Footprints in the sand

One night I dreamed I was walking along the beach with the Lord.
Many scenes from my life flashed across the sky.
In each scene I noticed footprints in the sand.
Sometimes there were two sets of footprints,
other times there was one only.
This bothered me because I noticed that during the low periods of my life,
when I was suffering from anguish,
sorrow or defeat,
I could see only one set of footprints,
so I said to the Lord,
"You promised me Lord,
that if I followed you,
you would walk with me always.
But I have noticed that during the most trying periods of my life
there has only been one set of footprints in the sand.
Why, when I needed you most, have you not been there for me?"
The Lord replied,
"The years when you have seen only one set of footprints,
my child, is when I carried you."


I spent the morning at english bay in a time of soltuide, it was good! i need to have one morning a week just me and Jesus.i heard to take off my shoes and walk through the sand without any shoes, at first i wasn't sure cause it was cold out side and the sand was wet but i did anyway and it was really cool. i ask jesus what it meant and all he said read this poem and it will all make senses so i did and it does. Thanks you Jesus. Throw a bunch of rocks in the sea of unforgetness that was hindering me to embrace the things god has for me. I am in a better place now, PTL. Thanks you all for the prayers and encouragement. Love ya.

Every good and perfect gift came from above. I am blessed!

no go on Job at the movie threatre

I got an email from the movie threatre last night saying the postition was already be filled. Start from the very beginning, it is a good place to start. Starting the whole process again, woohoo! Productive and stay postitive are keys of my success which is extremely hard to do when i see no hope.

I Never cry so much in the war room last night for a long time. It was a good cry yet i am still feeling pain and hurt this morning. Why Jesus haven't you took this pain away? I don't need it, I don't want it! I only need you! I only want you! I am not looking for pity. I am looking for answers. Jesus You are my deliver, Deliver me please! You don't defile my character. YOu know me more than i know about myself and You love me where i am, where you are taking me. Help me to fix my eyes on you more and more. Stir up a passion for your name more and more each day. Why doesn't the enemy twisted the truth and pin one of other against other. I hate It! Anyway that a peice of my heart for you all.
Blessing and grace

interview

I had an interview today. woohoo! It was at the tinseltown cinema at 4:30
I was asked a lot of questions. the assistent manager asked me if i had any questions for her. so i ask her how i did in the interview? She said Good question and she look over the sheet of paper and look at me and said you answer the questions really well and overall of all It was really well! I heard it this and i was quite excited! she is letting me know this week no matter what. I am really really hope i get this job. I look really good as well which was great. I am beautiful of course i would look good:D. i am not going to put all my eggs in one baskets and i do really praying in this one because it would a lot of fun and really enjoyable.

Random qoute

'PRAYER DOESN'T MAKE A DIFFERENCE, PRAYER IS THE DIFFERENCE"

what i read in the newspaper this morning

Vancouver should explore a harm-reduction plan that could see red wine given to hard-core street alcoholics, says the city's drug policy coordinator.

Such a program would target homeless alcoholics who may now be drinking extremely harmful substances such as after-shave or Lysol to feed their addictions.

"It's stabilizing the drug use," drug policy coordinator Donald MacPherson said. The benefits of the program would be a reduction in emergency room attendance and less contact with police.

But he adds, "How big the need is in Vancouver still needs to be determined."

Anne Livingstone of the Vancouver Area Network of Drug Users says an alcohol-replacement program is logical.

"It brings dignity to people who aren't going to stop drinking," Livingstone said.

The program would be similar, in theory, to heroin-assisted treatment programs, such as the controversial NAOMI heroin program that's now taking place on a small scale in Vancouver. MacPherson also says that program should be expanded.

He has been integral to the city's implementation of the Four Pillars drug policy, which has received much attention for harm-reduction measures such as the supervised heroin-injection site.

Now he's asking council to permanently approve funding for the city's drug policy program.

MacPherson acknowledges there have been critics, who say not enough attention has been paid to the components other than harm reduction.

"I'd have to agree if they're talking about prevention," MacPherson said. "It's probably not had the same amount of focus that enforcement and harm reduction have had."

Seriously why? first the free needles, then the free hereion and now alcohol, come on use your heads people. this things make me so angry. what can i do? write letters to the government and pray i guess. What is your opinion about this?

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It is my 186 post Today!
Thoughts that are going on my head right now: my faith is fake and not real. I am only going through the emotions.
will i ever have a steady job beside working as a dishwasher in a resturant?
I think i may have the Job annointing on my life, Everything is extreme hard for me to do but i push through to get through it.
I said i love jesus but am i really obey his commands?
Do i have an learning disability or has that be a curse over all my life.

Anyway there was a quite a lot of breakthough at Raw this past 4 days. Good times, Good Times.

Raw

Wow the biggest blessing of this conference, this kids and their passion for mission, teens coming out on their spring break, to come to worship the living god and to serve among the poor and the needy. Hallejuah! Lord please restore the same passion that this kids bring to the streets if though they are here for a short awhile yet they have more compassionate and passion on those that live among the poor and do this daily. More passion more love more of you Lord
The song that has been in my head since the beginning of this conference is Consuming fire by Tim Hughes:

There must be more than this
oh breath of God come breath within
There must be more than this
Spirit of God we wait for you
Fill us anew we pray
Fill us anew we pray

Chorus:
Consuming Fire
Fan into flame
a passion for your name
Spirit of God
fall in this place
Lord have your way
Lord have your way
with us

Verse 2:
Come like a rushing wind
Fill us with power from on high
Now set the captives free
leave us abandoned to your praise
Lord let your glory fall
Lord let your glory fall

Raw

RAW STARTS TONIGHT
DOORS OPEN AT 5:30
XCulture (corner of templation and pender)
it is going be good. Come out and have a great time worshipping and doing mission on the streets of vancouver.

mattrew 18:21-23

Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, "Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother when he sins against me? Up to seven times?"
Jesus answered, "I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times.[f]
"Therefore, the kingdom of heaven is like a king who wanted to settle accounts with his servants.

wow, what a great verse yet a hard verse. Why is no grace between me and an another brother. Why is there all this drama? I repent for something that i did and turn away and told this person about my realization how i hurt this person and i apolized for it, yet no forgiveness. Why is it so hard to forgive among the church? f you got some answers,feel free to left comments?

verse of the day

But in your hearts set apart Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect, ”- 1 Peter 3:15

Good verse,

I use to be involved in scout canada and the motto in scott canada is to be prepared. Well in this verse we need to be prepared to be ready to share the good news with anyone. So be ready. Love never Fails.

Jesus i pray that you would be the first in my life and everyone else's life. May we all be prepared to share about your goodness in this dark dark world. May we speak in love and respect for others. may our words reflect the beauty of you and line up with action.

Be Blessed.

posse out,
RB

just a thought

An Email or a blog set up for a support cell among the parents that sent their kids to the war college. Just a thought. Your Thoughts?

Ashely

what can i say about ashley philip? A lot! Things i appericate about her:
Her Gentle spirit
Her Hugs
How we can have fun doing whatever
A good listener
Her support in the hard times
Her beauty
Kind,caring and just fun
Ashley You are awesome and i love you so much,more than any words could expresses. Happy Birthday sis :D

Praise Report

Phil, Ashley and myself kid cell is finally starting up Today! WOO!!!!!!!!!!!

update from last night 3 Conversions last night, , Scotty(Jared Friend) come to Christ! Plus all other stuff that happened last night Hallejuah!

Raw is coming up in 4 days! God is going to show up big time and It is going to awesome because our god is an awesome god! People will be changed, captive will be released and his glory will fall.
Received a response to the email that I sent to my mom and this is the first time she was completely honest with me! Woohoo! Jesus is making all things new with my mom and myself relationship. PTL

He is worthy to be praise because what he did for us and because god is a great god!

I receive some freedom from a situation that has been hindering my relationship with god on Tuesday night in the war room!

Bec from Australia is coming soon!


Starting to volunteer at Union Gospel Mission Today. Woohoo, I am excited!

our god is awesome god

Tonight at the crosswalk cell, There was breakthough big time, 2 males name garth and billy committed their lifes to christ, physical healing were taking place in the midst, scotty did a mighty act of faith of cutting his ponytail off and right now he is on the phone with his parents reconciled with them. Hallejuah!

