If you are weary, find rest
If you are worned out, do nothing for a day
If you are stressed due to christmas, this will be passed soon, Just remind yourself what christmas really is meant to be for. Find joy & peace in that.
if you are joyful, stay joyful
if you lonely, find a friend
if you are sad, look for something that brings you joy and do that
Peace out everyone.
Hope everyone has a merry christmas and a happy new year :)

tonight

I went to burnaby to my friends Jeni & Regan house for a christmas party/carolling. it was fun to spread christmas cheer around if though some people did not really like it but overall people seem to enjoy our singing, it was the first time i have been carolling, of course i sang through kettles but never door to doors. Then we came back and drank some apple cider and played phase 10, good times good times.

update

My life is good. I enjoying it quite a bit. Work is fun, we just finish making a paper mache volcano and erupting with vingear and baking soda. Next we are making a paper mache snowman, that should be fun. In other parts of my life, things are pretty good, i went to the doctor because i had this cough for over 6 weeks and they gave me an puffer but i was healed of that 2 years ago and it has not helped. my dad thinks it might be bronchilus so i will have to go to the doctor and get my chest examined which i hate doing but this cough is annoying. Right now i have a cold as well. hmm god is good and my family is doing well and my parent are well as well. i am looking forward to spending time with them this christmas holiday with the rest of my family. I still living in the apartments, we try to live as a family which some time hard to do and some time i want to run but living in community is hard but it is good and fun at the same time. i just frustrated when there is a guy at the courthouse at 3 am yelling about things like the olympics and the taser incident that happened at the airport about a month. On february 9 i will be the Canucks game with my dad for his 60 birthday, super excited about that. we are in section 120 and section 121 because there was no double seating but hopefully we will be able to sit together somehow. anyway, that is all. Grace & Peace out

Martyrs reunite, well the ones that still live in vancouver

yesterday The martyrs session reunite, the ones that still live in vancouver, there is 8 of us. It was awesome to fellowship with my fellow sessionmate, call old friends and our fellow leaders and just have fun and chill out with every other. It was a rich time with friends. There is a bond that cannot be broken among the sessions of the war college. The War college is not about the acadamic, It is about making friends with people around the world and making an impact in the downtown eastside that you may not see the lasting affect but you were a part of planting a seed. It was awesome :)

i love my family :)

I went to Parkville for Remembrance Day weekend to see my uncles, aunts and my grandparents, it been like 5 years since the last time i saw it. It was lovely, I saw all my uncles which is rarely because most of time they are either busy or not in town. My grandad wasn't able to go to the remembrance day service because the weather was bad and he get quite emotional because his brother is on the honour roll on the momunemt where the service tooked placed. He was in the WW2 and my uncle that i saw the grave when i was in italy was also there, so remembrance day is not just another day for me and my family, it is personal. me, my uncles and my brother and dad got into a car and went down to paid tribute to the barnum that dies for our country. I got to see my cousin burke play 2 of his hockey tournment games and was honoured to see his first goal of the season and today saw him for the first time, he is 14 now, the last time i saw him was when he was really young. It was a lovely time to reconnect with family that i have not seen for a long time.

My new Job

I been working for an lady named carolanne at her preschool for 6 weeks before i went to the new daycare which opened just this week. It is only a few children right now but in janurary there will be 8 and there will be someone else to come and help me which is good. I enjoy it a lot. Carolanne is very friendly and i like her alot. Her daughter are great as well. It is just good all around.

update

Life is good, My Job is great :)
jesus is teaching me things, i am growing in the lord and i am happy i am alive and i am blessed by so many people in my life :)

personality Test

Answers are for who you are now...... not who you were in the past. Have pen or pencil and paper ready. This is a real test given by the Human Relations Dept. at many of the major corporations today . It helps them get better insight concerning their employees and prospective employees. It's only 10 Simple questions, so...grab a pencil and paper, keeping track of your letter answers to each question. Make sure to change the subject of the e-mail to read YOUR total. When you are finished, forward this to friends/family, and also send it to the person who sent this to you. Make sure to put YOUR score in the subject box. Ready?? Begin... 1. When do you feel your best? a) in the morning b) during the afternoon &and early evening c) late at night 2.
You usually walk. .. a) fairly fast, with long steps b) fairly fast, with little steps c) less fast head up, looking the world in the face d) less fast, head down e) very slowly
3. When talking to people you.. a) stand with your arms folded b) have your hands clasped c) have one or both your hands on your hips d) touch or push the person to whom you are talking e) play with your ear, ! touch your chin, or smooth your hair
4. When relaxing, you sit with.. a) your knees bent with your legs neatly side by side b) your legs crossed c) your legs stretched out or straight d) one leg curled under you
5. When something really amuses you, you react with... a) big appreciated laugh b) a laugh, but not a loud one c) a quiet chuckle d) a sheepish smile
6. When you go to a party or social gathering you.. a) make a loud entrance so everyone notices you b) make a quiet entrance, looking around for someone you know c) make the quietest entrance, trying to stay unnoticed
7. You're working very hard, concentrating hard, and you're interrupted...a) welcome the break b) feel extremely irritated c) vary between these two extremes
8 Which of the following colors do you like most? a) Red or orange b) black c) yellow or light blue d) green e) dark blue or purple f) white g) brown or gray
9. When you are in bed at night, in those last few moments before going to sleep you are.. a) stretched out on your back b) stretched out face down on your stomach c) on your side, slightly curled d) with your head on one arm e) with your head under the covers
10. You often dream that you are... a) falling b) fighting or struggling c) searching for something or somebody d) flying or floating e) you usually have dreamless sleep f) your dreams are always pleasant

POINTS: 1. (a) 2 (b) 4 (c) 6 2. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 7 (d) 2 (e) 13. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 5 (d) 7 (e) 6 4. (a) 4 (b) 6 (c) 2 (d) 1 5. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 2 6. (a) 6 (b) 4 ( c) 2 7. (a) 6 (b) 2 (c) 4 8. (a) 6 (b) 7 (c) 5 (d) 4 (e) 3 (f) 2 (g) 1 9. (a) 7 (b) 6 (c) 4 (d) 2 (e) 1 10. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 6 (f) 1 Now add up the total number of points.

