The Lord is good and is faithful to his promises :)

chris tomlin god of this city

Verse1You’re the God of this CityYou’re the King of these people
You’re the Lord of this nationYou are
Verse2You’re the Light in this darknessYou’re the Hope to the hopeless
You’re the Peace to the restlessYou areThere is no one like our GodThere is no one like our GodChorusFor greater things have yet to comeAnd greater things are still to be done in this CityGreater thing have yet to comeAnd greater things are still to be done in this CityVerse1Verse2There is no one like our GodThere is no one like our GodChorusFor greater things have yet to comeAnd greater things are still to be done in this CityGreater things have yet to comeAnd greater things are still to be done hereThere is no one like our godThere is no one like our God
ChorusGreater things have yet to come
And greater things are still to be done in this City Greater things have yet to come And greater things are still to be done here

highlights from passsion tour vancouver

Lou shared this story with us: her name is ashley and now she is heaven but here it is, so good
I am a Senior at University of Florida. I got a new roommate this semester and she is a Christian and I have never really been into the whole Christian thing because every pastor or speaker that I have ever listened to didn’t speak in a language I could understand. I have believed in God and Jesus, but never really understood it because the preachers at the church that I have always been forced to go to every Sunday of my life. They speak all high and mighty and I never really felt connected, and I felt like God was only for the perfect people. Well my roommate went to this Passion Conference over winter break. And she came back and moved into my apt and she was real and genuine about all her Christian stuff, like I have never seen before in a person. She said that God changed her at this conference, so i was like what are you talking about. And she told me. She told me about how God was cool, and how God really wanted a deeper relationship with her, and she wanted to really love God the way he loved her, so of course I was like well huh? She then said you need to listen to Louie talk about God, so I asked who Louie was, and she put on the Indescribable talk, and then we watched tha Passport talk. And in the Passport talk you said that christians do not have to hope for the best at the end, that they do not have to do enough good stuff. You explained how to get to heaven in a simple way, in a way that I have never heard before. I actually got it, I got it that it is not about being so good, cause I am not a good person. I have screwed up a lot. But then you said grace, and talked about how is was different than other religions. Because God is a loving and a kind God who wants to forgive me. My roommate then explained that he wants to forgive me.Now for one of the reasons I am thanking you. One, I am now a Christian. And two, my roommate said that she had never really cared about telling others about how much God loved her before she went to this conference. So though I am not sure who will ever read this. Please tell Louie thanks from me, for talking about Christ in a way that a college kid can understand. I know that Jesus has changed my life and as I get ready to graduate college in May, I am gonna be a different person.

update

I go to this small service up on commerical and 1st on saturday night, it is good times and last week we pray that i get a job this week and guess what i did, i am working at safeway on cambie and 12 in the deli, i am still in training but so far so good :) How awesome is that?

how i am feeling these days

I feel adequate where I am in life right now. I should be a licensed ECE teacher by now but I am not and I am not sure why. I feel like this what i was meant to do. I know the lord has give me the tools to do this type of work and when I was working I feel happy and I was walking in my gifts, I am good with kids and I am good what I do but I inherited a problem from my dad when I get frustrated my voice get higher and some people think it is yelling and I am willing to work on that and I am trying to get help in this area. I don’t like how other people think they know what is best for me, should I know what is best for me. Some people think I should be do ministry work, a part of me agreed but I felt when I was working in this environment I was and I really want my confident and my joy back, I don’t understand everything has been so hard for me, I had to work my butt off to become the person I am today, I know life is not easy but is it meant to be this difficult. I had a dream that I would be work with kids in an orphanage in brazil, that why I went into this field in the first place and I want to make an impact on children’s life. I am afraid to open up to people because I feel that they would turned away from me and I will be hurt, no one like being hurt. I need direction, I know the lord is faithful and he will do what he said he would be. I felt like I been patience and not giving up and I will trust in his promises. I been through a lot in the last few couple of weeks and really I just want to happy again and doing something usefully with my time and working somewhere, anywhere because when I am working or volunteer I feel needed and keep me stay positive or I am not doing anything I spend too much time in my head and think too much. i am proud of my acheivements and where i been, i have blessed with many great things and experiences in life but feeling really disencouraged right now and i just need to write out my thoughts.