Our God is an awesome God
He reigns from heaven above
With wisdom, power and love
our God is an awesome God
Jesus thanks for you for all the awesome things you did tonight! Sealed it all up please.

Jesus really is the one that lift burdens, the real lifter of my head. i was in this heavy place and one of my friend pray over me and my burden left and i was joyfully again, praise the lord!

my revelation

a few week ago, i had a revealation, How many people down town vancouver died over drug overdoses or committing sucide and that no cares that they are died or live. That no even no one know their name. Are we supposed to be like Jesus? I know that Jesus cares for them and know their name that should be mean that we should know their names too. picture someone coming into our recre8 coffee bar, they are thinking about committing suicide that night because no care that they existed and one person go over and talk to that person could change their opinion to take their life, to breath of life of Jesus into their life, to bring hope. let be like Jesus because you may be the only jesus that person will ever know.
Hope this make sense and leave comments please

listening prayers

i was doing some listening prayer this morning, i usually ask jesus where he is but this time was a bit different, i ask him where he want to go, he said i want to go scuba diving with you. Sweet. So we got some scuba diving gear and a boat and went out to the deep waters of the sea. Jesus was leading me, i had no where we were going, i just trust him and follow him. We got to this perfect spot, put the anchor down and around us was trees and there was an island in the distance. Jesus said, You and I will going in together, he took my hand and we dive off the boat, under the sea was beautiful, fishes swimming by us, killer whales around us and the plants under us, we look down and in the distance we saw a old ship, we look at each other and gave the notch to check it out. we went down to where the ship was located and we just look around, we found a treasure chest, it was locked, we grab a rock and broke the lock, all the treasure you ever thought was in there. we lefted it and went back to the surfuce and got back on the boat, took off all our scuba gear and change into normal clothes. we sat on the desk of the boat and he ask me this question: what lesson did you learn from this experinece? I thought about it and reply with my answer, it is fun to go deeper with you, there is treasure that you plant in our days, we just need to look for it and we will find it. jesus just smiled and gave me a huge bear hug and we just sat in the stillness and watched the sunset.

stuff

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Have you ever had a crush on me?
5. Would you kiss me?
6. Give me a nickname and explain it.
7. Describe me in 1 word.
8. What was your first impression?
9. Do you still think that way about me now?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. When was the last time you saw me?
14. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
15. Are you going to put this in your xanga and see what I say about you


Comments please :D

what age do you act?

***You Are 18 Years Old***


Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.


What Age Do You Act?
http://www.blogthings.com/whatagequiz/

war room last night

last night in the war room i had a hard word from the lord, it was out of ezekial 36:25-26 which says:I will sprinkle clean water on you, and you will be clean; I will cleanse you from all your impurities and from all your idols. 26 I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit in you; I will remove from you your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh. Lately my heart has become hardened for the things i see down here. i walk by people twigging out on the streets or putting needle in their arms and i feel nothing. I have become judgemental,bitter and angry. Jesus please break my heart. Remove my heart of stone and make it a heart of flesh please. Thanks you for your grace and love. pray for me thanks :D

verse of the day

“ Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth. ”- 1 John 3:18

Think of something to show someone that you love them today.
Grace and blessings

Cell Tuesday night

In Cell on Tuesday, we did a cell talk on 1 john 4 about loving each other, we were asked to state an example of when we show unconditional love to someone and I remember that the time when I was doing street combat last year and I was walking by with my partner and Adam pointed out a girl that was crying and after he pointing her out, I went and just sat down and let her cry on my shoulder and also cried with her, I pray with her and gave her a hug. I left with a state of that was cool but what did I do different in the girl life but Adam told me after that night Nicole told her boyfriend to screw himself because he was making her selling her body on the corner and she hasn't done it since. It was a huge encouragement and that love really make a different. PTL

story

Sapphire was walking through this setting, this setting was not new to her, it reminded her of this friend of her, He walked the same path 2000 year ago. Step by step Sapphire could feel and heard the voices on the edges of the path that was mocking and cursing this man. This man was filled with compassionate, love and mercy. As Sapphire walk along this path the same feelings came over her. She walk up this huge hill, there stood three crosses standing tall and there she had a flashback of what happened to this man 200o year ago and now she is walking the same path as he did. He was beaten, tornoted,nail to the cross. Tear streamed down her face and bow in amazement of this man sacrifice, he died for me. He died to be my freedom, He died to be my daddy, he died for joy, he died for my future, he died for my hope, He died for my family, he died for the redempation of all mankind. As Sapphire bowed in amazement of this man's love and grace, she thinks to herself, i am not worthy of all this love, i have done not good thing, that man walked behind her and bow right next to her and whisper in her ear, i have made you worthy of this grace and love through the power of my name, you are my daughter and you are accepted and adopted into my huge family. Who is this man? His name is Jesus Christ.

my struggle right now

i have put like 60 resumes or more out in the last 3 weeks and i haven't received any callback or any emails regarding any interested, it is so hard to keep positive and words from my mom doesn't help either, saying you are not self-sufficent, i am feel sorry for you because you have a hard finding a job, i am unemployable. I am frustrated and i know that the enemy wants me to be frustrated and i don't want to be frustrated, i want my eyes on jesus, My provider. All i want is a job so i can do things like pay rent and sponsoring a child and fun things like movies and going out and eating with friends and stopping living off my parents, i hate it and i don't want to do it anymore, why haven't i got a job, is it me, is my attuide not good, do i give off a negative attuide. Why will noone hired me? I have good quailitys and skills. I don't understand it all but it is not my control, it is the hands of the kings of kings and lords of lords. I am believe in his faithfulness and his provision and i know it is coming, fruit of my labour is coming. i can feel it and just mean i need to pray more.

Verse of the day

[Love one another ] This is the message you heard from the beginning: We should love one another. ”- 1 John 3:11
Love unconditionally not just surfaced level love, love like 1 corinathian 13 type of love. It is a command to love one another not just a good idea so as the nike slogan said just do it.

Stay tuned, My sermon on colossian 3:1-4 is coming soon :D

pictures of the storm

My Parents send me some photos of a storm that hit my hometown last weekend, it is all clean up now but it is still crazy, things like these don't happen in small town like Gibsons

My weekend

Friday
Went to the extreme prophetic thing that is starting up every friday night except for this week at 138 E cordova across the street from harbourlight, come out it will be fun and you will be blessed, seeds were planted, healing tooked placed and it was just fun. for the first i got a word of knowledge to go to blood alley so that was sweet, met with clint and he is involved with Jacob well and jubilant rooms which like right beside i am living so that was pretty sweet. told him about recre8 and he was quite intersted and said he was going to but i don;t know he actually did or not.


Saturday
slept in really late
went and play ulimate frisbee golf with my sister and my brother and two of his friends , it was cool and fun and feedback from people who were playing i didn;t do too badly for the first time beside accidently hitting my sister in the head. then my sister went to safeway and got something to cook at my place which was delicious,
my sister and i dealt with some things which were bothering us which was awesome, went to the movie night at melinda's house and watch a bad movie, the sequal of jumbagi but it was still fun. she had a good time and want to go back, the plan she was going to spent the night but she went to a party but i was fine with because she came a long a way, last year she didn;t want to come down here and now she came down and meet some of my friends and she want to come back which is amazing, praise the lord! i got a email from a couple asking if i can come and take care of their child which is an answer of prayer.


Sunday
Got Andrea to cut my hair, it is layered up to my shoulder,it looked cute
went to recre8(our coffee bar) and played apple to apple which was good.


overall of my weekend:8 out of 10

Went to a starfeild concert last night for 5 dollar, It was amazing! good times of praising the lord.

led pray the bible this morning and we pray for nations. it was sweet :D

psalm 9:9
The Lord is a refuge for the oppressed, a stronghold in times of trouble. WOOHOO amazing promise that people can find refuge in a safe place and he is our stronghold in times of trouble.

