this a place For Your glory to dwell
Chorus: Open the blind eyes Unlock the deaf ears
Come to Your people As we draw near Hear us from heaven
Touch our generation
We are Your people Crying out in desperation
Lord hear our song Your children worship As we sing out Your praise
Would You make this a place for Your glory to dwell
Bridge: Hear Us From Heaven, Hear Us From Heaven, Hear Us From Heaven (4x)

cool illustration

In a kindgarten class a teacher brought in a picture of a family and one of the boy in the picture had different colour of hair and skin and one boy said is that boy adopted? this girl said he probably is, i know about adoption because i am adopted. a person in the class asked what is adoption? The girl that was adopted said" I grew in my mommy's heart instead of my mommy's tummy.

Lyrics Don't worry child(no idea who wrote but would like to know :)

Don't worry child

To live is christ to die is gain
You believe this but you can't ignore your pain
It's hard enough to move it through another day
now you need someone to hear you when you pray

Chorus:
Don't worry child, i am right here by your side
I been here all along in me, won't you abide
Is your grief too much to bare, give it to me
I can heal your heart, your soul i can set you free

When you wake up each day my promises are new
Have faith in me and i will get you through
Is your burden heavy here take mine it light
my yolk is easy, come and have this life

Chorus

You've fought until you nothing left to give
Every ounce of every energy you have spent
though your heart it break inside
more than anything in life
I long for you to know

Chorus

I know this pain this has caused
Gave my son upon the cross
But know nothing has been lost
Believe in me (2x)