OVER 60 POINTS : Others see you as someone they should "handle with care." You're seen as vain, self-centered, and who is extremely dominant.. Others may admire you, wishing they could be more like you, but don't always trust you, hesitating to become too deeply involved with you. 51 TO 60 POINTS: Others see you as an exciting, highly volatile, rather impulsive personality; a natural leader, who's quick to make decisions, though not always the right ones. They see you as bold and adventuresome, someone who will try anything once; someone who takes chances and enjoys an adventure. They enjoy being in your company because of the excitement! you r r a diate.
41 TO 50 POINTS: Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.
31 TO 40 POINTS: Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful & practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest. Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust In your friends, but equally that it takes you u a long time to get over if that trust is ever broken.
21 TO 30 PO IN TS: Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It would! really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment, expecting you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then, usually decide against it. They think this reaction is caused partly by your careful nature.
UNDER 21 POINTS: People think you are shy, nervous, and indecisive, someone who needs looking after, who always wants someone else to make the decisions & who doesn't want to get involved with anyone or anything! They see you as a worrier who always sees problems that don't exist. So me people think you're boring. Only those who know you well know that you aren't.Now forward this to others, and put your score in the subject box of your e-mail, like this: "Dr.Phil's Test, I'm a 45"<>

Joy!

The Joy of the lord is Our strength. There is Joy in the presence of the lord and in community. I want to embrace the presence of the lord and community more than i alright do. Joy is a weapon to fight against the despair. There is joy in the salvation army, where is it in the army? Where is the joy of our salvation? Jesus is the truth and the truth will set us free and of course trials will come but in jame it said, Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. Jesus i want more joy.

The greatest thing that bring me joy is hearing from the lord and revelations.

Grace & blessings

Is Our vision clear, Are we seeing the world through Jesus's Eyes or do we have scales over us, Is Our Hearts aligned with the father's heart and is our ears clear of crap so we can hear him clearly? the song that is in my head for the last few days has been Joshua Ivany number 14 on the sound of the revolution, I want to love like you love, feel like you feel. Those two lines stood out to me, I want love and feel what Jesus feel, that my heart is close to the father's heart, to see the world through his eyes and see the jesus in people around me and to hear the voice of the lord which he speaks, the question are we listening?

I did some listening prayer for 614 a few months but not sure if i was suppose to share and i think i suppose to do that now so here you go:

What are some 614 Strengths:We are seeking after the father's heart, Mission Focused, a place of belonging, community focused, fight against injustices and intercession

What we need to work on: More faith, More compassion, Love for the street, More holy spirit led, walking in his power and authority. searching after the lost and that our hearts would break for the lost, allow to god to move through us, belief instead of unbelief, Humility.
What we can do to see the greater things of his kingdom:
To know the bible and believe we can do what it said. to allow the holy spirit to move through us all, ask for fire, walk in faith, not by sightlefting the veil over our eyes to see where he is working and joining him in it.

Update

Last few days has been great, totally god moments. First the all night of prayer for human trafficing, the lord is really giving me the heart for this injustice lately and it been awesome. Jenea put up some testimony of women that has been rescued from this, in my head, i was wow that sucks and just praying the testimony of this women would reach other women that are still trapped in this injustice and i have a weird vision but a cool vision,It was a picture of me in this situation, be tricked into the sex trade and being a house where i am forced to have sex with other guys, i lost and start to weep harshly and went into a deep intercession for this women and the testimonys of women that has been rescued would reach other and that the same thing would happen for them, the chain would be broken and the captive would be released from the darkness and that they would be moved in a safe place and the lord would bring beauty for ashes and he would restore what the enemy took away from them.

Second Last night, jenea and Stephanie had a deliverance session for me all to do with things that my heart has been hardened and become a heart of stone and i desire to have a heart of flesh and it had to do with things that i did not deal with shane yet. It was powerful and it was fast because i am listen to the lord and i hear him clearly which i loved a lot. we did doug burr style. It was a waterfall surround with trees and bushes surround the pond at the end of the waterfall, there is a huge rock in the middle and jesus was there waiting and there was stepping stone path to the rock so i have to jump on the stepping stone to get to the big rock, Jesus held out his arm and help me up on the rock, he gave me a side hug. I ask what i need to get rid of and he show me a lot of stuff, to take away bitterness, anger, soul ties and freedom and my indentify is in christ, he is proud of me. The guilt i has been carrying for the last few months was not from him and the guilt came from the words by shane. the bitterness came from false promises and lies of the enemy. I ask him how he saw that every thing happened and jesus said that it hurt me, how it all happened how rushed it was, how both of you were be selifish and having your desires not mine. I ask jesus what his desires were? Respected, loved, love for jesus and me, accept me for me, heart for brazil and missions, same passions, family and community and jesus has a guy for me just like that :) then went into repentance of allowing the enemy get a foot hold in bitterness, anger and selifishness. There was big forest fire to throw all the bitterness, selfishness, and anger I ask if he had affication for me, just be me, you are awesome, you don't have to change for anyone. There will be fullness for shane and you don't need to carry this burden of shane anymore, give it to me and i will do the rest. stephanie got song of songs 8:6-7 which is one of my favorite song of song verses :)
He want me to do a prophetically act to throw a heavy rock into the water at crabtree park, Which i did today after my war room which my war room shift was great. after my shift, i went down to crab tree park and I search for a heavy rock and i found the perfect one and i just said out loud the burden and everything that went with the burden like alway thinking about him and unholy soul ties and i state the verse Your yoke is easy and your burden is light over and over again and while i was throwing the rock into the water and it was really cool and just climb on a rock just start to pray and sing and i climb down the rock and went home but singing how great is our god.

Praying for a revival in canada

On Friday Night, A young guy named Corey oragized a prayer gathering in a local park, I was invited to come by my youth group pastor and i am glad i went. It was really good. There was about 20 people praying for the Coast. There is a lot of dis unity among the church, Violence in the school, drug use has increased. We spent 2 hours in pray for this community in this area but also in other areas. He is sovereign over Gibsons, Over the Down town East side, All over the world.

Obedience

Trust in him that he know what he is doing and obey what he said and the lord has giving us all gifts to use and we need to be obey in the gifting he has provide for us to use.

listening prayer

Last Night, i did some listening prayer and this what i heard and saw. I ask Jesus where he was, i could not see him but he say look up, Jesus was in the eagle, one side of it's wing, The eagle pick me up and put me inside his other wing and we just soar with the eagle. The Eagle landed on a big rock and that where me and jesus got off. He asked me what that was all about and i remember the psalm 91( i was reading it when he ask me) verse 4 He will cover you with his feathers,and under his wings you will find refuge. I am hided in his wings and there is safety and rest in his wings.

The lord is sovereign.