This morning

So this morning during my quiet time with Jesus, I was reading my bible and praying for people but I couldn't concrente on praying so I ask Jesus why? Because you and me have to deal with something, a negative memory of your childhood, I was like that make sense why I couldn't concentrate on praying. I ask what the memory was, it was the memory of my elemaranty school days when I always walk alone at recress and lunch and alway seeing people having fun with their friends and me playing on the tire swing by myself. i was like we starting to deal with my issue of rejection, jesus was yep we sure are. i ask where we going to do this, are we going to our meeting place. No was the response of jesus, we are going where it is all tooked place,the school ground of my elemany school. so i ask jesus how we were going to do this, he was like you are going to go through the memory but this time asking where i was in this situation and of course i was ok. so it starting me walking around the school yard,ask where jesus was and of course he was right beside me linking with my arm as we are skipping around the school yard. Jesus was a young child. so i went to the swings, i sat on the swings and i ask jesus where he was, he was the one that was pushing me on the swings. he pushed me in the back of me. he gave me a underduck and just walking in front of me and push on my feet as i swang back and forth, i got off the swing and went to the tire swing,ask where he was and he was the one that was pushing me and then he jump on the tire swing with me and we both could feel the wind in our hair and the sunshine bleaming down our faces. Then we went to the playground, we played tag and he was trying to chase me, i was too fast for him, he came back behind me and gave me this huge bear hug and i turned around to embace him, me and him just stood there for a while just embacing each other and just continually to play tag with smiles on our faces and this childlike joy came over both of us. It was sweet. the last thing he said was if you are feeling rejected by man, you are alway accepted by me and i am your friend and i want to spend time with you so come and chill out with me. i was like ok.

my weekend

Friday
went to my sister's place, was going to watch a movie but couldn't installed the dvd drive in her computer, she watched a tv series and i played on her computer. slept over at her place.

Saturday:
slept in, the power went out due the strong winds the night before. talk to my brother that lived in edmonton, he is doing well. went home to my new place, reorganized my room, went to 218 in the shalon hotel and made a card for someone. went to the movie night at melinda and ken house, watched Lord of War, good movie

Sunday
Slept in quite late, called my sister, she didn't pick up, finally got a hold of her and met up with her and my brother, went to my aunt's place for dinner, saw my 2 cousins, 2 aunts and my uncle that i haven't seen for awhile. it was good, went home and chill out in 202 and talk with ashley about her weekend, went home and read my book and went to sleep.

overall of my weekend: 6.5 out of 10

prayer for the saints

Jesus i thanks you for all the good gifts you pour over all your saints across this globe. I thanks you for your angels that concern us and you send them out to protect, guide us on the path that you have set us on. Lord i pray for that you would shower down your blessings of finacial resources over the 614 community as well as other churchs around this globe. Teach us to fight against the enemy schemes, help us to fix our eyes on you more and not focusing on what the enemy is doing in the midst of us. I pray for that we would spurring each other on this fight, that we encourage each other each day, raise more encouragers in the church, Arise our faith where there is unbelief and doubt. Teach us how to love you more and the lost. i pray that you release a cry in our heart for the lost and a refreshing passion to see them turn their eyes upon the kings of kings and lord of lords instead of the worldly things. Help us to be real with each other as one body. Help us to believe that we have gifts that you have given to us and that we would use them for the glory of your name and to edify your body. Open our eyes on what you are doing holy spirit and let us have ear to hear what the spirit is doing in the midst of us. You are good and your love edures forever and may your kingdom come, your will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Praise his holy name. I pray for instantly healing. Raise up more healers in the church please Father. You are amazing and we give you all the glory and honour and praise for you are alone is worthy of our praise. Hallejuah


If you feel lead to add a prayer, go for it, pray continually

GOD OF JUSTICE (WE MUST GO)

God of Justice, Saviour to all
Came to rescue the weak and the poor
Chose to serve and not be served
Jesus, You have called us
Freely we’ve received
Now freely we will give


We must go live to feed the hungry
Stand beside the broken
We must go
Stepping forward keep us from just singing
Move us into action
We must go
To act justly everyday
Loving mercy in everyway
Walking humbly before You God
You have shown us, what You require
Freely we’ve received
Now freely we will give
Fill us up and send us out
Fill us up and send us out
Fill us up and send us out Lord

Since we sang this song at knee drill last thursday, can't seem to get out of my head

Materialism

When is enough exactly enough? As humans on this earth, we want more CD's,DVD's, the latest technology, the newest ipod or the latest car. How can't we be grateful what we have and be content on what we do have and not what we want or don't have. Look at other countries in the world, they have so little yet they are so grateful for the little things like shoes,running water,education and just a place to rest their head at night. Whoever sows sparingly will also reap sparingly, and whoever sows generously will also reap generously. 2 cor9:6. Live a life of simplicity and share the wealth.

knee drill on thursday

Thursday night, i had a picture when we were singing mision fuel by tim hughes, fill us up and send us out is the bridge, i saw all of us marching out to the streets but we were linked by our arms and it look like a joel's army. i looked up joel 2 and i felt i was supposed to shared it but never did but there is grace and i know for next time to share what i am hearing because there is blessing in obedience.

Joel 2:3-11:Before them fire devours,
behind them a flame blazes.
Before them the land is like the garden of Eden,
behind them, a desert waste—
nothing escapes them.

4 They have the appearance of horses;
they gallop along like cavalry.

5 With a noise like that of chariots
they leap over the mountaintops,
like a crackling fire consuming stubble,
like a mighty army drawn up for battle.

6 At the sight of them, nations are in anguish;
every face turns pale.

7 They charge like warriors;
they scale walls like soldiers.
They all march in line,
not swerving from their course.

8 They do not jostle each other;
each marches straight ahead.
They plunge through defenses
without breaking ranks.

9 They rush upon the city;
they run along the wall.
They climb into the houses;
like thieves they enter through the windows.

10 Before them the earth shakes,
the sky trembles,
the sun and moon are darkened,
and the stars no longer shine.

11 The LORD thunders
at the head of his army;
his forces are beyond number,
and mighty are those who obey his command.
The day of the LORD is great;
it is dreadful.
Who can endure it?

Jesus make this body more like the joel's army please and all of the around the planet as well. amen

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Thanks for the prayers. I am still struggling but it is getting better, praise the Lord. The last 2 war room shift i had were great, Jesus has been speaking to me about intimacy with him, He is alone worthy and the scripture "live lives worthy of God, who call you into his kingdom and glory. 1 thes2:12b which is lovely :D

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i tend to be hard on myself and thing about the negative things about my life instead of the postive things. i am choosing to walk in the opposite spirit right now and list the postive things in my life.

My parents giving me the opportunity to come to vancouver and paying for me to go to the war college

Have parents that love me and care what happened to me.

I have friends that love me for me.

Awesome memories with the martyr session

Getting the opporunity to go to europe and see Esther in May for 5 weeks

Be surrounded by a community.

Awesome memories with Heather, Rob and the gillinghams

Jesus loves me

His promises can't be shaken

His word is true and alone he is worthy for my worship

Kids

starting to build deep friendships with the holy session

Jesus is the hope and the real joy gifter

Using my gifts really make me happy and it bring glory to the king of kings


I need prayer right now. I am feeling a bit depressed, confused,angry at myself and other people,feeling like i have wasted the last 3 months as phase 2, like a paper weight in this community , not seeing a lot of growth in me, not seeing myself as a leader and just wanting to leave but knowing that would just be running away and that is not like me and that not what jesus want me to do, strugging with focus,unbelief and just my relationship with jesus in general right now encouragement would be lovely as well. Thanks

this sunday

woke up early and went to both of the services at cariboo hill temple, it was lovely to be back there again, last time i went was last september with jaime, travis, esther and lindsay and xander and regan, there was a pitch for the war college, a few people did some testimonys. " We are the war college", went to lunch at jamie and anne bruand's house with matt, ashley and myself and it was lovely. matt is a lovely guy and i am grateful for his friendship and ashley is just awesome, her gentle and so loving and i love her deeply. It was a good day.

verse of the day

Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. ”- James 1:2-3


Oh man it is so hard to be joyful in all cirstumstances but it is a command, Rejoice in me, i say it again rejoice. is any suggestions to fight discouragement and sadness when we are facing trails? if you do leaving a comment :D

blessings

Verse Of The Day

“ Do everything without complaining or arguing, so that you may become blameless and pure, children of God without fault in a crooked and depraved generation, in which you shine like stars in the universe as you hold out the word of life—in order that I may boast on the day of Christ that I did not run or labor for nothing. ”- Philippians 2:14-16