love letter from our heavenly father

You may not know me, but I know everything about you…I know when you sit down and when you rise up… I am familiar with all your ways … Even the very hairs on your head are numbered…For you were made in my image… In me you live and move and have your being… For youare my offspring… I knew you even before you were conceived... I chose you when I planned creation…You were not a mistake… For all your days are written in my book… I determined the exact time of your birth and where you would live… You are fearfully and wonderfully made…I knit you together in your mother's womb… And brought you forth on the day you were born … I have been misrepresented by those who don't know me… I am not distant and angry, but am the complete expression of love… And it is my desire to lavish my love on you...Simply because you are my child and I am your Father…I offer you more than your earthly father ever could…For I am the perfect Father… Every good gift that youreceive comes from my hand... For I am your provider and I meet all your needs… My plan for your future has always been filled with hope… Because I love you with an everlastinglove… My thoughts toward you are countless as the sand on the seashore… And I rejoice over you with singing… I will never stop doing good to you… For you are my treasured possession… I desire to establish you with all my heart and all my soul… And I want to show you great and marvelous things…If you seek me with all your heart, you will find me… Delight in me and I will give you the desires of your heart … For it is I who gave you those desires… I am able to do more for you than you could possibly imagine… For I am your greatest encourager.…I am also the Father who comforts you in all your troubles… When you are brokenhearted, I am close to you… As a shepherd carries a lamb, I have carried you close to my heart… One day I will wipe away every tear from your eyes… And I'll take away all the pain you have suffered on this earth… I am your Father and I love you even as I love my son, Jesus… For in Jesus my love for you is revealed … He is the exact representation of my being… And He came to demonstrate that I am for you, not against you.… And to tell you that I am not counting your sins… Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled… His death was the ultimate expression of my love for you… I gave up everything I loved that I might gain your love…If you receive the gift of my son Jesus, you receive me… And nothing will ever separate you from my love again…Come home and I'll throw the biggest party heaven has ever seen… I have always been Father and will always be Father… My question is...Will you be my child?… I am waiting for you

my canada day

On Canada day i went to GM Place for a christian event called Voice Together, where 3000 christians in one place praising the lord through dance, worship, testimony of recovered drug addicts and a korean choir and choir that is full of recovered drug addicts, preaching and native dancing and prayer. it was really cool and it fulfill a dream i had about 3 years ago when i saw GM Place full of christian lifting the lord's name up high. Then we on the streets and lit sparklers and worship was playing and we were dancing and singing the streets. it was a lovely canada day.

update

I am living in the apartments still, it is good most of the time. i am working at a daycare in port coquitlam five days a week, only 5 hours a day which is sore of crappy because when my boss hired me she said i would be working from 9-4 and now i work 9-2. hopefully my hours will increase soon. it is going good, not minding the communte. i am going through the gospel of john and i try and do my devotions on the bus and it is been good. i am going to tulsa okc in a few weeks for linsey wedding. i am excited :) it is going to be great. that is pretty much it.

fullness, soltiude time

Saturday April 26/2008

On solitude

First I walk into the forest where I saw Jessica and walk on a log and through the dry grass. Just giving thanks and asking for direction and I went back to the church where I was reminded of one of my favorite verse Isaiah 41:9-10. The lord led me to this random path up the road from caribou. the so I decide to go down, as I walk I thought the journey with the lord is sometime is uncertain and just need to trust that he will lead you and not let you be lost. He told me to stop at this grass spot so I did and just going through the psalms and listens to the song obsession by delirious which the chorus sings and my heart burns for youand my heart burns
And my heart burns for you and I came across a verse that really was fitting to the song I was listening to. It was psalm 13:5-6 which said: I trust your love,
And I feel like celebrating
Because you rescued me.
6You have been good to me, LORD,
and I will sing about you. He was reminding me of his goodness, that he has given me provision before and he will do it again and he already start to do that and be thankful in that and be humble in that as well. He was reminding me of relationships I have people and how he brings his goodness through them. Kristin how he brought her in my life and how sweet are our relationship is. The whites and the Evans and Jenea and Donny and Stephanie and Kirsten, the lord just want me to pray and thank him for these relationships by name and he also asked me to pray for more faith, I also listened to the song Faith by Jason Upton. Then I went back to the church and sat on the hill and try to sleep but I could not but I pray for my lips, that the words of my mouth and the mediation of my heart would bring honor to his name, my heart would trust and believe in the promises of the lord, my mind would be fill with the peace of the lord in stressful situation and for my ears that I would hear his voice more clearly. it was a great and refreshing time and i need it :)

new poem

when i need encouragment, you are there
when i need peace, you are there
when i need joy, you are there
when i am lonely, you are there
you are always there, not leaving my side
walking hand and hand
through this journey we called life

poetry

i want to give you fullness
i want to give you joy
i want to give you peace
i want to give fruit that will last

all you need to do is to believe and it will come

take it and run with me, run toward me, the author & perfector of your faith
every good gift come from above

this is my desire for you
i have gave you the keys, all you need is to click the key to unlock the door and all of the treasure of heaven will fall on you.