The Lord is Sovereign Strong over all the world even it is so messy up.
Psalm 140
Rescue them, O LORD, from evil men; protect them from men of violence, 2 who devise evil plans in their hearts and stir up war every day. 3 They make their tongues as sharp as a serpent's; the poison of vipers is on their lips. Selah 4 Keep them, O LORD, from the hands of the wicked; protect me from men of violence who plan to trip their feet. 5 Proud men have hidden a snare for them; they have spread out the cords of their net and have set traps for me along my path. Selah 6 O LORD, I say to you, "You are my God." Hear, O LORD, my cry for mercy. 7 O Sovereign LORD,their strong deliverer, who shields their head in the day of battle- 8 do not grant the wicked their desires, O LORD; do not let their plans succeed, or they will become proud. Selah 9 Let the heads of those who surround thembe covered with the trouble their lips have caused. 10 Let burning coals fall upon them; may they be thrown into the fire, into miry pits, never to rise. 11 Let slanderers not be established in the land; may disaster hunt down men of violence. 12 I know that the LORD secures justice for the poor and upholds the cause of the needy. 13 Surely the righteous will praise your name and the upright will live before you.Them include the children and women being chained in modern slavery, human trafficking, homelessness, child abuse, orphans, widows, the lonely and all that are chained in addication, Break the chains Lord and Release the captives from the darkness

it is my 24th birthday today :)

I am blessed :) I am happy that i have great friends and family and i am glad that i was created and loved by god.

nothing

Hmm Jesus is great, He revealed to me through some of my friends, that i have a fear of being alone in two area of my life, going into relationship when he told me not to save me from heartache for in the sake of being in a relationship. It is ok for me to single, he will provide someone for me when the time is right. and alone time for me and jesus. I need to be around people all the time, two weeks through praying with a friend, He revealed it is ok for me to be alone, he want to spend time with me, just me and him. He is always there so the last two weeks i been spending more time with just me but not isolationing myself from community but not always be around people, it been great. PTL :)

Delight yourself in the lord, he will give the desire of your heart.

Hallejuah Jesus is awesome :)

Well i did my 5 weeks practium at montessional school, it was ok, i really did not want to stay for my 500 hours but i had no other opinions so i agree to stay. so right now they are getting 8 hours of work out of me for 10 dollars a hours but only paying me 4 hours. The envirnment is not the best to be working in specially for what i am making but anyway i been talking with another lady for the last two months and i haven't heard anything from her for a while but curious if the position was filled or not, it has not. she emailed me back and said it is still open, are you still interested and i say so we been talking for the last two weeks and i had interview today and i got the position. I am so excited, it is a brandnew centre, it is closer to my house and the person value the same things i do and i will be pay more hours and my hours will increase after i am licensed ECE Teacher. Praise the lord! He is a great dad and the amazing provider.

what the lord has taught during this year

Patience

Trusting him with my relationships, it is ok to be alone at the moment and the lord will provide when it is his timing. ( the bigger thing he been teaching me this year.

I am good enough

it is ok to have a time for me.

perservence

endurance

Charactor

trust him more with my life

grace

love for the poor, deeper love for my 614 family & family

restoring my family, we are a tightier an deepered unit now then before

deeper desire for the word

the cross

Lately the pictures that the lord is showing me is all about the cross. The fuel of our being is from the power of the cross. I am the person i am today because of the cross. so much grace, forgiveness,mercy, passion and the greatest of this is true love. No greater love is this is that would lay down his life for a friend. what a mighty friend we have in Jesus. I just being thinking why is that we just remember about the cross just at easter, should we being remember it always. he died for us so we could live, hallejuah! He is called us to die to our flesh and pick up our crosses and follow him with the life he is the only one that give us life so we could give it back to him for his purpose and his glory. He has started a good work in all of us, He wants fullness for his people. i remember in my high school yearbook one of my goal in life is to live life to the fullest and quoting mattrew champ, life is too short to be miserable. He did not just died for you and me, he died for the pimp, johns, the doctors that do abortions, gays and prostitutes. Hallejuah.

Lord i am sorry for complaining about my life this days, You have provide me with learning opportunies, if though it been hard sometimes, the perservence and endurance is building character and nothing to compare to the perservence and endurance you need to endure on the journey of the cross for me and the rest of the human race, thanks you for the cross and how

much power is the sacrifice you did for us.

question of the day

Name one thing that you learned today?

Martyr session memories

Street combat with rob

street combat with Heather & Esther

Shopping carts open airs

Squad with salvation 101, 201,301.

taking esther over to gibsons to meet my parents and my sister and youth group

freedom day

watching movies over at 107 with heather, jen, linsey, josh, phil.

coffee time with heather after kneedrill

getting drunk in the spirit for the first time at fresh fire conference, receiving tongues

Seeing Jason Upton.

Holy spirit filled knee drill, regan second blessing, Jonathan receiving tongues, the prayer warrior rising up inside of me when i was praying with nicole and mia.

street combat with esther, jaime , nicole

Recre8 with aurora, sueann, louis the first night i was in vancouver

roommate with linsey new and jamie smith sleeping over.

KFC with linsey, josh

wow i have not blogged for a long time, sorry

He will always guide you, His hand will always lead you to where you supposed to be, He is trustworthy. I had this picture of jesus with his arm wide open and he just waiting for me and for you to fall into his arms. Have you ever done a trust fall with people, while that what jesus wants to do with us.

Life is good,
Classes are done! Woo hoo! I am on my 5 weeks practium, my sponsor teacher ask me if i want a part time job after the third day and i may take it, we will see happens after 5 weeks. I applied for another job that is closer to my house and the lady just got my resume on thursday night so still waiting for her to responsed to me. I am growing in the lord which is always exciting. I am the new powerpoint girl at knee drill which has been great. I am resting his promise, Delight yourself in the lord and he will give you the desire of your heart.

memories

Leave one memory that you have of you and me. It doesn't matter if you knew me well or a lot, just put anything you remember

kayaking was awesome!

I been kayaking once before but it was a lot time ago! I had so much fun kayaking!. it was the best night, not too cold, or hot. i have some trouble with stirring but it is normal for beginner and one of the instructor said i did well for a beginner. we saw an eagle and seals and the walk was a nice length in the nature and the woods. being in creation is awesome. How great is our god!

nothing

I becoming me again and it is good after two month of up and downs
I am going kayaking with my class on wedensday, i am excited about it :)
Jeni is back :) it is good to have her back
we get a 5 day weekend for canada long weekend which is sweet!
hmm Jesus is good and forever faithful, forever he is strong and with us.

good times with JC

Saturday i have a war room in the new room, it was awesome! A good time interceding for human trafficing, personal reflection and journel and god give me a lot of sweet promises from his word. From the beginning of the shift to the end, he spoke the words I am the Reedemer of all things. it was really encouraging to me.