Jesus make me more like you, help me to do everything without complaining and arguing, that i would do it for you and only you so i can shine my light like a star in this dark dark world.

none

recently i been a desiring to have a deeper relationship and a new inimacy with jesus. please pray for me that i would draw close to him more. thanks.

none

this afternoon, we hold an open air meeting at the pigeon park and it was quite fun, lot of short plays and powerful testimonys and really high energy, there was no fruit but we were a light shining in the darkness and i believe that we show that jesus is a fun guy and it is ok to look silly for him and kirsten ivany did a great job leading us :D bless you kirsten :D

luke 15:11-31

The Parable of the Lost Son
11Jesus continued: "There was a man who had two sons. 12The younger one said to his father, 'Father, give me my share of the estate.' So he divided his property between them.
13"Not long after that, the younger son got together all he had, set off for a distant country and there squandered his wealth in wild living. 14After he had spent everything, there was a severe famine in that whole country, and he began to be in need. 15So he went and hired himself out to a citizen of that country, who sent him to his fields to feed pigs. 16He longed to fill his stomach with the pods that the pigs were eating, but no one gave him anything.

17"When he came to his senses, he said, 'How many of my father's hired men have food to spare, and here I am starving to death! 18I will set out and go back to my father and say to him: Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. 19I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me like one of your hired men.' 20So he got up and went to his father.
"But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.

21"The son said to him, 'Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.[b]'

22"But the father said to his servants, 'Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. 23Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let's have a feast and celebrate. 24For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.' So they began to celebrate.

25"Meanwhile, the older son was in the field. When he came near the house, he heard music and dancing. 26So he called one of the servants and asked him what was going on. 27'Your brother has come,' he replied, 'and your father has killed the fattened calf because he has him back safe and sound.'

28"The older brother became angry and refused to go in. So his father went out and pleaded with him. 29But he answered his father, 'Look! All these years I've been slaving for you and never disobeyed your orders. Yet you never gave me even a young goat so I could celebrate with my friends. 30But when this son of yours who has squandered your property with prostitutes comes home, you kill the fattened calf for him!'

31" 'My son,' the father said, 'you are always with me, and everything I have is yours. 32But we had to celebrate and be glad, because this brother of yours was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.' "


I love this parole, everytime i read this, i get this picture of jesus standing in the middle of interaction of main and hasting just with his arms wide open and waiting there to bring the love and accepted that the people on the street desires the most. it is so awesome

Justice

But let justice roll on like a river,
righteousness like a never-failing stream! Amo 5:24

So god has been stirring up my heart about justice against the childrens of the third world countries. I remember i was in the war room and i was reading Be a hero and i was reading the 7 deadly sin and i just burst into tears and god gave me two things for action which to be a mother to the nations and to sponsor a child which i haven't done yet but i made a deadline for myself by the end of janurary i will. It is so cool.

jame1:17

Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.

went to 7 eleven earlier today to kill some time before lunch and me and ashley saw our friends aaron, darren and jonathan&jedediah. Aaron yelled across to the street to me asking what i was doing right at that sec, i said nothing. He asked me if i want to go to the bronze medal match at the world juniour world champship. I agree of course so i walked with them to GM place. IT was awesome. It was the finland vs the USA, Finland won 4-2, woohoo. It so much fun!

thanks you Jesus for the sweet hookup today and what a blessing it was.

a pure heart

everyone knows you harvest what you sow, you reap what you plant, what we know when we develop land, we tend to forgot when we cultivate our hearts.
think a moment of your heart as a greenhouse, the similaries come quickly to mind,It too a magnificent gift from your father,It too perfectly suited for growth and your heart, like a greenhouse has to be managed. Consider for a moment that your thoughts are like seeds. Some thoughts become flowers, others become like weeds. Sow seeds of hope and enjoy optimism or sow seeds of doubt and expect insecurity.

Scripture verse: Gal 6:8: The one who sows to please his sinful nature, from that nature will reap destruction; the one who sows to please the Spirit, from the Spirit will reap eternal life

verse of the day

For the grace of God that brings salvation has appeared to all men. It teaches us to say "No" to ungodliness and worldly passions, and to live self-controlled, upright and godly lives in this present age, ”- Titus 2:11-12

Say no to the world and said yes to the things that god want to give you.

Happy new years

Jesus i pray a new revelation of your love for the peoples that read my blog, i pray that they would accept the love that you only can give. I pray that jesus would show you something new in him this next year. I pray that for good health and this year would be a year of the favour of the lord on you. i also pray that more lifes would be saved for your glory lord and that we would see things in the physical on what you are doing in the spirtually. Give us the eyes to see and ears to listen what you are saying. thanks you for all the blessings you have giving to me and to 614 and the people that read my blog, jesus i am asking for to see more signs and wonders in 2006 and i want to see more people being saved and sanified and disciplined in 2006 and more authenic& real friendship build here in vancouver. i pray that you would bless each person that read this blog abuntably in this next year and years to come. Amen

focus the unseen and not the things that you can see

Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God. Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. 3For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God. When Christ, who is your life, appears, then you also will appear with him in glory.
Jesus has been speaking to me about focus and fixing my eyes on him lately and he reshow me this verse because i remember last year this verse help me a lot to keep my focus on him.

I got my ears peirced today, it was fun :D

update on my uncle

last year my uncle was having some problems with his liver, it wasn't because he was drinking, he found out he had a disease when he was little that cause him to have issues with his liver and if he did not get a new liver he would of die. so on the 23th about 12 we got a phone call that him and his wife will be going on the first ferry the next morning to vancouver to go to the vancouver general hospital because there is a liver for him. It is a miracle he got a liver, hallejuah. on christmas morning we got a phone call in the middle of the night that he had to go and have surgery again because there was internal bleeding and he couldn't produced urine and got another phone call about nine on christmas morning from our grandmas, saying he was fine and was producing urine now which is a great sign, the liver transplant went well so praise the lord.

A honest heart

God always speaks the truth, when he made a covenent, he keep it, when he made a statement, he meant it, and when he proclaim the truth, we can believe it what he say is true

why does god demand a such a honesty but rather why do we tolerate dishonesty?
1)we don't like the truth
2) we don't trust the truth

The cure for deceit: tell the truth,the the whole truth and nothing but the truth.
Are we completely honest with all our relationships? are we being completely honesty in our crops? ask these question to yourself: Am i am trustworthy person, a reliable witness at the place where god put you for a reason.

The ripple of today's lies is tommorrow's waves and next year flood,start today,Be just like Jesus and tell the truth,the whole truth and nothing but the truth.

Just like Jesus book continued :D

Jesus had a focused heart and he wants us to have the same heart, How is focus is your life? Ask yourself these four questions to see if your life is on track with god's plan:
Am I fitting into god's plan?
What are my longing?
What are my abilities?
Am i serving God now?

God allow us to have a fresh start at any point of our lifes. In 1 peter 4:2 it said:
As a result, he does not live the rest of his earthly life for evil human desires, but rather for the will of God. It never too late to get your life on track and be a part of god's wonderful plan he has for you :D

Phil&I crazy adventure in Gibsons

This adventure started at 9:30 when me and Phil met in the front of the Shalon hotel. We walk up to Granville and wait for a couple of minutes for the bus that will take us to the destination of the ferry terminal to get to Gibsons. We got to the ferry terminal, got our tickets and waited in the waiting room for a few mins and got on the ferry, read the newspapers and just wait until the ferry got to the Langale terminal. Got a voicemail from my mom and she said she is on her way but will be a few mins. She got there finally and we went up to sechelt for a political luncheon but it was more a snack than a lunch. There was a beach outside the restaurant and it reminded phil's as home and the luncheon was boring so we check out the beach, it was nice. We went to my favorite restaurant, cafe amigo for some Mexican food which was good, then we met up with my mom and we went to the Lind house to check it out and gave Gwen an angel and she put in the perfect spot and just chill out there for a bit, relaxing and checking out the Christmas decorations, it was so gorgeous, how I love that place :) went back to gibsons and got my dog and we went to my elementary school and I showed him which classrooms I went to, it was fun. We got back to my house and we were on time because my mom need to pick up some people for the dinner so she was going to take us early to save a place which we were fine with, my mom received a phone call from our aunt and it was one of the phone call that you had to take so we got drop off at the place where the shuttle bus was supposed to pick people up but we got there late so the bus was gone already but my parents had to go and pick up people so they told us to get out and wait for the bus that wasn't coming for 45 mins until my dad and my sister came and got us. Finally got to the dinner was good of course, it always is, sang some Christmas carols and got presents which is always fun. We dropped off Phil at my mom friend's place and I felt horribly to do that to him but it was out of my control so meh. Went home and went to bed, got up this morning, went and pick Phil up to take him out to breakfast with my mom which was great, took him to the sunshine coast community church to allow him to see it and took him to the ferry and waited with him until he got on the ferry. It was crazy but fun but it was definality not the way I vision it but meh what can you do?
posse out