Delight yourself

Delight yourself
Delight yourself
Delight yourself
in the lord

and he will give you the desire of your heart
align your heart to mine and i will give you the desires of your heart

I have good things for you
Every good gift come from you above.

This morning, Doug Burr was talking about healing old memories and one came to mind and since i have done my life has been different which is great and here it again:
So this morning during my quiet time with Jesus, I was reading my bible and praying for people but I couldn't concrente on praying so I ask Jesus why? Because you and me have to deal with something, a negative memory of your childhood, I was like that make sense why I couldn't concentrate on praying. I ask what the memory was, it was the memory of my elemaranty school days when I always walk alone at recress and lunch and alway seeing people having fun with their friends and me playing on the tire swing by myself. i was like we starting to deal with my issue of rejection, jesus was yep we sure are. i ask where we going to do this, are we going to our meeting place. No was the response of jesus, we are going where it is all tooked place,the school ground of my elemany school. so i ask jesus how we were going to do this, he was like you are going to go through the memory but this time asking where i was in this situation and of course i was ok. so it starting me walking around the school yard,ask where jesus was and of course he was right beside me linking with my arm as we are skipping around the school yard. Jesus was a young child. so i went to the swings, i sat on the swings and i ask jesus where he was, he was the one that was pushing me on the swings. he pushed me in the back of me. he gave me a underduck and just walking in front of me and push on my feet as i swang back and forth, i got off the swing and went to the tire swing,ask where he was and he was the one that was pushing me and then he jump on the tire swing with me and we both could feel the wind in our hair and the sunshine bleaming down our faces. Then we went to the playground, we played tag and he was trying to chase me, i was too fast for him, he came back behind me and gave me this huge bear hug and i turned around to embace him, me and him just stood there for a while just embacing each other and just continually to play tag with smiles on our faces and this childlike joy came over both of us. It was sweet. the last thing he said was if you are feeling rejected by man, you are alway accepted by me and i am your friend and i want to spend time with you so come and chill out with me. i was like ok.

The cross archive

Lately the pictures that the lord is showing me is all about the cross. The fuel of our being is from the power of the cross. I am the person i am today because of the cross. so much grace, forgiveness,mercy, passion and the greatest of this is true love. No greater love is this is that would lay down his life for a friend. what a mighty friend we have in Jesus. I just being thinking why is that we just remember about the cross just at easter, should we being remember it always. he died for us so we could live, hallejuah! He is called us to die to our flesh and pick up our crosses and follow him with the life he is the only one that give us life so we could give it back to him for his purpose and his glory. He has started a good work in all of us, He wants fullness for his people. i remember in my high school yearbook one of my goal in life is to live life to the fullest and quoting mattrew champ, life is too short to be miserable. He did not just died for you and me, he died for the pimp, johns, the doctors that do abortions, gays and prostitutes. Hallejuah.
Lord i am sorry for complaining about my life this days, You have provide me with learning opportunies, if though it been hard sometimes, the perservence and endurance is building character and nothing to compare to the perservence and endurance you need to endure on the journey of the cross for me and the rest of the human race, thanks you for the cross and how
much power is the sacrifice you did for us.

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

How great is our god, i love this song.
HOW GREAT THOU ART O Lord my God, When I in awesome wonder,Consider all the worlds Thy Hands have made;I see the stars, I hear the rolling thunder,Thy power throughout the universe displayed.Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,How great Thou art, How great Thou art.Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,How great Thou art, How great Thou art!When through the woods, and forest glades I wander,And hear the birds sing sweetly in the trees.When I look down, from lofty mountain grandeurAnd see the brook, and feel the gentle breeze.Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,How great Thou art, How great Thou art.Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,How great Thou art, How great Thou art!And when I think, that God, His Son not sparing;Sent Him to die, I scarce can take it in;That on the Cross, my burden gladly bearing,He bled and died to take away my sin.Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,How great Thou art, How great Thou art.Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,How great Thou art, How great Thou art!When Christ shall come, with shout of acclamation,And take me home, what joy shall fill my heart.Then I shall bow, in humble adoration,And then proclaim: "My God, how great Thou art!"Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,How great Thou art, How great Thou art.Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,How great Thou art, How great Thou art!
Wednesday, February 22, 2006