Last wedensday, Ian and I were talking and he gave me some wisdom about stomp the thoughts that were not on heavenly things like feild mice. He pray and i repent & pray and overall just a rich time with the lord. I repent for being selifish with my time and not use the time i do have with the lord. I been taking my bible on the bus and asking for a word or something that i can hold on to for that day. it been great and a rich time and of course praying for the day.

marshmellow fight things that make you go hmm

Found out tonight at the warrier A sleepover at xculture a marshmellow fight is
really fun,
when about 6 or 7 kids tag on you and throw one at your head, it hurts
and sliding kids on the floor in a big blanket is quite fun

Noah is so cute and precious like all the other 614 children which i have not spend a lot of time with them for a while now which i found out tonight i have miss spend time with them.

good times good times

i do much better :)

Hmm i stay at my sister during the week for a few days and i have dinner with my friend kath which was lovely and i start to journel again and it is helping. graduation is next weekend :) woohoo :)

Just me

Well On Thursday My Instructor And I sat and talk about how was doing? In the last month and half she has seen me gone downhill, showing signs of depression and not being myself, believe everything is ok when it is not. She concened. To be completely honest, i would have to agree with her. I haven't been myself. I been trying to not think about what happened and move forward but it is still in back of my mind and my focus is not on the children while i am on practise, it elsewhere and it looks like i am not fully there. But i will said this, Jesus is giving me strength and without him this whole thing would of be a lot worse. My time this days has been focus on school and i don't want to say i don;t have time for jesus but honesty i have not done my rations for a least 3 weeks or done a full war room shift for almost 4 weeks. so that where i am. She is worried that i am going to fail and I don't want to do that because i work my butt off in last 8 months

8 weeks and i will be done school :) it been a good time in school but i am at the point when i just want to be finished and start working in the feild.
1 more week of afternoon classes.
physicially & spirtually i am doing good but emotionally i have good days and days are bad. Missing shane a lot this days in my life but just waiting on the lord on that. Just want to say Shane You are great guy and i am hoping and praying for the lord's best for you.
got to hang out with crystal myers and andy and Rebecca at xculture last night, it was good times.

cool song

Hear Us From Heaven - Jared Anderson

Verse:
Lord, hear our cry
Come heal our land
Breath life into these dry and thirsty souls
Lord, hear our prayer Forgive our sin
And as we call on Your name Would You
make this a place For Your glory to dwell
Chorus: Open the blind eyes Unlock the deaf ears
Come to Your people As we draw near Hear us from heaven
Touch our generation
We are Your people Crying out in desperation
Lord hear our song Your children worship As we sing out Your praise
Would You make this a place for Your glory to dwell
Bridge: Hear Us From Heaven, Hear Us From Heaven, Hear Us From Heaven (4x)

cool illustration

In a kindgarten class a teacher brought in a picture of a family and one of the boy in the picture had different colour of hair and skin and one boy said is that boy adopted? this girl said he probably is, i know about adoption because i am adopted. a person in the class asked what is adoption? The girl that was adopted said" I grew in my mommy's heart instead of my mommy's tummy.

Lyrics Don't worry child(no idea who wrote but would like to know :)

Don't worry child

To live is christ to die is gain
You believe this but you can't ignore your pain
It's hard enough to move it through another day
now you need someone to hear you when you pray

Chorus:
Don't worry child, i am right here by your side
I been here all along in me, won't you abide
Is your grief too much to bare, give it to me
I can heal your heart, your soul i can set you free

When you wake up each day my promises are new
Have faith in me and i will get you through
Is your burden heavy here take mine it light
my yolk is easy, come and have this life

Chorus

You've fought until you nothing left to give
Every ounce of every energy you have spent
though your heart it break inside
more than anything in life
I long for you to know

Chorus

I know this pain this has caused
Gave my son upon the cross
But know nothing has been lost
Believe in me (2x)

praise the lord!

The lord is with us where ever we go.
He go before us and prepare the way
He loves us where we are, that he is not finished what we are and hope what we can become.
he calm the storms in our lifes
he is the god of justice
he is the judge and he is the judge the wicked
he is god of grace. praise the lord for grace
he is a god of second chances, if we run from him, he is there with arm wide open waiting for us to run back to him. hallejuah!
more of him and less of me
he must increase, i must decrease

just me

Things are pretty good in my life this days, I am now taking 8 hrs of class to catch up for the lost time i missed in the first month so it is a bit overwhelmed but it will be worth it in the end, i will be finished soon. Practium is coming up soon, i am excited and nervous at the same time, God has been speaking to me about grace and just showing what my priveledge at the moment should be. School now, relationships later. i been reading the word more and i am spend more time with my 614 family and i know that i always have someone to talk to or if i need any prayer people are there for me. it is great. That i am great person and unquire . I am fearfully and wonderfully made and i know that the lord works in me are beautiful The lord is reshowing me who i am in him, a strong women of god that obey the following of the holy spirit.

colossian 3:1-4

Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is seated at the right hand of God. 2Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. 3For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God. 4When Christ, who is your[a] life, appears, then you also will appear with him in glory.

Lord help me to focus on things that are eternal and what is good and pure and noble in my life and not the not so good things that are happening in my life right now. lord lift the veil of my eyes to see the good in my life. Help my eyes to fix my eyes on you jesus. You are right beside me and i know, i thanks for you that you are standing right next me and you are walking through this with me, i am not alone in this. hallejuah! Lord you are the lifter of my head and my glory.

Isaiah 41:9-11
I took you from the ends of the earth, from its farthest corners I called you. I said, 'You are my servant'; I have chosen you and have not rejected you. So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. (Love this verse, the lord has been giving this verse to me and for other people in the last few months.)

Shane & I broke up

The rumours are true, Shane & I broke up. I am doing ok, I still love him and care for him but last night i came to the conclusion that i have a great life, amazing church family and family and school and i need a guy that respect who i am and willing to wait for me no matter what the circumances are and yes i agree i need to think really things through before making a decision but i am not perfect, i am understanding person, i accept him for who he was, why can't he do the same for me. I don't need more drama in my life, have enough of that thr0ugh my childhood. Thanks for all those are praying for me, i appericate it a lot :)

my easter weekend

i went back to gibsons for 5 days thursday to sunday. friday i went to the good friday service which was good. saw some familar faces including my youth pastors which it was great to see them both. saturday i slept in late and walk my dog and just chill out, i got a phone call from a old friend, marria, she was one of my youth leader and it been almost 2 years since we last saw each other so it was so cool to see her and came up. we went for a walk along bonniebrook and then went for gelato ice cream which was great. it was so good to see her and to catch up. sunday had dinner with family and watch shaune of the dead and then i went to xculture to hang out with shane and other cool people that live out there. watch a movie and just relax and then me and shane walk home back downtown. today, i slept in late, had breakfest with shane and went out to starbuck and we went window shopping for computer games. it been a good break.

update

went to the doctor today, There were not migerines or anything serious like tumours or anything like that. It was muscle and joint tenision in the neck and shoulders and the pain just go up into the head, just have to add heat to my shoulder and neck and if that is not worked then i will have to go do massage therphy and i found that one of my cousin does that for a living and my mom is going to try and get me a discount which would be sweetness.