Recruitment

Are you living a lukewarm spirtual life and wants to spice things up, come to vancouver and live among the people that need the love of christ and the hope he has the most. I know it is hardcore but it worth it in the end, you will never be the same again, Go to http://www.thewarcollege.com/ and apply for the next session, you will not regret it :)

Today

so woke up today and went to the bank, went up to metrotown to meet up with my sister to go and do some christmas shopping. We looked for something for my brother and we got it like in 5 mins, it was great. Then we looking into something for my mom and we thought it was going to be really expensitive but it wasn't so we are going tommorrow so that is cool. we took pictures in one of those photo booth and it was really fun, went into a christmas tree with special lights just to look at the trees. went and looking for something for my dad, we found the perfect gift for him and at one of the store this guy was rude so we went and returned almost everything we bought from that store and my sister told the guy off in a polite manner how rude he was to her. It was a lovely day :)
How was your day?

only a few more days until i go home for christmas, i am looking forwarding spent some time with my family and caught up with old friends.
things i looking forwarding to;
Egg Nog lots of it :)
seeing my best friend,erin
quality time with my sister and my rest of my family
phil is coming with me for a few days and i am excited to spend some time with him :)
christmas dinner :)
hopefully snow :)

Merry christmas and happy new years

May god bless you this holiday season and may he show you the real meaning of christmas is. may you receive the love of Jesus this season.
Merry christmas and have a great new year :)

His love endures forever

Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good.
His love endures forever.

2 Give thanks to the God of gods.
His love endures forever.

3 Give thanks to the Lord of lords:
His love endures forever.

4 to him who alone does great wonders,
His love endures forever.


HIS PERFECT LOVE ENDURES FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

just finished off my shift on the kettles, it was pretty fun. last night we got kick out of the tinseltown mall for running while we were playing cops and robbers. good times good times. good idea nicole about playing cop and robbers in the mall :)

psalm 29

Ascribe to the LORD, O mighty ones,
ascribe to the LORD glory and strength.
2 Ascribe to the LORD the glory due his name;
worship the LORD in the splendor of his [a] holiness.

3 The voice of the LORD is over the waters;
the God of glory thunders,
the LORD thunders over the mighty waters.

4 The voice of the LORD is powerful;
the voice of the LORD is majestic.

5 The voice of the LORD breaks the cedars;
the LORD breaks in pieces the cedars of Lebanon.

6 He makes Lebanon skip like a calf,
Sirion [b] like a young wild ox.

7 The voice of the LORD strikes
with flashes of lightning.

8 The voice of the LORD shakes the desert;
the LORD shakes the Desert of Kadesh.

9 The voice of the LORD twists the oaks [c]
and strips the forests bare.
And in his temple all cry, "Glory!"

10 The LORD sits [d] enthroned over the flood;
the LORD is enthroned as King forever.

11 The LORD gives strength to his people;
the LORD blesses his people with peace.

classial christmas story of the Barnum household

A classic Christmas in the Barnum’s house

I count down to the days until Sam and Dan come home. It seems like only yesterday I was counting down the years until they were out of the house and my torment would end. Maybe it was only yesterday… Time is a curious thing . They arrive and the family leaves to pick out a tree. Sure it’s last minute, it being the eve of Christmas but a little on the late side is just how our family does things. Beside it just wouldn’t feel right if we didn’t all do together. Of course, by this time all the good trees are gone. We bicker about how we should of gone looking earlier but well, the bickering is all part of Christmas too. We argue about which tree of the few left is the least ugly and should have the honor of coming home with us. If mom get her way, and we know mom always get her way, we’ll end up taking home the ugliest tree in the lot. We pay for it, put it on the roof and are on our way. The males lug our little tree up the stairs and we begin to set it up. Well that is what we would do if we could find a tree stand. Where did we put that tree stand? After much rifling about we find it, but of course the bolts that hold the tree in place is missing. You would think after all the years we would get some new ones but we never do seem to learn. Everyone tries to recall how we had overcome this problem last year . Pennies maybe, did pennies work? Or was it bottle caps? I think bottle cap was it. Dan take one for the team and guzzles some beers so we can use the caps. It works. I hold the tree while the try to get it perfectly straight. I hardly see the point. It ‘s not as if the cat isn’t going to knock it over anyways. When impatience and frustration finally take over and the stupid tree is as straight as it’s going to get we start to decorate. First I fill it with water. Nobody else seem to care about the welfare of our poor Christmas tree. Sam, that brave brave boy , is in charge of the lights . It never seems to matter how neatly we put them away the previous year they still seem to find a way to tangle themselves again. He work diligently until they are untangled then begins the daunting task of making them work. He, like Dan, is our hero for making this sacrifice. Although our hero is heard screaming some less than saintly term at the top of his lungs at the lights, who don’t seem to take his treats very seriously because it’s another hour before they decide to light up. He has been to electrocute himself once or twice in his attempts before he manages to get them all working. Although, truth be told, I think he kind of enjoys that. So with the lights finally up we start to throw the ornaments on the tree. Yes, throw not put. Placing them doesn’t seem as much fun. Is it just me or do we seem to have fewer ornaments than last year? We have to actually put some heavy ones on the branches above the gaps to make an attempt at camouflaging them. It doesn’t really work. Its not all disorderly. We have our themes. Last year was gold, the year before that was umm well gold too. I can’t remember what the year before that was but I’m guess it was something truly spectacular and original. Mom has not been in the room all this time. I think the chaos is a little too much for her. She always returns at the end though to tell us what a beautiful job we’ve done (such a convincing liar my mother is). She also has the oh so important job of hanging the angel on top. We all stand around to marvel at the wondrous thing that is our tree, even though the skinny thing looks like it might fall over from the weight of all the heavy ornaments. It’s our tree though so we stand in awe of its beauty for a moment. Not long though. Its only a second before we can’t stand to hear the musical Christmas tree lights play its irritating tunes any longer and we all wander off to do our own thing.
Nothing eventful happens until the next evening when mom and dad take it upon themselves to drag us to church. They use every line in the book to guilt us into submission. Eventually we concede begrudgingly. We arrive and they give us all candles to light later. We’re a step ahead of them though because Dan has a lighter. We, being such rebels, light ours up and agree to blow them out on the count of three. 1... We look around to realize all our candles are already out. We try again. 2...3... They are all out again. We laugh at our inability, give up, and sit down. The time comes to light the candles. Rebekah tips the lighted one getting wax on the floor (shhh). We all stand and sing Christmas carols. Sam shouts out the lyrics to the songs as loudly and inaccurately as possible; noAL noAL. I nearly die of embarrassment. I’ll have to remember next time to make sure I don’t sit by him. After what seems like hours it’s over and we return home. I get home and relax. This doesn’t last long before I hear yelling and rush to the kitchen to find out the cause. I see Rebekah lying on the floor pounding her fists on the ground and hear her screaming “I want a drum! That’s all I wanted and you couldn’t even get it for me!” I see Sam and Dan laughing. I think they are insensitive until I realize that mom did in fact get Rebekah drums and join in the laughter. After a good half hour of Rebekah’s screaming we agree to let her open one present; the drums. She opens them and is ecstatic… until she remembers her screaming and becomes a little on the embarrassed side, silly Rebekah. After these antic the males (and Bek too) turn on yulin with the page. I try to enjoy it but well sports aren’t my cup of tea so I wander off to bed and eagerly await the presents to be unwrapped the next day. As I pass the kitchen I have to avert my eyes. Mother is frantically wrapping the presents. Well the ones that she actually remembered where she had hidden them. The rest will be left until next June when she finds them then puts them back in the cupboard in hopes that she will find them again next Christmas. When will that lady learn?
The next morning we awake to open our presents. Everyone is pleased with what they get. Well ok is less than pleased with the leather jacket but who can blame the guy? Sam and Dan got us silly string. Oh the havoc that ensues. Sam with his cleverness saves the last bit till no one had any left and ambushes us all. He’s a crafty one that Sam. We spend the rest of the day just relaxing and enjoying a Christmas video or special; The grinch that stole Christmas “BUT WHAT WILL I WEAR?!?” or maybe a Christmas story. “Ra ra ra ra ra’ If I have my way we play a game of monopoly but well I never get my way. Its probably best though since we’ve yet to play a game that didn’t end in a screaming match. I can say, without any bias, that its ALWAYS all Sam’s fault because h is a big cheater head! Finally the time comes when mom has completed dinner. Usually about 8 o’clock but hey like I said a little on the late side is just how we do things. Mom’s annual temper tantrum is all part of the holidays too. I would have thought she would calm down eventually, after all things always work out in the end and food is always good. Dad says a prayer and by the time he is finished we are all starving. We all dig into the spread of turkey, mashed potatoes, and stuffing (you can’t have Christmas without a whole lot of stuffing). We all prefer the brown meat (except one outcast who will remain nameless) so you got to be fast if you want some. If your not you can always steal Dan’s. He’s easily duped. Another classical the table is the egg nog. Each member must receive their fair share or a riot WILL break out. There are even disputes even when it is measured to the ml. In the end someone always ends up with more. We all know who that someone is. Don’t we?? Its all worth it though. Eggnog just wouldn’t taste as good if you didn’t have to fight for it.
When everything is over we all go off to bed and are glad that we had this time together. Who knows what our lives hold for us and how many more Christmas’s we will have together. Heck Dan will probably be off on some crazy adventure in who knows where by the next one. But when we are old and gray (in mom and dad’s case older and grayer ahahaha) we can always look back at those classic Barnum Christmas’s and laugh. I hope you guys liked my little story and had yet another very Merry Christmas!!! I love you all!!