story
Sapphire was walking through this setting, this setting was not new to her, it reminded her of this friend of her, He walked the same path 2000 year ago. Step by step Sapphire could feel and heard the voices on the edges of the path that was mocking and cursing this man. This man was filled with compassionate, love and mercy. As Sapphire walk along this path the same feelings came over her. She walk up this huge hill, there stood three crosses standing tall and there she had a flashback of what happened to this man 200o year ago and now she is walking the same path as he did. He was beaten, tornoted,nail to the cross. Tear streamed down her face and bow in amazement of this man sacrifice, he died for me. He died to be my freedom, He died to be my daddy, he died for joy, he died for my future, he died for my hope, He died for my family, he died for the redempation of all mankind. As Sapphire bowed in amazement of this man's love and grace, she thinks to herself, i am not worthy of all this love, i have done not good thing, that man walked behind her and bow right next to her and whisper in her ear, i have made you worthy of this grace and love through the power of my name, you are my daughter and you are accepted and adopted into my huge family. Who is this man? His name is Jesus Christ.
Posted by Rebekah Barnum
Friday, August 05, 2005

psalm 67:2-4
2 that your ways may be known on earth, your salvation among all nations. 3 May the peoples praise you, O God; may all the peoples praise you. 4 May the nations be glad and sing for joy, for you rule the peoples justly and guide the nations of the earth.Jesus already resigns in the world because he finished that when he died on the cross and rose from the death but he doesn't rule over of the world. We are the ones that has the authority and power that he has give us to rule over all the nations so why are we not tapping into his authority and power. i also hope this all making some sense
Posted by Rebekah Barnum
Friday, January 07, 2005

there is so much power in the blood of jesus
we as christians usually forget how much power in the blood of jesus. there is so much power in the cross and what jesus did on the cross for us. He took ALL of our sorrows and pain so we wouldn't have to. hallejauh! let us not forget how powerful the name of jesus and what he did for us. he is can tranformed anyone just like that cause of the cross. Worthy is the Lamb, who was slain, to receive power and wealth and wisdom and strength and honor and glory and praise!” revelation 5:12. we are worthy cause he made us worthy. how awesome is that?


Jesus thanks you for the cross and the life that come from it. thanks you for die for me when i was still in sin.

The Good Samarian

On wedensday, i went down to the crosswalk to do my laundry and i walked all the way down there where i found i left my keys at home, then a guy that look really out of place, he ask me what is this place and i told him that it was shelter and we run a coffee place in the back 4 nights a week. We introducing ours self and his name is jame king, he walk with me to the haven and he received some information from the shelter worker at the haven, then we walk to my house and got my keys and walk back to the crosswalk to put my laundry in, where we met Aaron white on the street and he suggested belkin so i walk with him because he would of totally got lost and at first belkin only could put him on the waitlist and i said i know stephen bell and belkin said to Jame to come back at 9 because i known steve bell, that was pretty cool. he wants to take me out for coffee to thanks me for being there and helping out and making sure an effort to get him a place.

revealation

I go to league of mercy and Street combat on tuesday & sundays but lately it been hard to be faithful. I feel my relationship with jesus is not as connected as i use to be but i still hear him clearly and i felt that i have nothing to offered to the people on the streets and the people that i meet in the hotels but this thursday during knee drill(our worship/prayer meeting, the lord spoke me and this what he said:
Rebekah, You do have things to offered, Ears to hear their story, a shoulder to cry on, a mouth to speak truth about the love of christ, you can give them a sense of hope and that they know that someone is praying for them and finding comfort in that. Be faithful in the little things is hard but in this times you find the most fruit. I need to spend time with jesus to get filled out so i go out in the strength of the lord and give people of the downtown eastside a friend that cares and love them uncontinually and want their hope and dreams to come a reality.

new poem

You are God, I am not in control of this life
You are the only one that can make this life satisfy
You are full of Life & peace
you are all together lovely and worthy of all our praise

update

volunteering with UBC childcare until i had completed my 500 hours and then i will go on their substitute teacher list in about a month or two. praise the lord for an answering prayer.

update

Jobless once again :( It happened last thursday. If i could turn back time i would go back and change how the reaction in stressful situation but i can't. I know i am good ece teacher and i made a mistake I loved the job so much and i am sad that i never got say goodbye to the kids i look after. I hope i learned from this experience and change the things i need to change to be a more patience and need a better tone. i know i am not perfect at this job, that is part is my weakness but i willing to make my weakness into a strength. I really don't this process finding another place of employment to be a long one and draw out. i want it to quick. i want peace so i can sleep better. The lord give and take away but my heart would choose to bless his name.