how well do you know me?

My name?
My favorite colour?
My favorite movie?
what is my favorite musical?
When is my birthday?
How many sibling do i have?
How long have i know you?
What are my spirtual gifts?
What is my passion?
what is my heart's desire?
when was the last time we saw each other?
Do you know my middle names?
what is my favorite drink at starbucks?
where did we meet?
what is the best feature about me?
what are my stuggles right now?

God's grace

So yesterday i had an interview with this resturant. I miss the interview due went not knowing where i was going and walking due lack of funds. i email them saying what happened, they are giving me another chance for the interview. Amen and hallejuah! I am going to call them now. bye, more to come on the outcome.

Fullness

Just arrived back to vancouver from a blessed weekend in campbell river at the painter lodge. It was a weekend of refreshing of Jesus's presence. Blessing & Revealations:
I got a double bed to my self, the most comfortable bed i stay for a long time. Got to room with three loving lady, ashley, melissa and jenea.
Stop believing that i don't deserve the best. Believing that Every good and perfect gift come from above. Receive Freedom from that. Praise the lord.
Got to pray and looking at creation at the same time, it was super cool to have a war room looking out to the mountains. Sweet revelation of that Jesus is the coolest friend to have, that he want to be friends with me and his kids. that he want to give me strength and power to cast out demon and heal the sick. He want to bring freedom and fullness to my life. How many time does christian read the bible but how many does believe in every word. It is the truth because Jesus is the way, the truth and the life and god doesn't lie. The bible is the truth about us. Amen, Hallejuah. I was fasting all weekend but when i was praying for andrea and jacynta healing that was the first time all weekend that i was full. It was really cool. Thanks for all the prayers, it is lifted up my spirit.

Footprints in the sand

One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,
other times there was one only.
This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life,
when I was suffering from anguish,
sorrow or defeat,
I could see only one set of footprints,
so I said to the Lord,
"You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you,
you would walk with me always.
But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life
there has only been one set of footprints in the sand.
Why, when I needed you most, have you not been there for me?"
The Lord replied,
"The years when you have seen only one set of footprints,
my child, is when I carried you."


I spent the morning at english bay in a time of soltuide, it was good! i need to have one morning a week just me and Jesus.i heard to take off my shoes and walk through the sand without any shoes, at first i wasn't sure cause it was cold out side and the sand was wet but i did anyway and it was really cool. i ask jesus what it meant and all he said read this poem and it will all make senses so i did and it does. Thanks you Jesus. Throw a bunch of rocks in the sea of unforgetness that was hindering me to embrace the things god has for me. I am in a better place now, PTL. Thanks you all for the prayers and encouragement. Love ya.

Every good and perfect gift came from above. I am blessed!

no go on Job at the movie threatre

I got an email from the movie threatre last night saying the postition was already be filled. Start from the very beginning, it is a good place to start. Starting the whole process again, woohoo! Productive and stay postitive are keys of my success which is extremely hard to do when i see no hope.

I Never cry so much in the war room last night for a long time. It was a good cry yet i am still feeling pain and hurt this morning. Why Jesus haven't you took this pain away? I don't need it, I don't want it! I only need you! I only want you! I am not looking for pity. I am looking for answers. Jesus You are my deliver, Deliver me please! You don't defile my character. YOu know me more than i know about myself and You love me where i am, where you are taking me. Help me to fix my eyes on you more and more. Stir up a passion for your name more and more each day. Why doesn't the enemy twisted the truth and pin one of other against other. I hate It! Anyway that a peice of my heart for you all.
Blessing and grace

interview

I had an interview today. woohoo! It was at the tinseltown cinema at 4:30
I was asked a lot of questions. the assistent manager asked me if i had any questions for her. so i ask her how i did in the interview? She said Good question and she look over the sheet of paper and look at me and said you answer the questions really well and overall of all It was really well! I heard it this and i was quite excited! she is letting me know this week no matter what. I am really really hope i get this job. I look really good as well which was great. I am beautiful of course i would look good:D. i am not going to put all my eggs in one baskets and i do really praying in this one because it would a lot of fun and really enjoyable.