Just recently i found out one of my brother wouldn't be coming home for christmas which make me a bit sad but christmas would still be good.

Love never fails :)

none

on thursday afternoon some friends of mine and I were off to starbuck and this guy ask if we had any hot chocolate today and i was no but i do have Jesus today, do you want him, totally out of nowhere, this guy said, Yes i do want Jesus. His name is tony and i pray with him and talk more with him abit longer and then we were off on our separate ways. It was sweet!

simple song yet powerful words

Father i adore you
I lay my life before you
how i love you

Jesus i adore you
i lay my life before you
how i love you

Three in one i adore you
i lay my life before you
how i love you.

5 mins ago

so i was on the way to blog about this morning class which was a blessing but god want me to blog about seriously what happened five mintutes ago, i met this man name vince and we were talk about religion and how he believe in incaration. he did most of the talking but the words that i did get in which were good. then at the end he pray for me that i would follow the most high being. i so didn't receive it and as he was pray i was praying over him in tongues in my mind. we left the conversation and he follow me for a bit and said some more words and all i said is bless you.

jesus i pray for vince and i know you created him before in the foundation of the world and i know the theif only want to kill, steal and destory all the good things you have for him, which is perfect. Open his eyes to the truth that you are the only living god. there is nothing like you. no gods are best than you. you are the best and everything is good only come from you. thanks you for answer prayer to open my eyes for opportunities to respond to your lost sheep. hallejuah.

Please pray for vince. got any stragetics about preaching to people that do believe incarnation and how do you get words in with people that only want to have a one side conversation?

none

you are special to jesus and you are his.

class this morning

Elaine Gillingham is here to teach the war college about various of things for this week. It is so good to see her and melinda and darren. anyway, today she taught on Mercy and Justice and that our hearts are to be full with compassionate, to have do what Jesus did, as he saw a need,He filled the need. That our eyes were blind to things we see around us, pray for our eyes that we will see what jesus see and respond to what we see. The things in this area is not normal and that personally convicted me that i had been here for a year and as i walk the streets, i just choose to walk by it as it is normal. It is not normal to see people being twited out on the streets, seeing people shooting up in an alley or people sleeping on the sidewalk. My heart had been cactused and hardened to what going on here. Jesus had been speaking to me about already so it was just confirmation for me. we had heart surgeon this morning, allow the holy spirit to clean off anything that was hindering us to have his heart.

Jesus my eyes are blind, i come to you right now, i ask that you lift the covering that the satan has put over my eyes with the stuff down here. May i have your eyes to see and i would respond because i know the stuff down here is not normal, guard my heart against it being harded, keep it softed. that i would love like he did and feel what he feels. amen

the love of a kid

i was out with oliver this evening, we were walking back to the apartment and oliver had his eyes open for opportunities to bless other, this man couldn't reach his cane as he was going on the bus and oliver seriously ran over and pick up the cane and said to the guy here is your cane. The guy just smiled and then Jonathan B came around and oliver gave him a hug and jonathan was like thanks a lot bud i really need that tonight. It was so cool.

thanks you jesus for oliver and the love that you pour into him so he can pour that love on other people and thanks for the opening his eyes to allow him to see who need your love. thank you that i get learn from him to be more like you and more childlike because i know in your word it states in mattrew 18:3-4:And he said: "I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven. 4Therefore, whoever humbles himself like this child is the greatest in the kingdom of heaven. amen

short story i wrote about my childhood

Long time ago, there was a house where a a family of six and this family lived in chaos. Parents always fighting and arguing. There were four children that had to live with that for all of their childhood and through their teens and into their adulthood. John, Obadiah, Ruth and sapphire were all brothers and sisters. There were times of fighting and arguing but mainly they all stuck together.Ruth, john, and Obadiah usually tease sapphire and didn't like to want to spend too much time with her. Sapphire did not really feel much attention and accepted on who she was. Some days she felt like an outsider in her own home. Their parents had mental illness and no structure was established in the house so all the children could not really build any friendships especially for Sapphire because it was hard for her to make friends. She only had a couple of friends because of the state of the house she lived in. Friendship change and the friends she had all of them talk behind her back phoning her and set her up to said mean things to the other person that was on the phone listening in. Sapphire was loner, no desire to live anymore, she felt unworthy , unloved, unaccepted in society and this depression took over her. She attempt suicide but someone walk in before she did it. Things got a bit better for sapphire but she still desire a deeper relationship with her mom but it never really happened. This guy came into Sapphire's life and he took over and this guy was named Jesus. Jesus is the hope and he began to redeem things in sapphire life like friends and the love and accepts she desire all her life. Jesus strength sapphire's relationship with her sibling and he continually to redeem things in sapphire's life and her life and future look better and better Satan is on this earth only to kill, destroy all good things. He try to break sapphire's family apart but God is much bigger and stronger and he is ruling over her family and making it stronger.

cool qoute

The greatness of a man's power is the measure of his surrender."
William Booth

The more we surrender to god the more power from him manifests through us, how cool is that?