please pray for me

Hmm i been getting a migranine headache as least one a week for the last 3 weeks, I have no idea why. i went to a doctor yesterday and he did some tests regarding a tumour, which i don't have which is good. he also prescriped me with some pills. I am going to get a second opinion on thursday when i go to my family doctor that i know and trust. Please pray for me. I already miss one day of school last week and this week, i can't afford to miss any more school because of this and i don't want to miss school because i enjoyed it a lot.
In other news, i am well.

there is still hope in the DTES

Matt, becky and myself were on street combat tonight, first if you ask him to break your heart, he does and he definality did tonight. We met this women who was in her 50. She just start to talk to us and we stopped, she just open up on how she was down here for a long time and she had a revelation in the mirrior on saturday, that she has so much to live for, she want to change and she want freedom from addiction. She lost her finger from a fresh eating infection and teeth from drugs. She want to go to treatment. She want to be free. She want to love herself first and then help other people to do the same. Hallejuah. We told her about homestead and her face just lit up and we are going to give her the information about homestead in the next few days. We all pray over and just spoke truth in her life. Her name is paula. We all gave her a hug and we left being encouraged and blessed from the women that has so much hope and desire a change and know that jesus can tranformed her life. Hallejuah!

martyr memories

Favorite street combat storie
Me and andy macdonald were out on street combat and we met our friend bill, his eye was pussed up and extremely bruised so me and andy went to the war room, there was craig and joel and i laid hands on him and i pray for healing and everyone else agree with me and bill's eye was healed that night!
Jonathan & I go through the alley and we met lind and we did the sinner prayer with her and then we saw josh and other friends in the alley later that night and josh had a vision of a girl in the alley crying out for god and that was girl that me and jonathan found.
Extreme prophetic Foot washing at cartneige, meeting heather a 22 year crank addict and washing her feet, allow her to sleep in my room, gave her food. i see her sometimes on the street and she remember me. Writing my first song in the war room ever
Sleepover in 202 with rachael, nicole, jaime R, sueann
Roommate with linsday New and jamie smith sleep on our couch. Having all my squad coming to my room to pray for me when i was sick in bed
Storming out of frustration of squad and going into the next room.
Drill with steve and danielle
Going to Recre8 the first night with aurora and sueann when i was here meeting adam, matt and traci
going to celerbration of lights with travis
pray the bible with techno
going to see a date with drew barrymore with esther during fort night
all the wonderful talk and hang out times with Heather :)
Watch disney movies at 107 with linsay, jenn, josh, heather and phil. good times
reading the order of regulations with melinda on her bed, memorizing the 6 of the 11 docurines in one day
Becoming a solider in 614 on graduation day

Isaiah 58 Raw

Raw has started, last night was started with a dance routine by jonathan evan, donny and ian, good job guys, let just said it was freaking hilerious and entertaining :) Worship was great and Aaron preached and then we pray over each other that our heart would align with the father's heart, our heart would feel what the father would feel. The theme chapter for this year is Isaiah 58. Challenging chapter and i think i am going to try and memorize it. Shout it aloud, do not hold back. Raise your voice like a trumpet. Declare to my people their rebellion and to the house of Jacob their sins.
2 For day after day they seek me out; they seem eager to know my ways, as if they were a nation that does what is right and has not forsaken the commands of its God. They ask me for just decisions and seem eager for God to come near them.
3 'Why have we fasted,' they say, 'and you have not seen it? Why have we humbled ourselves, and you have not noticed?' "Yet on the day of your fasting, you do as you please and exploit all your workers.
4 Your fasting ends in quarreling and strife, and in striking each other with wicked fists. You cannot fast as you do today and expect your voice to be heard on high.
5 Is this the kind of fast I have chosen, only a day for a man to humble himself? Is it only for bowing one's head like a reed and for lying on sackcloth and ashes? Is that what you call a fast, a day acceptable to the LORD ?
6 "Is not this the kind of fasting I have chosen: to loose the chains of injustice and untie the cords of the yoke, to set the oppressed free and break every yoke?
7 Is it not to share your food with the hungry and to provide the poor wanderer with shelter— when you see the naked, to clothe him, and not to turn away from your own flesh and blood?
8 Then your light will break forth like the dawn, and your healing will quickly appear; then your righteousness [a] will go before you, and the glory of the LORD will be your rear guard.
9 Then you will call, and the LORD will answer; you will cry for help, and he will say: Here am I. "If you do away with the yoke of oppression, with the pointing finger and malicious talk,
10 and if you spend yourselves in behalf of the hungry and satisfy the needs of the oppressed, then your light will rise in the darkness, and your night will become like the noonday.
11 The LORD will guide you always; he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land and will strengthen your frame. You will be like a well-watered garden, like a spring whose waters never fail.
12 Your people will rebuild the ancient ruins and will raise up the age-old foundations; you will be called Repairer of Broken Walls, Restorer of Streets with Dwellings.
13 "If you keep your feet from breaking the Sabbath and from doing as you please on my holy day, if you call the Sabbath a delight and the LORD's holy day honorable, and if you honor it by not going your own way and not doing as you please or speaking idle words,
14 then you will find your joy in the LORD, and I will cause you to ride on the heights of the land and to feast on the inheritance of your father Jacob." The mouth of the LORD has spoken. The first night went well I believe. I am not as much involved as past years but i love Raw it is a freaking awesome event. teenager come down here on their spring break, doing urban mission. the lord dig that for sure. later dudes

Yesterday Me & shane celerbrated our 3 month anniversary of being together. It be a road of good and bad time but it been worth it all and things are great between me and him. Me & him went to the dugout and got some coffee and then we walk through the chinese garden, so gorgeous on a sunny day, went to his favorite chinese store and just look at cool looking oriontal furnite, we went to red robin and then me & him went to recre8. it was the perfect afternoon and a good way to celebrated our 3 months

what a mighty god we serve

From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea Creation's revealing Your majesty From the colors of fall to the fragrance of spring Every creature unique in the song that it sings All exclaiming Indescribable, uncontainable,You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.You are amazing God All powerful, untameable, Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaimYou are amazing God Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snowWho imagined the sun and gives source to its light Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of nightNone can fathomIndescribable, uncontainable,You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by nameYou are amazing GodAll powerful, untameable,Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaimYou are amazing GodYou are amazing God Indescribable, uncontainable,You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.You are amazing God All powerful, untameable,Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaimYou are amazing God Indescribable, uncontainable,You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.You are amazing God Incomparable, unchangeable You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same You are amazing God You are amazing God

from my devotions tonight from 2 corthinathin 1:3-7

Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, 4who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God. 5For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows. 6If we are distressed, it is for your comfort and salvation; if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which produces in you patient endurance of the same sufferings we suffer. 7And our hope for you is firm, because we know that just as you share in our sufferings, so also you share in our comfort.

Hallejuah God loves us so much that he comfort us and give us the strength to carry on. how great is our god, what mighty god we serve.

a little peice of my heart.

