verse of the day

Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth.”- 1 John 3:18

my rations this morning John 21:15-25

15When they had finished eating, Jesus said to Simon Peter, "Simon son of John, do you truly love me more than these?" "Yes, Lord," he said, "you know that I love you." Jesus said, "Feed my lambs."
16Again Jesus said, "Simon son of John, do you truly love me?" He answered, "Yes, Lord, you know that I love you." Jesus said, "Take care of my sheep."
17The third time he said to him, "Simon son of John, do you love me?" Peter was hurt because Jesus asked him the third time, "Do you love me?" He said, "Lord, you know all things; you know that I love you."
18Jesus said, "Feed my sheep. I tell you the truth, when you were younger you dressed yourself and went where you wanted; but when you are old you will stretch out your hands, and someone else will dress you and lead you where you do not want to go." 19Jesus said this to indicate the kind of death by which Peter would glorify God. Then he said to him, "Follow me!"
20Peter turned and saw that the disciple whom Jesus loved was following them. (This was the one who had leaned back against Jesus at the supper and had said, "Lord, who is going to betray you?") 21When Peter saw him, he asked, "Lord, what about him?"
22Jesus answered, "If I want him to remain alive until I return, what is that to you? You must follow me." 23Because of this, the rumor spread among the brothers that this disciple would not die. But Jesus did not say that he would not die; he only said, "If I want him to remain alive until I return, what is that to you?"
24This is the disciple who testifies to these things and who wrote them down. We know that his testimony is true.
25Jesus did many other things as well. If every one of them were written down, I suppose that even the whole world would not have room for the books that would be written.


We were doing listening prayer at knee drill on thursday and jesus ask us if we love him, this question has been in my head for the last few days now. do i honourly love him, does my words match up with the actions i am doing. is my life living up to what i already attained in christ, a part of me thinks no. Jesus Forgive me, help me to match my words with my action, i want to love you as much as you loves us. You love us first and thanks for your love and grace. lord help me to seek and find you in the secret place.

verse of the day

There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.”- 1 John 4:18

Heather, travis and rob will be in town soon, so excited to see all of them :) and to meet leo and jesse

random verse

But it is God who judges: He brings one down, he exalts another.

SASB # 724

Have we not known it, have we not heard it? Power unto god belongs. Yet do we daily find in his mercy, themes for the sweetest songs; Healing the wounded, raising the fallen, Making the blind to see, saying all who seek his face, these precious of redeeming grace:

No more! No more
He remember sins no more
They are pardoned for ever
and he will never,
bring up against me any more.
I'll hear no more of the evil days of yore;
I am pardoned offender, and God will remember them no more.

Joy burst of singing gaily are springing with every day that starts
if we were silent then would the stones cry, shame on our fainting hearts
O banish sadness, sing now for gladness, Glory in christ, the Lord
Who is a god like unto thee
one can pardon iniquity?

Safe in the dark day, safe in the bright day; safe til my latest breath;
There is endurance in this assurance, stronger than fear of death, When the accuser of judgement. seeking my soul to claim, i have a token in the blood, I have the word of a pardoning God.

Hallejuah!

Feb update

February has been a pretty good month for me. I realized that my trigger of my insomnia is stressing over my schooling because i really want to do well in this course and i am too hard on myself when i am not. Me and Shane step back for a brief time when we realized that we were both miserable and we both could not hear the voice of the lord so we got back together and the blessing and the favour of the lord returned for the both of us. Shane met my dad, my two brothers and it went well, then he met my sister and my mom so now he has met all my family. he proposed to me and i agree but after a brief time we both felt the timing was off and went back to courtship and it been great. It is a blessing for me to have him in my life. We also both realized that we both spend too much time together so we stepped back and this past week we almost did not see each other at all so we have to make a happy medium and where the idea of date nights came in. Monday and Friday night we are going to hang out intentionally one on one. we had our first one and it was really good, it was a lot of fun. I finished my phase 2 and decided not to continued on with phase 3 because i just want to finished phase 2 because i started it and this year was set aside for ECE. School is going well, stressful at times but i enjoy it and my classmates and my teachers. if any of you have tips for stress relievers let me know please. i got the chance to spend some time with Doug when he was in town and it was rich and blessing time as always when he comes. i got a new cell phone and if you want to have the number, email me. hmm that is all i can think about writing right now. Blessing and grace

psalm 103:8-13

You might of heard the expression, once gay alway gay, personally i think it is a load of bull. i believe that gay is a sin and if someone turn straight after having an encounter with jesus christ then he is straight now, praise the lord! He died for all sins.
I love this verse:
The LORD is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in love.
He will not always accuse, nor will he harbor his anger forever;
he does not treat us as our sins deserve or repay us according to our iniquities.
For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his love for those who fear him; 12 as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us.

Why does people have to judge the past, the past is the past, the past is the past for a reason. I wish people would see a person the way they are now and what they are becoming.