Jesus Help me to trust you more and completely surrending every aspect of my life because you are trustworthy and may your power be seened in me. Amen

last night

so i was working at the shalon hotel last night and at 2:30 this two police officers came to the door, i let them in and they came into the office, they were looking for someone on a warrent, anyway i couldn't find what they need so me, jeoff, rob talk for almost a half a hour about my life and their life. it was a cool experience.

things that make me happy

the Martyrs
tracy noble
Lucy(my dog)
revelations
ciara, joshua, noel
Aaron and cherie
steve danielle and zion
The holy Session(especially someone you know who you are)
Ice cream
Oliver
Hanging with Heather and Rob last year, miss you guys
hanging out with Jesus
laughing about nothing
War room
614 community
Melinda and Ken
Lyric, haven and serene
Elaine and Ian (miss you guys)
Jacob, hannah, cailtyn and jeremiah
seeing people come home to Jesus
words of encouragments
Tara
watching movies

Trust + Obedience= blessing and gifts from Jesus

i was in the war room last night and had this revelation. I was reading deut 28:1-13 and this what it said: If you fully obey the LORD your God and carefully follow all his commands I give you today, the LORD your God will set you high above all the nations on earth. All these blessings will come upon you and accompany you if you obey the LORD your God: will be blessed in the city and blessed in the country. The fruit of your womb will be blessed, and the crops of your land and the young of your livestock—the calves of your herds and the lambs of your flocks. Your basket and your kneading trough will be blessed. You will be blessed when you come in and blessed when you go out. The LORD will grant that the enemies who rise up against you will be defeated before you. They will come at you from one direction but flee from you in seven. The LORD will send a blessing on your barns and on everything you put your hand to. The LORD your God will bless you in the land he is giving you. The LORD will establish you as his holy people, as he promised you on oath, if you keep the commands of the LORD your God and walk in his ways. Then all the peoples on earth will see that you are called by the name of the LORD, and they will fear you. The LORD will grant you abundant prosperity—in the fruit of your womb, the young of your livestock and the crops of your ground—in the land he swore to your forefathers to give you. The LORD will open the heavens, the storehouse of his bounty, to send rain on your land in season and to bless all the work of your hands. You will lend to many nations but will borrow from none. The LORD will make you the head, not the tail. If you pay attention to the commands of the LORD your God that I give you this day and carefully follow them, you will always be at the top, never at the bottom
Roman 9 :33band the one who trusts in him will never be put to shame.
Jame 1:17:Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.
Then Jesus show me a picture of a christmas tree and him giving out gift one by one and he gave me one and i ask him what it was and all he said was open it and it was a gold block at said trust in me. I received the gift that he has given to me. Will you accepted the gifts he has for you?

1 cor 13:4-8

The Lord has drawn to this passage many times during the last few weeks,
4Love is patient, how patient are we with each other?
love is kind. how kind are we toward each other
It does not envy, Is there any envy in the body?
it does not boast, Are we boasting only in the lord or is the body boasting about other things
it is not proud. Is there any pride among us the body?
5It is not rude, Are we rude or do we speak gentle and kind toward each other all the time
it is not self-seeking, is the church seeking christ's face or itself
it is not easily angered, is there any angry among us?
it keeps no record of wrongs. do we hold grudges against people?
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. do we focus more on what is evil in this world instead of believing that our god is bigger than anything and he promises to redeem this world.
It always protects, do we believe the lord is our protector?
always trusts, do we think the Lord is trustworthy? to completely surrending everything to him.
always hopes, Do we believe in the hope that only from the lord, because he is the hope
always perseveres. are we giving up or keeping fighting this fight?
Love never fails. do we believe that?


Jesus Show us how to love like you love and help us to experiences the love that is only express in your word, may we be able to experience the fullness of your love. Fill us with your love please jesus. thanks that love never fails! Shower us with your love and help me to love like you do more and more each day i am on this planet.

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Preach the gospel at all the time, sometimes use words

Action speak loudly than words, that is so true. To live out your faith is better and using words but when situations come then use words

street combat last night

Every tuesday night we hit the streets to street combat and we pray it up before we go out and we were just praying for salvation would take place that night. This two guy came up to us where we praying ask how do i getting into this jesus guy? seriously like 5 mins after we just pray for salvation, the guys were drunk so there wasn't any salvation but they did agree to go to a cell tonight. Me,Ross and xander intercede for denise and Andy Mcdonald as they talk with this guy. After we finally lefted the clock, my group went up to needle park, we saw julia(the one in the wheelchair) She is usually really talkative to me but she was just yelling and actually threated my partner to hit him with a glass bottle. I declare freedom and the chains will be broken off her and she will see that her life can and will be better. At the soup truck Jenea and kath said they met this guy and he was asking a lot of questions about Jesus. Last night street combat was good.

meaning of my full name

Rebekah: Devoted one
Brenda: fiery hill, sword blade
Voila: from the name voilet and voilet is a royal colour
Clara:Clear, Bright
Lucy: Light
Jane: gracious, merciful, God is gracious

mark 11:24

Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours

from the archives

i was reading my some of the thing i wrote last year and i came across this

here some cool quotes and shocking statitics all in american though.
In america, the divorice rates are double, teen suicide rate has tripled, voilent crime has quadrupled, the prison population has quadrupled, the birth rate out of marriage has risen 6 fold. couple living together out of marriage has risen sevenfold.
-decades of self-centered living and wordliness in the church of america. years of compromise and toothless gospel preaching. So true so true
-we need a revolution!
-but this revolution will be different than other revolutions including the revolution that birthed our nation more than 200 year ago, this revolution will not be fought with earthy weapons of destruction , not with guns and knives and bullets and bombs- it will be fought with the message of the gospel, with the love of god , the power of spirit, with radical holiness, with sacrifice , compassion, and courage. it will be jesus's revolution!
-our revolution is fueled by the power of the gospel, and the gospel does the voilence of the forces of hell.
- the gospel is a treat to the kindgom of darkness, the gospel does voilence against the forces of hell. WE MUST RECOVER THE FULLNESS OF THE GOSPEL OF JESUS!!!!! I believe the gospel can change a nation or a community, the church is sum what sugarcoating the gospel

Rathering than seasoning the world like salt and brightening the world like light, we now smell and taste like the world , and its darkness is snuffling out our lamps, Rather than setting captives free by the power of Jesus's blood, many of us are being ensnared and enslaved, making a mockery of that sacred blood. Rather than making disciples of sinners and teaching them the ways of god, many of us are being discipled by them, learning their ways, imiting their lifestyles and conformating to their values.

the divorice rates today among the evanglelical is higher than the divorice rate among the atheists. Now that is scary!!!!


It is time for the church to stand up , wake up , speak up and act up!!!!

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I now have two jobs, One taking care of 6 years old boy name oliver a couple days a week and working security at the shalon hotel. I had done 2 shifts at the shalon hotel alright and there will be more. I like it. Pray for strength and i will get to know the names of the people that lived there because names are important. Praise the lord for the provision he is giving me this days. Hallejuah

I will walk in freedom, For I have devoted myself to your commandents. Psalm 119:45
Jesus became sin so we didn't have to, He took all our sins so we can be free and the truth will set you free and you are free indeed. So why are we still sinning?
We need to walk in the freedom that the lord has given to us.
To be blameless and spotless before the king of glory. May we devoted ourself completely what the scriptures are saying.

Father I will bring Glory to your name, Anyone know the reference to this scripture?

Jesu help us to walk in the freedom, that you have gone through for all of us so we wouldn't have to and i thank you for your freedom, where the spirit of the lord, there is freedom and we are free indeed when we have you. Hallejuah

What Yahweh is teaching me this days

Confidence in reading out loud
Boldness
that he really is Our provider
His faithfulness
that every blessing he pour out, that i turn them into praise
Humility
How not take the spirit of offense,god put them in life to teach me something
taking every thought captive and make them obedient to christ
His love
Love of other people
Using my gifts that he has gave me to bring glory to his name and blessing other people in my community
patience
tuning more into his voice and allowing him to speak over me the seeds of truth and taking the roots of death out of me
His calling and purpose for me are good
Thankgiving

collection of my poems

Joy Gifter
why do i get depressed or sad
You are the apple of my eye and the real joy gifter
Your smile will be my smile
May i seek your face and see you smiling over me
take away this sadness, replace it with a garment of joy
annoint me with the oil of joy for your name sake
Remove all doubt and allow me trust in you more
i want to relate on you more, not man
you are my best friend and nothing will ever change that
thank you for the pain and heart ache you had to go through for me to have a relationship with me, i will ever praise you and be forever grateful to you,i give you my life, all to you, all to you, that is all i give you is my life and my love.


The Voice of Truth

There are so many voices in my head
which one do i listen to?
One voice is saying " you are ugly"
But the other voice saying Come up here, my beloved and my darling
One is saying you are not worthy
Other one is saying "you are sitting in the heavenly places"
One voice is saying You will never do anything good with your life"
The voice of truth is saying " My Plans for you will give you a hope and future"
One voice is saying You don't need any help with anything, you can do on your own.
The Voice of truth is saying Your help from me and carry each other burdens
I choose to listen to the voice of truth.