Random qoute

'PRAYER DOESN'T MAKE A DIFFERENCE, PRAYER IS THE DIFFERENCE"

what i read in the newspaper this morning

Vancouver should explore a harm-reduction plan that could see red wine given to hard-core street alcoholics, says the city's drug policy coordinator.

Such a program would target homeless alcoholics who may now be drinking extremely harmful substances such as after-shave or Lysol to feed their addictions.

"It's stabilizing the drug use," drug policy coordinator Donald MacPherson said. The benefits of the program would be a reduction in emergency room attendance and less contact with police.

But he adds, "How big the need is in Vancouver still needs to be determined."

Anne Livingstone of the Vancouver Area Network of Drug Users says an alcohol-replacement program is logical.

"It brings dignity to people who aren't going to stop drinking," Livingstone said.

The program would be similar, in theory, to heroin-assisted treatment programs, such as the controversial NAOMI heroin program that's now taking place on a small scale in Vancouver. MacPherson also says that program should be expanded.

He has been integral to the city's implementation of the Four Pillars drug policy, which has received much attention for harm-reduction measures such as the supervised heroin-injection site.

Now he's asking council to permanently approve funding for the city's drug policy program.

MacPherson acknowledges there have been critics, who say not enough attention has been paid to the components other than harm reduction.

"I'd have to agree if they're talking about prevention," MacPherson said. "It's probably not had the same amount of focus that enforcement and harm reduction have had."

Seriously why? first the free needles, then the free hereion and now alcohol, come on use your heads people. this things make me so angry. what can i do? write letters to the government and pray i guess. What is your opinion about this?

none

It is my 186 post Today!
Thoughts that are going on my head right now: my faith is fake and not real. I am only going through the emotions.
will i ever have a steady job beside working as a dishwasher in a resturant?
I think i may have the Job annointing on my life, Everything is extreme hard for me to do but i push through to get through it.
I said i love jesus but am i really obey his commands?
Do i have an learning disability or has that be a curse over all my life.

Anyway there was a quite a lot of breakthough at Raw this past 4 days. Good times, Good Times.

Raw

Wow the biggest blessing of this conference, this kids and their passion for mission, teens coming out on their spring break, to come to worship the living god and to serve among the poor and the needy. Hallejuah! Lord please restore the same passion that this kids bring to the streets if though they are here for a short awhile yet they have more compassionate and passion on those that live among the poor and do this daily. More passion more love more of you Lord
The song that has been in my head since the beginning of this conference is Consuming fire by Tim Hughes:

There must be more than this
oh breath of God come breath within
There must be more than this
Spirit of God we wait for you
Fill us anew we pray
Fill us anew we pray

Chorus:
Consuming Fire
Fan into flame
a passion for your name
Spirit of God
fall in this place
Lord have your way
Lord have your way
with us

Verse 2:
Come like a rushing wind
Fill us with power from on high
Now set the captives free
leave us abandoned to your praise
Lord let your glory fall
Lord let your glory fall

Raw

RAW STARTS TONIGHT
DOORS OPEN AT 5:30
XCulture (corner of templation and pender)
it is going be good. Come out and have a great time worshipping and doing mission on the streets of vancouver.

mattrew 18:21-23

Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, "Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother when he sins against me? Up to seven times?"
Jesus answered, "I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times.[f]
"Therefore, the kingdom of heaven is like a king who wanted to settle accounts with his servants.

wow, what a great verse yet a hard verse. Why is no grace between me and an another brother. Why is there all this drama? I repent for something that i did and turn away and told this person about my realization how i hurt this person and i apolized for it, yet no forgiveness. Why is it so hard to forgive among the church? f you got some answers,feel free to left comments?

verse of the day

But in your hearts set apart Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect, ”- 1 Peter 3:15

Good verse,

I use to be involved in scout canada and the motto in scott canada is to be prepared. Well in this verse we need to be prepared to be ready to share the good news with anyone. So be ready. Love never Fails.

