wow i have not blogged for a long time, sorry

He will always guide you, His hand will always lead you to where you supposed to be, He is trustworthy. I had this picture of jesus with his arm wide open and he just waiting for me and for you to fall into his arms. Have you ever done a trust fall with people, while that what jesus wants to do with us.

Life is good,
Classes are done! Woo hoo! I am on my 5 weeks practium, my sponsor teacher ask me if i want a part time job after the third day and i may take it, we will see happens after 5 weeks. I applied for another job that is closer to my house and the lady just got my resume on thursday night so still waiting for her to responsed to me. I am growing in the lord which is always exciting. I am the new powerpoint girl at knee drill which has been great. I am resting his promise, Delight yourself in the lord and he will give you the desire of your heart.

memories

Leave one memory that you have of you and me. It doesn't matter if you knew me well or a lot, just put anything you remember

kayaking was awesome!

I been kayaking once before but it was a lot time ago! I had so much fun kayaking!. it was the best night, not too cold, or hot. i have some trouble with stirring but it is normal for beginner and one of the instructor said i did well for a beginner. we saw an eagle and seals and the walk was a nice length in the nature and the woods. being in creation is awesome. How great is our god!

nothing

I becoming me again and it is good after two month of up and downs
I am going kayaking with my class on wedensday, i am excited about it :)
Jeni is back :) it is good to have her back
we get a 5 day weekend for canada long weekend which is sweet!
hmm Jesus is good and forever faithful, forever he is strong and with us.

good times with JC

Saturday i have a war room in the new room, it was awesome! A good time interceding for human trafficing, personal reflection and journel and god give me a lot of sweet promises from his word. From the beginning of the shift to the end, he spoke the words I am the Reedemer of all things. it was really encouraging to me.

Last wedensday, Ian and I were talking and he gave me some wisdom about stomp the thoughts that were not on heavenly things like feild mice. He pray and i repent & pray and overall just a rich time with the lord. I repent for being selifish with my time and not use the time i do have with the lord. I been taking my bible on the bus and asking for a word or something that i can hold on to for that day. it been great and a rich time and of course praying for the day.

marshmellow fight things that make you go hmm

Found out tonight at the warrier A sleepover at xculture a marshmellow fight is
really fun,
when about 6 or 7 kids tag on you and throw one at your head, it hurts
and sliding kids on the floor in a big blanket is quite fun

Noah is so cute and precious like all the other 614 children which i have not spend a lot of time with them for a while now which i found out tonight i have miss spend time with them.

good times good times

i do much better :)

Hmm i stay at my sister during the week for a few days and i have dinner with my friend kath which was lovely and i start to journel again and it is helping. graduation is next weekend :) woohoo :)

Just me

Well On Thursday My Instructor And I sat and talk about how was doing? In the last month and half she has seen me gone downhill, showing signs of depression and not being myself, believe everything is ok when it is not. She concened. To be completely honest, i would have to agree with her. I haven't been myself. I been trying to not think about what happened and move forward but it is still in back of my mind and my focus is not on the children while i am on practise, it elsewhere and it looks like i am not fully there. But i will said this, Jesus is giving me strength and without him this whole thing would of be a lot worse. My time this days has been focus on school and i don't want to say i don;t have time for jesus but honesty i have not done my rations for a least 3 weeks or done a full war room shift for almost 4 weeks. so that where i am. She is worried that i am going to fail and I don't want to do that because i work my butt off in last 8 months

8 weeks and i will be done school :) it been a good time in school but i am at the point when i just want to be finished and start working in the feild.
1 more week of afternoon classes.
physicially & spirtually i am doing good but emotionally i have good days and days are bad. Missing shane a lot this days in my life but just waiting on the lord on that. Just want to say Shane You are great guy and i am hoping and praying for the lord's best for you.
got to hang out with crystal myers and andy and Rebecca at xculture last night, it was good times.

cool song

Hear Us From Heaven - Jared Anderson

Verse:
Lord, hear our cry
Come heal our land
Breath life into these dry and thirsty souls
Lord, hear our prayer Forgive our sin
And as we call on Your name Would You
make this a place For Your glory to dwell
Chorus: Open the blind eyes Unlock the deaf ears
Come to Your people As we draw near Hear us from heaven
Touch our generation
We are Your people Crying out in desperation
Lord hear our song Your children worship As we sing out Your praise
Would You make this a place for Your glory to dwell
Bridge: Hear Us From Heaven, Hear Us From Heaven, Hear Us From Heaven (4x)

cool illustration

In a kindgarten class a teacher brought in a picture of a family and one of the boy in the picture had different colour of hair and skin and one boy said is that boy adopted? this girl said he probably is, i know about adoption because i am adopted. a person in the class asked what is adoption? The girl that was adopted said" I grew in my mommy's heart instead of my mommy's tummy.