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To have a heart like his to look into the faces of the saved and rejoice, there just one grave away from being like Jesus, to have a heart like him, to look into the face of the lost and pray. for unless they turn, there one grave away from torment.

It is a serious thing to live in a society of possible god and godless, to remember that the dullest and most uninteresting person you talk to many one day be a creature which, if you saw it now, you would be strongly tempted to worship, or else a horror and a corruption such as you meet only in a nightmare, all day long we are, in some degree, helping each other to one or the other of these destination. C.S Lewis

And so my challenge to you is simple, ask god to help you have his eternal view of the world.

Every time i heard this song, i think of shane

"Ever The Same"We were drawn from the weedsWe were brave like soldiersFalling down under the pale moonlightYou were holding to meLike a someone brokenAnd I couldn't tell you but I'm telling you nowJust let me hold you while you're falling apartJust let me hold you and we'll both fall downFall on meTell me everything you want me to beForever with you forever in meEver the sameWe would stand in the windWe were free like waterFlowing downUnder the warmth of the sunNow it's cold and we're scaredAnd we've both been shakenHey, look at usMan, this doesn't need to be the endJust let me hold you while you're falling apartJust let me hold you and we'll both fall downFall on me tell me everything you want me to beForever with youForever in meEver the sameCall on meI'll be there for you and you'll be there for meForever it's youForever in meEver the sameYou may need me thereTo carry all your weightBut you're no burden I assureYou tide me overWith a warmth I'll not forgetBut I can only give you loveFall on me tell me everything you want me to beForever with youForever in meEver the sameCall on meI'll be there for you and you'll be there for meForever it's youForever in meEver the sameForever with youForever in meEver the same(Ever the same)

John 15:15

Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends.

He called us friends, he want to be friends with us, we were sinner and now he see us clean, Hallejuah!

What is your best all time conversation or revelation that jesus reveal to you in your quiet time?

Mine: Going through a child memory when i was rejected in school and how he was right beside me the whole time and how much freedom attained for dealing with a little part of the problem.

He goes with you with every where you, He is strong and courtagious and he is your strength when you are weak.

Me and shane :)

Recre8 wedensday

I lead the coolest night, Wedensday, some people will think that thursday night is, those people will remain nameless. anyway we were praying, stephanie had a word that jesus want to recre8 be fill with his praise and it was. Stephanie play her guitar and close to the end, we were playing cards and we singing our favorite worship songs. We pray over people and it was just a picture of what recre8 is supposed to look like. It was an awesome night. One of the best i have experienced in a while. Praise the lord!

Rations

I tell you, open your eyes and look at the fields! They are ripe for harvest. 36Even now the reaper draws his wages, even now he harvests the crop for eternal life, so that the sower and the reaper may be glad together. 37Thus the saying 'One sows and another reaps' is true. 38I sent you to reap what you have not worked for. Others have done the hard work, and you have reaped the benefits of their labor." From John 4: 35-38

i find this verse fitted into war college, the death and glory plowed and prepared the feilds and we reap the benefits of their labour and the martyrs did with the holy session and what the revolution session reaped for this yer. Hallejuah more lord more :)

Today

sum up version:Good but long, but here we go with the details
Woke up, have a shower and got on my uniform and met Shane at his house, we went up to metro town citadel for church. Major Elizabeth grad point that Shane has brought a special someone with him today so he stood up and introduced me as the girl i am courting and i am pretty embarrassed, not sure why but i was little. It was a good time of worship, mixture of 614 style of worship and old salvo style. it was cool. i did not know many songs but it is all good. The sermon was about heaven and the text was john 13:36 to John 14 :5. it was good message. I lean over and said not very nice but truthfully comment to Shane, we do not need to repeat it after church, it was their annual fellowship coffee and there were this skor bars that a lady made, they were amazing. we dealt with a lot of things regarding the wedding today. If we are not engaged yet, we both detailed orated so we both agree we should start thinking what our wedding want to look like so we don't need to stressed when we are in engaged. Next stop, Xculture: Superbowl with lots of guys and junk food equal lot of fun and a sore stomach specially when you had nothing but that all day. Bears Lost:( crying insert here) Apparently prince is a good performer and someone want three of his cd, not going to say any names. We went off to my sister place. I have to talk to my parents, that is always fun. we were going to watch a movie, but we decide to talk about Barnum family stories and just chatting and eating Chinese food. So concludes the day of Rebekah's Sunday.

LALALALALALALA

Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him psalm 37:17b

The lord has been speaking to me about be silence before him and just being in his presence.


Tired of telling you, you have me
When I know you really don't
Tired of telling you I'll followWhen I know I reallly won't
Cause I'd rather stand here speechless
With no great words to say
If my silence is more truthful
And my ears can hear how to walk in your way In the silence You are speaking In the quiet I can feel the fire And it's burning, burning deeply Burning all that it is that you desire to be silent, in me Oh Jesus can you hear me?My soul is screaming outAnd my broken will cries teach meWhat your Kingdom's all about Unite my heart to fear you,To fear your holy name And create a life of worship In the spirit and truth of your loving ways