Why does loving someone so much have hurt so freaking much. i want an open and honesty relationship, it really messy, that was my experience tonight. totally not what i thought it was or was really ready for. i really want to love like 1 cortinathin 13 love.
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails

what i learn from listening prayer when i was away for the weekend
Jesus is up on the mountain top and i was at the botton and i look up and i saw him. He saw me and call down, come up here Rebekah. i want to show you something. I hike up top of the mountain it was gruly and hard, i got all sweaty and grossy, i got to the top of the mountain. tired i collapsed at jesus feet with my eyes shutted, Here i am, Jesus. Jesus came over to me and knelt beside and put his arm around me and said roman 8:28 which said And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him who have been called according to his purpose and he told me to open my eyes so i did, what a breathtaking view and i could see everything and jesus turn to me and said see it was worth it all, all the you do is according my purpose and i will show you my glory. your effect pay off, your faith pay off, your trust to walk the mountain and you were blessed in return. i turn to him and i said thanks u and we sat down and talk.

It is a mountain i need to climb, hurt and grossy and messy is neccarsay, lord just give me the strength to do it so i can see the fruit of this the work i am putting in.

from my devotions this evening

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.

distractions

there is so many distractions in this world, guys, tv, computers and getting too busy with school and just life in general. Some time in life we get too busy to bask in the lord's presence. He know the distractions of this world. I have a cool picture today as i was walking through a park with my dog. Jesus is at the a romatic set table in a resturant with a nice suit on, he waiting for us with a flower in hand, to talk to him and spend time with, he want us to rest in his presence. personally i have been so distracted lately with life and that i have been too busy for the most important relationship in my life, Jesus. I been selifish with my time, God is a jealous god and he want to spend time with me more and more. I need discpline, so i found a celerbation of discpline and pick it up and start to read it last night and will continued to read it. i need jesus more in my life. I need him every hour of every day. i need a balanced life. jesus plus all the other stuff in my life because they are important to me as well.

verse of the day

Dear children, let us not love with words or tongue but with actions and in truth.”- 1 John 3:18

my rations this morning John 21:15-25

15When they had finished eating, Jesus said to Simon Peter, "Simon son of John, do you truly love me more than these?" "Yes, Lord," he said, "you know that I love you." Jesus said, "Feed my lambs."
16Again Jesus said, "Simon son of John, do you truly love me?" He answered, "Yes, Lord, you know that I love you." Jesus said, "Take care of my sheep."
17The third time he said to him, "Simon son of John, do you love me?" Peter was hurt because Jesus asked him the third time, "Do you love me?" He said, "Lord, you know all things; you know that I love you."
18Jesus said, "Feed my sheep. I tell you the truth, when you were younger you dressed yourself and went where you wanted; but when you are old you will stretch out your hands, and someone else will dress you and lead you where you do not want to go." 19Jesus said this to indicate the kind of death by which Peter would glorify God. Then he said to him, "Follow me!"
20Peter turned and saw that the disciple whom Jesus loved was following them. (This was the one who had leaned back against Jesus at the supper and had said, "Lord, who is going to betray you?") 21When Peter saw him, he asked, "Lord, what about him?"
22Jesus answered, "If I want him to remain alive until I return, what is that to you? You must follow me." 23Because of this, the rumor spread among the brothers that this disciple would not die. But Jesus did not say that he would not die; he only said, "If I want him to remain alive until I return, what is that to you?"
24This is the disciple who testifies to these things and who wrote them down. We know that his testimony is true.
25Jesus did many other things as well. If every one of them were written down, I suppose that even the whole world would not have room for the books that would be written.


We were doing listening prayer at knee drill on thursday and jesus ask us if we love him, this question has been in my head for the last few days now. do i honourly love him, does my words match up with the actions i am doing. is my life living up to what i already attained in christ, a part of me thinks no. Jesus Forgive me, help me to match my words with my action, i want to love you as much as you loves us. You love us first and thanks for your love and grace. lord help me to seek and find you in the secret place.

verse of the day

There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.”- 1 John 4:18

Heather, travis and rob will be in town soon, so excited to see all of them :) and to meet leo and jesse

random verse

But it is God who judges: He brings one down, he exalts another.

SASB # 724

Have we not known it, have we not heard it? Power unto god belongs. Yet do we daily find in his mercy, themes for the sweetest songs; Healing the wounded, raising the fallen, Making the blind to see, saying all who seek his face, these precious of redeeming grace:

No more! No more
He remember sins no more
They are pardoned for ever
and he will never,
bring up against me any more.
I'll hear no more of the evil days of yore;
I am pardoned offender, and God will remember them no more.

Joy burst of singing gaily are springing with every day that starts
if we were silent then would the stones cry, shame on our fainting hearts
O banish sadness, sing now for gladness, Glory in christ, the Lord
Who is a god like unto thee
one can pardon iniquity?

Safe in the dark day, safe in the bright day; safe til my latest breath;
There is endurance in this assurance, stronger than fear of death, When the accuser of judgement. seeking my soul to claim, i have a token in the blood, I have the word of a pardoning God.

Hallejuah!

Feb update

February has been a pretty good month for me. I realized that my trigger of my insomnia is stressing over my schooling because i really want to do well in this course and i am too hard on myself when i am not. Me and Shane step back for a brief time when we realized that we were both miserable and we both could not hear the voice of the lord so we got back together and the blessing and the favour of the lord returned for the both of us. Shane met my dad, my two brothers and it went well, then he met my sister and my mom so now he has met all my family. he proposed to me and i agree but after a brief time we both felt the timing was off and went back to courtship and it been great. It is a blessing for me to have him in my life. We also both realized that we both spend too much time together so we stepped back and this past week we almost did not see each other at all so we have to make a happy medium and where the idea of date nights came in. Monday and Friday night we are going to hang out intentionally one on one. we had our first one and it was really good, it was a lot of fun. I finished my phase 2 and decided not to continued on with phase 3 because i just want to finished phase 2 because i started it and this year was set aside for ECE. School is going well, stressful at times but i enjoy it and my classmates and my teachers. if any of you have tips for stress relievers let me know please. i got the chance to spend some time with Doug when he was in town and it was rich and blessing time as always when he comes. i got a new cell phone and if you want to have the number, email me. hmm that is all i can think about writing right now. Blessing and grace

psalm 103:8-13

You might of heard the expression, once gay alway gay, personally i think it is a load of bull. i believe that gay is a sin and if someone turn straight after having an encounter with jesus christ then he is straight now, praise the lord! He died for all sins.
I love this verse:
The LORD is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in love.
He will not always accuse, nor will he harbor his anger forever;
he does not treat us as our sins deserve or repay us according to our iniquities.
For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is his love for those who fear him; 12 as far as the east is from the west, so far has he removed our transgressions from us.