Lyrics Don't worry child(no idea who wrote but would like to know :)

Don't worry child

To live is christ to die is gain
You believe this but you can't ignore your pain
It's hard enough to move it through another day
now you need someone to hear you when you pray

Chorus:
Don't worry child, i am right here by your side
I been here all along in me, won't you abide
Is your grief too much to bare, give it to me
I can heal your heart, your soul i can set you free

When you wake up each day my promises are new
Have faith in me and i will get you through
Is your burden heavy here take mine it light
my yolk is easy, come and have this life

Chorus

You've fought until you nothing left to give
Every ounce of every energy you have spent
though your heart it break inside
more than anything in life
I long for you to know

Chorus

I know this pain this has caused
Gave my son upon the cross
But know nothing has been lost
Believe in me (2x)

praise the lord!

The lord is with us where ever we go.
He go before us and prepare the way
He loves us where we are, that he is not finished what we are and hope what we can become.
he calm the storms in our lifes
he is the god of justice
he is the judge and he is the judge the wicked
he is god of grace. praise the lord for grace
he is a god of second chances, if we run from him, he is there with arm wide open waiting for us to run back to him. hallejuah!
more of him and less of me
he must increase, i must decrease

just me

Things are pretty good in my life this days, I am now taking 8 hrs of class to catch up for the lost time i missed in the first month so it is a bit overwhelmed but it will be worth it in the end, i will be finished soon. Practium is coming up soon, i am excited and nervous at the same time, God has been speaking to me about grace and just showing what my priveledge at the moment should be. School now, relationships later. i been reading the word more and i am spend more time with my 614 family and i know that i always have someone to talk to or if i need any prayer people are there for me. it is great. That i am great person and unquire . I am fearfully and wonderfully made and i know that the lord works in me are beautiful The lord is reshowing me who i am in him, a strong women of god that obey the following of the holy spirit.

colossian 3:1-4

Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God. 2Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. 3For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God. 4When Christ, who is your[a] life, appears, then you also will appear with him in glory.

Lord help me to focus on things that are eternal and what is good and pure and noble in my life and not the not so good things that are happening in my life right now. lord lift the veil of my eyes to see the good in my life. Help my eyes to fix my eyes on you jesus. You are right beside me and i know, i thanks for you that you are standing right next me and you are walking through this with me, i am not alone in this. hallejuah! Lord you are the lifter of my head and my glory.

Isaiah 41:9-11
I took you from the ends of the earth, from its farthest corners I called you. I said, 'You are my servant'; I have chosen you and have not rejected you. So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. (Love this verse, the lord has been giving this verse to me and for other people in the last few months.)

Shane & I broke up

The rumours are true, Shane & I broke up. I am doing ok, I still love him and care for him but last night i came to the conclusion that i have a great life, amazing church family and family and school and i need a guy that respect who i am and willing to wait for me no matter what the circumances are and yes i agree i need to think really things through before making a decision but i am not perfect, i am understanding person, i accept him for who he was, why can't he do the same for me. I don't need more drama in my life, have enough of that thr0ugh my childhood. Thanks for all those are praying for me, i appericate it a lot :)

my easter weekend

i went back to gibsons for 5 days thursday to sunday. friday i went to the good friday service which was good. saw some familar faces including my youth pastors which it was great to see them both. saturday i slept in late and walk my dog and just chill out, i got a phone call from a old friend, marria, she was one of my youth leader and it been almost 2 years since we last saw each other so it was so cool to see her and came up. we went for a walk along bonniebrook and then went for gelato ice cream which was great. it was so good to see her and to catch up. sunday had dinner with family and watch shaune of the dead and then i went to xculture to hang out with shane and other cool people that live out there. watch a movie and just relax and then me and shane walk home back downtown. today, i slept in late, had breakfest with shane and went out to starbuck and we went window shopping for computer games. it been a good break.

update

went to the doctor today, There were not migerines or anything serious like tumours or anything like that. It was muscle and joint tenision in the neck and shoulders and the pain just go up into the head, just have to add heat to my shoulder and neck and if that is not worked then i will have to go do massage therphy and i found that one of my cousin does that for a living and my mom is going to try and get me a discount which would be sweetness.

please pray for me

Hmm i been getting a migranine headache as least one a week for the last 3 weeks, I have no idea why. i went to a doctor yesterday and he did some tests regarding a tumour, which i don't have which is good. he also prescriped me with some pills. I am going to get a second opinion on thursday when i go to my family doctor that i know and trust. Please pray for me. I already miss one day of school last week and this week, i can't afford to miss any more school because of this and i don't want to miss school because i enjoyed it a lot.
In other news, i am well.

there is still hope in the DTES

Matt, becky and myself were on street combat tonight, first if you ask him to break your heart, he does and he definality did tonight. We met this women who was in her 50. She just start to talk to us and we stopped, she just open up on how she was down here for a long time and she had a revelation in the mirrior on saturday, that she has so much to live for, she want to change and she want freedom from addiction. She lost her finger from a fresh eating infection and teeth from drugs. She want to go to treatment. She want to be free. She want to love herself first and then help other people to do the same. Hallejuah. We told her about homestead and her face just lit up and we are going to give her the information about homestead in the next few days. We all pray over and just spoke truth in her life. Her name is paula. We all gave her a hug and we left being encouraged and blessed from the women that has so much hope and desire a change and know that jesus can tranformed her life. Hallejuah!