Jesus i pray that you would be the first in my life and everyone else's life. May we all be prepared to share about your goodness in this dark dark world. May we speak in love and respect for others. may our words reflect the beauty of you and line up with action.

Be Blessed.

posse out,
RB

just a thought

An Email or a blog set up for a support cell among the parents that sent their kids to the war college. Just a thought. Your Thoughts?

Ashely

what can i say about ashley philip? A lot! Things i appericate about her:
Her Gentle spirit
Her Hugs
How we can have fun doing whatever
A good listener
Her support in the hard times
Her beauty
Kind,caring and just fun
Ashley You are awesome and i love you so much,more than any words could expresses. Happy Birthday sis :D

Praise Report

Phil, Ashley and myself kid cell is finally starting up Today! WOO!!!!!!!!!!!

update from last night 3 Conversions last night, , Scotty(Jared Friend) come to Christ! Plus all other stuff that happened last night Hallejuah!

Raw is coming up in 4 days! God is going to show up big time and It is going to awesome because our god is an awesome god! People will be changed, captive will be released and his glory will fall.
Received a response to the email that I sent to my mom and this is the first time she was completely honest with me! Woohoo! Jesus is making all things new with my mom and myself relationship. PTL

He is worthy to be praise because what he did for us and because god is a great god!

I receive some freedom from a situation that has been hindering my relationship with god on Tuesday night in the war room!

Bec from Australia is coming soon!


Starting to volunteer at Union Gospel Mission Today. Woohoo, I am excited!

our god is awesome god

Tonight at the crosswalk cell, There was breakthough big time, 2 males name garth and billy committed their lifes to christ, physical healing were taking place in the midst, scotty did a mighty act of faith of cutting his ponytail off and right now he is on the phone with his parents reconciled with them. Hallejuah!

Our God is an awesome God
He reigns from heaven above
With wisdom, power and love
our God is an awesome God
Jesus thanks for you for all the awesome things you did tonight! Sealed it all up please.

Jesus really is the one that lift burdens, the real lifter of my head. i was in this heavy place and one of my friend pray over me and my burden left and i was joyfully again, praise the lord!

my revelation

a few week ago, i had a revealation, How many people down town vancouver died over drug overdoses or committing sucide and that no cares that they are died or live. That no even no one know their name. Are we supposed to be like Jesus? I know that Jesus cares for them and know their name that should be mean that we should know their names too. picture someone coming into our recre8 coffee bar, they are thinking about committing suicide that night because no care that they existed and one person go over and talk to that person could change their opinion to take their life, to breath of life of Jesus into their life, to bring hope. let be like Jesus because you may be the only jesus that person will ever know.
Hope this make sense and leave comments please

listening prayers

i was doing some listening prayer this morning, i usually ask jesus where he is but this time was a bit different, i ask him where he want to go, he said i want to go scuba diving with you. Sweet. So we got some scuba diving gear and a boat and went out to the deep waters of the sea. Jesus was leading me, i had no where we were going, i just trust him and follow him. We got to this perfect spot, put the anchor down and around us was trees and there was an island in the distance. Jesus said, You and I will going in together, he took my hand and we dive off the boat, under the sea was beautiful, fishes swimming by us, killer whales around us and the plants under us, we look down and in the distance we saw a old ship, we look at each other and gave the notch to check it out. we went down to where the ship was located and we just look around, we found a treasure chest, it was locked, we grab a rock and broke the lock, all the treasure you ever thought was in there. we lefted it and went back to the surfuce and got back on the boat, took off all our scuba gear and change into normal clothes. we sat on the desk of the boat and he ask me this question: what lesson did you learn from this experinece? I thought about it and reply with my answer, it is fun to go deeper with you, there is treasure that you plant in our days, we just need to look for it and we will find it. jesus just smiled and gave me a huge bear hug and we just sat in the stillness and watched the sunset.

stuff

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Have you ever had a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Give me a nickname and explain it.
7. Describe me in 1 word.
8. What was your first impression?
9. Do you still think that way about me now?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. When was the last time you saw me?
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
15. Are you going to put this in your xanga and see what I say about you


Comments please :D