Why does people have to judge the past, the past is the past, the past is the past for a reason. I wish people would see a person the way they are now and what they are becoming.

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To have a heart like his to look into the faces of the saved and rejoice, there just one grave away from being like Jesus, to have a heart like him, to look into the face of the lost and pray. for unless they turn, there one grave away from torment.

It is a serious thing to live in a society of possible god and godless, to remember that the dullest and most uninteresting person you talk to many one day be a creature which, if you saw it now, you would be strongly tempted to worship, or else a horror and a corruption such as you meet only in a nightmare, all day long we are, in some degree, helping each other to one or the other of these destination. C.S Lewis

And so my challenge to you is simple, ask god to help you have his eternal view of the world.

Every time i heard this song, i think of shane

"Ever The Same"We were drawn from the weedsWe were brave like soldiersFalling down under the pale moonlightYou were holding to meLike a someone brokenAnd I couldn't tell you but I'm telling you nowJust let me hold you while you're falling apartJust let me hold you and we'll both fall downFall on meTell me everything you want me to beForever with you forever in meEver the sameWe would stand in the windWe were free like waterFlowing downUnder the warmth of the sunNow it's cold and we're scaredAnd we've both been shakenHey, look at usMan, this doesn't need to be the endJust let me hold you while you're falling apartJust let me hold you and we'll both fall downFall on me tell me everything you want me to beForever with youForever in meEver the sameCall on meI'll be there for you and you'll be there for meForever it's youForever in meEver the sameYou may need me thereTo carry all your weightBut you're no burden I assureYou tide me overWith a warmth I'll not forgetBut I can only give you loveFall on me tell me everything you want me to beForever with youForever in meEver the sameCall on meI'll be there for you and you'll be there for meForever it's youForever in meEver the sameForever with youForever in meEver the same(Ever the same)

John 15:15

Greater love has no one than this, that he lay down his life for his friends.

He called us friends, he want to be friends with us, we were sinner and now he see us clean, Hallejuah!

What is your best all time conversation or revelation that jesus reveal to you in your quiet time?

Mine: Going through a child memory when i was rejected in school and how he was right beside me the whole time and how much freedom attained for dealing with a little part of the problem.

He goes with you with every where you, He is strong and courtagious and he is your strength when you are weak.

Me and shane :)

Recre8 wedensday

I lead the coolest night, Wedensday, some people will think that thursday night is, those people will remain nameless. anyway we were praying, stephanie had a word that jesus want to recre8 be fill with his praise and it was. Stephanie play her guitar and close to the end, we were playing cards and we singing our favorite worship songs. We pray over people and it was just a picture of what recre8 is supposed to look like. It was an awesome night. One of the best i have experienced in a while. Praise the lord!

Rations

I tell you, open your eyes and look at the fields! They are ripe for harvest. 36Even now the reaper draws his wages, even now he harvests the crop for eternal life, so that the sower and the reaper may be glad together. 37Thus the saying 'One sows and another reaps' is true. 38I sent you to reap what you have not worked for. Others have done the hard work, and you have reaped the benefits of their labor." From John 4: 35-38

i find this verse fitted into war college, the death and glory plowed and prepared the feilds and we reap the benefits of their labour and the martyrs did with the holy session and what the revolution session reaped for this yer. Hallejuah more lord more :)

Today

sum up version:Good but long, but here we go with the details
Woke up, have a shower and got on my uniform and met Shane at his house, we went up to metro town citadel for church. Major Elizabeth grad point that Shane has brought a special someone with him today so he stood up and introduced me as the girl i am courting and i am pretty embarrassed, not sure why but i was little. It was a good time of worship, mixture of 614 style of worship and old salvo style. it was cool. i did not know many songs but it is all good. The sermon was about heaven and the text was john 13:36 to John 14 :5. it was good message. I lean over and said not very nice but truthfully comment to Shane, we do not need to repeat it after church, it was their annual fellowship coffee and there were this skor bars that a lady made, they were amazing. we dealt with a lot of things regarding the wedding today. If we are not engaged yet, we both detailed orated so we both agree we should start thinking what our wedding want to look like so we don't need to stressed when we are in engaged. Next stop, Xculture: Superbowl with lots of guys and junk food equal lot of fun and a sore stomach specially when you had nothing but that all day. Bears Lost:( crying insert here) Apparently prince is a good performer and someone want three of his cd, not going to say any names. We went off to my sister place. I have to talk to my parents, that is always fun. we were going to watch a movie, but we decide to talk about Barnum family stories and just chatting and eating Chinese food. So concludes the day of Rebekah's Sunday.

LALALALALALALA

Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him psalm 37:17b

The lord has been speaking to me about be silence before him and just being in his presence.


Tired of telling you, you have me
When I know you really don't
Tired of telling you I'll followWhen I know I reallly won't
Cause I'd rather stand here speechless
With no great words to say
If my silence is more truthful
And my ears can hear how to walk in your way In the silence You are speaking In the quiet I can feel the fire And it's burning, burning deeply Burning all that it is that you desire to be silent, in me Oh Jesus can you hear me?My soul is screaming outAnd my broken will cries teach meWhat your Kingdom's all about Unite my heart to fear you,To fear your holy name And create a life of worship In the spirit and truth of your loving ways

your thoughts?

sh0uld man be the head of the household and make all the major spirtual and other big decisons after discussing with his wife or should the wife and man be equal in making the decisions?
Your thoughts?

Me and shane are the same page on this but curious what other people thoughts?

My love language

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Physical Touch
with a secondary love language being
Quality Time.

Complete set of results

Physical Touch:		10
Quality Time:		9
Words of Affirmation:		5
Acts of Service:		3
Receiving Gifts:		2

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i am enaged

Jesus is freakin cool

How great is our god, that is all you need to know :) He is good and his love endure forevers. He answers when you call out to him and him alone.
Yesterday i got to sit in a prayer minstry with stephanie, it was freaking awesome. i was praying that i would see doug some time this week and i did it was sweet, we went out for coffee to talk and catch up, it was great to see him.
Hmm school is good, i am going to my old centre tommorrow to do an observation, not too excited about the assignment but am excited about seeing the kids from before.
Cristina edmond is awesome, I love her a lot.
Shane is awesome, i enjoy him a lot, he is a good guy :)

Rations

Who is wise and understanding among you? Let him show it by his good life, by deeds done in the humility that comes from wisdom. 14But if you harbor bitter envy and selfish ambition in your hearts, do not boast about it or deny the truth. 15Such "wisdom" does not come down from heaven but is earthly, unspiritual, of the devil. 16For where you have envy and selfish ambition, there you find disorder and every evil practice. 17But the wisdom that comes from heaven is first of all pure; then peace-loving, considerate, submissive, full of mercy and good fruit, impartial and sincere. 18Peacemakers who sow in peace raise a harvest of righteousness.