Goodness
I see your goodness surrounding me
It is in trees
It is in the sea
It is in the wind, sky and the sun
It is on the shoreline
It is in the waves crashing against the rocks
It is in the people around me
Every good and perfect gift come from you
It is in my family
It is in my friends
May i have the eyes to see your goodness more
You are good all the time


Holy is the lord Almighty

Holy is the Lord Almighty
May your glory fill the skies of this earth
for your name sake.
Come and judge this world
Display your marvelous goodness acrooss this land
May your servents of this earth declare your holiness each day and night
until your arrival back on this earth
You are holy
YOu are worthy to receive all power, wisdom, glory and strength

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As i was walking up to cartneige to check emails and blog today, i had a picture in my mind that Jesus was singing this words over each of the women of the east side:
Beautiful One I love you
Beautiful One I adore
Beautiful One My soul must sing
Nothing on this earth is beautiful as you.

Key Ilustration

Picture of set of keys: You got your house keys,car keys and keys to your workplace. if you use your house key for your car or your car for your workplace it wouldn't work because the key for the purpose that you need it for only will work. It is the same way with heaven, Jesus is the key and you can try to use other methods to get to him but there is only one key to get to heaven Which is Jesus by his blood he shed on the cross.

If we are the body

But if we are the body
why arent His arms reaching?
why arent His hands healing?
why arent His words teaching?
and if we are the body
why arent His feet going
why is His love not showing them there is a way

Jesus is the way

1 Corinthan 12:12-20 The body is a unit, though it is made up of many parts; and though all its parts are many, they form one body. So it is with Christ. For we were all baptized by one Spirit into one body—whether Jews or Greeks, slave or free—and we were all given the one Spirit to drink. Now the body is not made up of one part but of many. If the foot should say, "Because I am not a hand, I do not belong to the body," it would not for that reason cease to be part of the body. 16And if the ear should say, "Because I am not an eye, I do not belong to the body," it would not for that reason cease to be part of the body. 17If the whole body were an eye, where would the sense of hearing be? If the whole body were an ear, where would the sense of smell be? 18But in fact God has arranged the parts in the body, every one of them, just as he wanted them to be. 19If they were all one part, where would the body be? 20As it is, there are many parts, but one body.

We need everyone in the body to do their part, if one person is not doing their
part, the body is off balanced.

Jesus thank you for the body of christ, May you teach and guide how to use your gifts that you has given us, i pray for a spirit of unity among the churchs please. amen.

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Speak to one another with psalms, hymns and spiritual songs. Sing and make music in your heart to the Lord, always giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ. ”- Ephesians 5:19-20

Thank you for Steve and Danielle and Zion
Thank you for Melinda and Ken
Thank you for Haven Serene and lyric
Thank you for ciara, joshua and noel and the new life in cherie's belly
Thank you for Cherie and Aaron
Thank you for providing for me
Thank you for your grace
Thank you for your freedom
Thank you for Heather & Rob and the gillinghams family
Thank you for all the martyrs, bless them abuntantly
Thank you for Darren, Sean and Steve Bell
Thank you for the holy session
Thank you for life
Thank you for community
Thank you for your love
Thank you for Oliver and Jacob
Thank you for everyone in my life that has blessed me and taught me something

promises from scriptures that i claiming for me right now

Delight in the lord, and he will grant you with your heart desires Psalm 37:4

Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened. Mattrew 7:7-8


Seek the kingdom first and the lord will provide the needs that you need to live off, i am not sure where it is.

Jehovah-Jirah The Lord that provides

Shout out to Phil

10 Reason i love my brother in christ phil A

10. He lets me choose the movie that i want to see
9 He always leaves messages on my blog
8 He love Jesus with all his heart,soul, mind and strength
7 He know he is supposed to be here in vancouver
6 His encouragment
5 His love for the people of the eastside
4 His love for Recre8
3 His awesome leadership
2 his teachable spirit
1 his Joy

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I like kids, they are fun.
i been taking care of lyric, haven and serene for last three days while melinda is away on the journey and it been really fun.

in the memory of my sister Lois walker

My sister in Christ, Lois walker passed away this morning in the hospital, if though i am sad she is gone but i am also rejoicing because she is in heaven dancing with Jesus and she has no pain, No more tears and no more disease, Hallejuah. i will treasure her friendship and her advices she gave me when i was living out at Q1 and how she help get my focus back on my orginal calling and i will be ever gracious for that. i treasured the time i got to spend with her up there and really getting to know her. She will be very missed and i love her and one day i will see her in heaven.

Jesus i thank you for Lois and her life that was devoted to you and i pray for her sister, Esther right now as she is grief that you will surround her with your love and grace and as a community we will surround her with support and love. amen

shout out to kirsten Ivany

kirsten,
daughter of the king,
the joy of the lord is her stength
the beauty of the lord shine through her brightly
Her smile light up a room
Her laugh is make other people laugh as well
How i am happy she is here in Vancouver BC

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update
i apply at safeway, A&W and an nannie agency on the net(which i found from the vancouver newspaper so it is a vancouver agency and the shalon hotel.
i got a call from the nanny agency but i couldn't hear the number on my voicemail but it still on my phone but i can only get it the next time someone send me an voicemail, i know it is weird but my cell is a old phone, i am blessed to have it though and i didn't have a pen at the time, lesson learned all the time carry a pen, it is alway a good idea to carry a pen. i am madly love with jesus right now, my squad really blessed me on thursday which was a blessing. i am blessed by members of the holy session.
thanks for the prayers, i appericate it a lot :)

update

i am really not doing so hot right now.
i am sick
I have no Job and i am getting really frustrating about not having one or finding strong leads that go to a job. i am not sure what i am supposed to do with this
trying to get help from god and he is not really help, making me doubt him and shatter my faith which is not good because i don't want to deny him, i love him a lot and i want to serve him but these past 2 months have been hard for me so i been relying on people more than him because people are helping me out in this area more than he is.
Not sure where i fitted here as a phase 2 student. i am doing kid minstry with lindsay and nicole which is good but i sore of feel that i am just tag along with them and i am not really need there. i want to established something new but not sure what and it stinks big time.
God has give me a big dream on opening my own orphanage one day and i have no idea how to get there.
any that is what is going on with me
Prayer & encouragment would be appreciated right now. thanks you
:)

God's names by alphabet

Alpha
The Beginning
Christ
Deliverer
Emmanuel
Friend of sinners
Giver of life
Holy one
Jehovah Jireh the one who provides
King of the nations
Lawgiver
Mighty one
New Life
Our Potter
Prince of peace
Q
Rock of my salvation
Savior of the world
Teacher
The Uncorruptible God
Vine
Wonderful one
X
Yahweh
Z

today

so i woke up thinking that i was going back to gibsons for thanksgiving and i am now. my parents were supposed to put money in my account so i could get home but they didn't because cirstumances. Sadly i have no job so i was crying because i want to be with my family for thanksgiving but thanks to community i got what i need to get back here. Praise the Lord but the Lord was teaching me through this. I realized i am dependant on people more than god because more people are helping me get a job than he is
not lean on him as much as i should
doubt that he is my jehovah jirah "the one that provides"
proverb 3:5-6:
Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight

I need more trust and faith

Lord i want to trust you more, i know you are jehovah jirah and i thank you, i pray that you show that name to me more and more please. i want to depend more on you.

Try Tears- William Booth
Jesus Wept

Jesus has been releasing me in the area of tear intercession and it is been very cool and new for me.

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You are the God of the broken
The friend of the weak
You wash the feet of the weary
Embrace the ones in need
I want to be like You, Jesus
To have this heart in me
You are the God of the humble
You are the humble King

1 peter 5 :8-9

Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. 9Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings.

Here in Vancouver the enemy is definality attacking unity and family. He has been targetting the weakest of the group but hallejuah that when we are weak the lord is strong. We need to fight against the enemy schemes or pray the full of armour of god every day but all so clothes yourself with love and the blood of the lamb.

Lord i hate to seeing the enemy taking my friends away and seeing my friends in addiction being won instead of victory in Jesus. You have called every people of this session for a purpose. You have called them and appointed to be here so please teach us to how to fight again the enemey schemes. Amen