Jame 3:13-18

Lord i want wisdom from heaven, to be full with mercy and a branch off the tree of the life that bears fruit


In other news I am quite well.
How the lord bless me this week
Tuesday night street combat.
hang out with my recre8 team on wedenesday & family guy monopoly with andy/shane/bec sisters.
Thursday: Receive a check from minstry of early child hood education, able to take out
sshane to eat :)
Knee drill was amazing, a good time of worshipping the lord and imparting gifts to each other, it was awesome. Intimacy with the lord, grace, faith, joy, revelation and wisdom.
Friday: School was pretty good, went to hope renefrew, it was lovely to hang out with stephy,stephanie, holly and jenea. it was a good way to spend an evening
Saturday: rations this morning,cleansing streams cell and then hanging out with family, saw my brother play handball and my dad took me and shane out to lunch and now we are doing a lord of the ring marathon. we are on a break. Lord of the ring movies has good preaching moments in it, maybe i will blog some of them. will see what happens.
doug burr is in town, woohoo :)

street combat last night

street combat was last night, i had a new excitement for it last night, i really felt joy and the lord was going to do something on the street of the downtown, that people would have an holy encounter with the one true god.
It was a good night. Me, matt and becky went out and hit the alleys and we were in blood alley and there was a guy that was mourning and sound like he was in pain. so i call out said if he was ok, we went over and ask him if he was ok and need anything or prayer. he disagree with prayer but i believe as we just be there bought peace to him because he became more peaceful after we got there. it was cool. What i heard from donny and jermeny that the spirt of god was moving in a powerful way through them as well. Praise the lord
Jesus i want to see your fire on the streets, the spirt of prophecy to be release over the street of the eastside, healing and holy encounter with your holy spirit. hallejuah

burning in the sky

was listening to this morning on my mp3 player.
Youve been too long upon this mountainIts time you journey to the sea
Sometimes to trust in your false comfort
Is easier than trusting me
Some men only believe in what their eyes can seeSome men only believe in what their minds conceive
But believings like conceiving
This child that were receiving
A gift beyond our reason Its more of what we need, and less of what we know It calls not to our mind, but cries out to our soulThat mountains burning in the sky To the heart of heaven Without the fire well never fly To the heart of heaven Can you hear Gods holy cry From the heart of heaven Lay it all down Lay it all down Lay it all down For the heart of heaven

Jesus i want more of your heart of heaven in my life

my week in a nutshell

Hard.....
This whole thing about waiting on the lord about me and shane getting together again after he receive that growth the lord want to do in him. Every day, i had want to cry and most days i did cry. i never felt about a guy like this before. Every thing inside of me wants to be with him right now but i know it is not the right timing and i have to wait on the lord. I had some good war room shifts and through music and scripture the lord has encouraged me. i been having trouble sleeping this past week. Well In him i trust. Pray for me, for strength and i will live up to what i already attained and i will receive what the lord want to teach through this all. Today was a good day for me, maybe because i went to bed early and it took me an hour to get to sleep when i did i slept through the night and i had a good day at school today.

Lean not on my own understanding, lean on him and he will direct my path.
proverb 3:5-6

GRACE TO YOUR FACE ALL!
REBEKAH

the lord spoke to me through this song today, fix you by coldplay.

When you try your best but you don't succeedWhen you get what you want but not what you needWhen you feel so tired but you can't sleep Stuck in reverse.And the tears come streaming down your face When you loose something you can't replace When you love someone but it goes to waste Could it be worse?Lights will guide you home And ignite your bonesAnd I will try to fix youAnd high up above or down below When you're too in love to let it go But if you never try you'll never know Just what you're worthLights will guide you home And ignite your bonesAnd I will try to fix you Tears stream, down your face When you lose something you cannot replace Tears stream down your face And I..Tears stream, down your face I promise you I will learn from the mistakes Tears stream down your face And I..Lights will guide you home And ignite your bonesAnd I will try to fix you.

summitting to authority is some time hard but important to do it

Lord, You are strong when i am weak, You are the one that heal the brokehearted. Lord i don't know what you are doing but my eyes are on you. Lord open my eyes to the things i can't not see. Lord You are my helper. I will choose bless your name when my life is good and when my life sore of stinks. i just feeling sad about all this right now but i know it would be good and worth it all in the end. i just don't see it in its fullness yet.

I got a word on new year eve for shane that this year will be a year of growth and well apparently it was confirmated by our wonderful leadership so after me and shane pray and talk about it, we decide it would be the best if we hold off our relationship until fullness of growth happens in shane's life. We are still friends and wait on the lord on when to return to each other to pick up where we left in our relationship.

Lord I trust in you! I believe in what you are doing in me and in shane's life. I believe that you want to teach me something through all this and i accept your teachings.

Blessing to you all
Rebekah :)

verse of the day

He has showed you, O man, what is good. And what does the LORD require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God.”- Micah 6:8

Lord make me humble, you are the humble king, that your mercy and compassionate heart flow through me and your justice flow like a river among on the street of the vancouver. amen

this my heart desire

Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God—this is your spiritual act of worship. Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.

Lord I want to be completely surrender to you and your will, i wants be a living sacrifice for you! I want everything i do will honour you and it would be a sweet sound in your ear.

Revelation in the war room.
Name of the the lord: God who gave birth to you. He love me before i was born, he made me perfect in my mother's womb. if i fall, he still there to pick me up and carry me. he is still proud of me and what i am doing for him and his glory. he is carrying me along. Praise the lord! From psalm 139:13-18

My cell came to me when i was in the war room so i did not miss cell, it was a blessing :D

recap of 2006

Well 2006 has definitely be a year of up and down but a year that i will remember.
Highlights of 2006
Jeni & Regan engagement/enrollment so happy for them
Europe in the summer of 2006
Heather's visit & rob surprise visit
more freedom and healing in the lord
more intimacy with Jesus
seeing Esther
deeper revelation of 614 is really my family
deeper revelation of Vancouver is my home
meeting the holy session, man i love you guys and miss you
Met the revolution session, they are great!
Starting an amazing career working with kids in ECE(early childhood education)
More closer relationship with my family
Of course i can't forget at the end of 2006, meeting the best guy in the world beside Jesus, Shane and starting a relationship with him.

Hopes for 2007
More of Jesus and less of me
More freedom for Shane, believe in faith that the lord will restore 100 fold on what the enemy has took ed from him
Justice against child trafficking and in general on the streets of Vancouver.
that 2007 would be the year of a revival, the year of the lord.
Captives will be release, prisoners will be set free and the chain of the wicked will be loosed
Passion for the lost
Faith to believe jesus's hand is mighty to save
Salvation for my family